sorry it took me awhile to update but im updating :).been pretty busy lately and yeah...last monday i went to renew my passport and i bumped into Ash :).had breakfast with her and we spent the entire day together cause she wanted to follow me go out with a friend :).tht friend was really really late!tht friend was supposed to come at 2 or 3 but instead he came at 8!but i cant blame hime entirely cause he was helping his mom for christmas.anyways then last weekend was really hectic cause i was serving for the christmas luncheon :D.i was supposed to go to church at 6 but i had no other transport than my brudder so i followed him and got there ard 1.30?he was supposed to b there at 1 sharp cause the chairs and tables were coming.but when we got there the chairs werent even there!so i met up with Jon and Daniel and they wanted lunch but they already said they'd eat anything and it was all up to me to make a decision -.- hate it when tht happens.then Daniel started making jokes bout how it would take me a lifetime to make up my mind on just where to eat.i gave him the death glare and of course he'd just smile at me and i'd laugh.my brudder said 'just pick anywhere la!'.so we ate at the pan mee shop and we just sat there ate and talk talk talk xD.Daniel showed me tht there's a Marshmallow & Spaghetti game :O.i sucked at it :p.after we left i just hung out with Jon cause the chairs came.and he showed me his 'model walk'.super hilarious i tell you!couldnt stop laughing xD.and we exchanged our right slippers and at some point i fake befriended him and he reminded him he had my slipper -.- he said 'if you dont wanna b my friend,you're not getting your slipper bck!'.but it was funny.good times good times xD.ahahahahaha anyways met up with Melanie,Miriam and Martin at One Stop.wait i just realised all their names' start with M xD.ahahahahaha.Phoebe was late xD.Phoebe asked me if i was doing anything after all this cleaning up i told her no.cleaned up in less than an hr and we had to wait for more chairs so they told us we could go for dinner.so i went to makan with Phoebe and Jon and when we came bck,the chairs still havent arrived -.-
so we went to One Stop again to meet up with Sereen and Michelle.Sereen insisted i try the tau fu fa eventhough i didnt want any but she ordered it anyway.but she paid for it la so yeah...then all 4 of us just started talkling bout relationships and i realised tht even tho they're yrs older than me,they really do have my bck :).tht night i found out tht Sereen didnt even talk to the ex after she heard bout what happened.but now its all ok :).everybody's talking to everybody :p.went bck upstairs to clean the chairs and then we were done so we came down and Phoebe and Sereen went bck d.so Michelle,Daniel,Jon and i sat on the stair and just talked.i got home at 12 :O.had to wake up at 6 and left the house ard 7.45?but my brudder was supposed to b there at 8 but we got there 20 mins later.so he was late again xD.Phoebe came late again xD.i guess she really didnt wanna go home cause she asked me if i was doing anything after we were done again.but sadly we didnt go out...when i got home i was so tired i actually slept frm 5-11 and for some reason i kept crying frm 1 to 5 :(.it was weird cause all a sudden i just kept thinking of someone i should think of...anyways i just need to clear things up before school starts cause need to concentrate on PMR PMR PMR so tht i can hopefully get good results and prove my mom wrong to the core!:)
feeling confused right now.people say i should give him another chance but he already screwed up the fist time.and now i think he's leading me on.i dont know.i think we should clear things up.
gonna stop typing now cause im lazy to type more.if i can,i'll blog from my ipod later :p.check out my tumblr tho.the typographies are there because i guess i can relate to them?there's more pictures on tumblr but the stories are here so...check it out kay?:p
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
It's A Beautiful Night And We're looking For Something Dumb To Do...
hello again :).on Saturday i went out with Sarah and Erika for lunch :).we went to Happy Days and ate and ate and ate xD.we ate lots cant remember much tho xD.eheheheh it was so fun!took lotsa photos and i kinda camwhored a lil :p.but took a few pictures x).then today i found out something amazing!this is how i found out :D
*i walked towards my brother who was hanging ard other people(too many names to mention).Daniel was on the phone and then he saw me.after i stood behind my brother for less than 5 seconds and then Daniel came up to me*
Daniel: i didnt know you were serving
Me: no im not...
Daniel: yes you are!
Me: no.im not.
Daniel: yes.you are.
Me: no...
Daniel: yesss
Me: no la
Uncle Bosco: yeah you are
*at this point i was really really really confused.i thought they were playing a prank on me*
Me: i dont think so :S
Daniel: you are la
Jon: eyh you are seriving
Me: no...
*my brother turns ard*
My brother: yeah you're serving
*turns bck*
i was really confused but then Aunty Sheila said 'we put you're name in.if thts alright' and and i was like yeah sure its ok :D.and she asked if any of my friend would want to too.so i pulled sherrinder in too eheheheh :).Melanie already had plans cause she told me when someone asked her earlier.and now i get to serve :D.weee~ eventhough im 2 yrs earlier :p
weee~ ehehehe :).gonna go watch the new episode of Gossip Girl now :D
*i walked towards my brother who was hanging ard other people(too many names to mention).Daniel was on the phone and then he saw me.after i stood behind my brother for less than 5 seconds and then Daniel came up to me*
Daniel: i didnt know you were serving
Me: no im not...
Daniel: yes you are!
Me: no.im not.
Daniel: yes.you are.
Me: no...
Daniel: yesss
Me: no la
Uncle Bosco: yeah you are
*at this point i was really really really confused.i thought they were playing a prank on me*
Me: i dont think so :S
Daniel: you are la
Jon: eyh you are seriving
Me: no...
*my brother turns ard*
My brother: yeah you're serving
*turns bck*
i was really confused but then Aunty Sheila said 'we put you're name in.if thts alright' and and i was like yeah sure its ok :D.and she asked if any of my friend would want to too.so i pulled sherrinder in too eheheheh :).Melanie already had plans cause she told me when someone asked her earlier.and now i get to serve :D.weee~ eventhough im 2 yrs earlier :p
weee~ ehehehe :).gonna go watch the new episode of Gossip Girl now :D
Monday, November 29, 2010
Let's Run Away To The Place Where Love First Found Us
hellooo :).i know i've kinda neglected my blog but who reads this anyway?!anyway i didnt wanna be those people who neglects their blog and later get another blog -.-
even tho i have my tumblr,im still trying to update this one just as much :).if only there was an app for blogspot then things would b easier but tht's not happening so...):
gonna try to simplify things here,so things may get spacey :p.on monday of the last week of school,tht day...was one of the best days :).got too hug somebody :3.ehehehe.wednesday was a holiday and i FINALLY went out Laksh :).had so much fun with her alone in the afternoon.then Sashwiny.Sashwarnan,Khaielaash,Brandon and Naviin came along so we stayed till 10?yeah...on thursday was my last day and i dont remember much :p.
HOLIDAYS STARTED
my first official call on the holidays was from my dear momma Sarah :).and she called me at 10 in the morn.btw,i slept ard 3 the night before (like i do now).the phone conversation went:
*i spoke in a very very sleepy voice*
Sarah:Hello!
Me:hi...
Sarah:so cyn...
Me:yeah?
Sarah:wanna go sunway lagoon?:)
Me:when?today?
Sarah:no!another day :)
Me:you called me this early.just to ask me whether i wanna go to lagoon another day?
Sarah:YUP!
Me:ermmm ok.sure...
Sarah:so when you wanna go?
Me:can i call you later?
Sarah:sure :)
Me:kay...good...im gonna go to sleejhkflp
*puts down phone*
funny huh?okay mayb not :p.so my first week of holidays werent as exciting as i thought it'd be :p.didnt do anything on the weekdays but on saturday Sarah,Eva,Azu,Ash,Kyle,Gio and i went to lagoon :).Keith joined us wayyy late and he didnt go on any rides at all!thts kinda sad...he wasted 60 bucks!before it rained,we went to the wave pool.had so much fun i tell you!ash and i kept dancing to the tunes :D.then it started raining and we started dancing more xD.had sooo much fun!:D
yesterday i went to Shook for dinner and daymnnn the food was good :).
new found love-Sour Blue Raspberry Bonbons :3
refound love-Sticky :D
love love love em :).want them for christmas!if anyone bought me a jar of Sticky,i would love them!no joke!well im lazy to type more so yeah...
even tho i have my tumblr,im still trying to update this one just as much :).if only there was an app for blogspot then things would b easier but tht's not happening so...):
gonna try to simplify things here,so things may get spacey :p.on monday of the last week of school,tht day...was one of the best days :).got too hug somebody :3.ehehehe.wednesday was a holiday and i FINALLY went out Laksh :).had so much fun with her alone in the afternoon.then Sashwiny.Sashwarnan,Khaielaash,Brandon and Naviin came along so we stayed till 10?yeah...on thursday was my last day and i dont remember much :p.
HOLIDAYS STARTED
my first official call on the holidays was from my dear momma Sarah :).and she called me at 10 in the morn.btw,i slept ard 3 the night before (like i do now).the phone conversation went:
*i spoke in a very very sleepy voice*
Sarah:Hello!
Me:hi...
Sarah:so cyn...
Me:yeah?
Sarah:wanna go sunway lagoon?:)
Me:when?today?
Sarah:no!another day :)
Me:you called me this early.just to ask me whether i wanna go to lagoon another day?
Sarah:YUP!
Me:ermmm ok.sure...
Sarah:so when you wanna go?
Me:can i call you later?
Sarah:sure :)
Me:kay...good...im gonna go to sleejhkflp
*puts down phone*
funny huh?okay mayb not :p.so my first week of holidays werent as exciting as i thought it'd be :p.didnt do anything on the weekdays but on saturday Sarah,Eva,Azu,Ash,Kyle,Gio and i went to lagoon :).Keith joined us wayyy late and he didnt go on any rides at all!thts kinda sad...he wasted 60 bucks!before it rained,we went to the wave pool.had so much fun i tell you!ash and i kept dancing to the tunes :D.then it started raining and we started dancing more xD.had sooo much fun!:D
yesterday i went to Shook for dinner and daymnnn the food was good :).
new found love-Sour Blue Raspberry Bonbons :3
refound love-Sticky :D
love love love em :).want them for christmas!if anyone bought me a jar of Sticky,i would love them!no joke!well im lazy to type more so yeah...
Thursday, November 11, 2010
You Make It Real For Me ♥
im under the covers right now,typing this.so many things have been happening recently and it's really difficult to type all bout it now in the a.m..anyways it was Laksh's birthday the day before yesterday and she absolutely love love loved my present and thank goodness to tht!ahahah anyways,you're probably wondering what i got her right?i got her a pair of red converse :).something tht she's been wanting for yes and now i got her a pair!ehehehe so happy for her.
ok enough bout tht.not so long ago(monday),i realised tht it's no use waiting for him to be in a relationship.i say this why?cause i've tht he's into someone else and mayb it's too late.i know im supposed to be heart broken and sad but no.i feel perfectly fine and it's weird.i guess im still waiting for him hoping one day he changes his mind and realises tht i've been waiting for him all this while.he's been there for me when i was going through all the bullshit bout my past and he knows me.he's has always been there for me and honestly as much as I wanna b in a relationship with him,i don't.as long as he's there to make me feel better when im down then im happy.im missing him now.but he's bck and i hope he's going to school cause somehow,i feel like giving him a hug.it's a weird feeling but i want him to know tht im here if he needs me.
dramatic stuff,done!yesterday was really fun!Eva came to vsit us and we had such a blast!took lotsa pictures.i'll post em one day :).Sarah,Azu and i took videos in the hall when there were teachers all ard but they didn't notice xD.had fun la!hope he comes later.it would b nice to just talk to him again :).anyways it's two in the morning now and I gotta wake up at six so I better stop :p
OH OH OH Sarah and I are going to do a musical next yr.or at least try :).and and and we're gonna do some cheerleading reasons because we want our secondary life to b fun not just study all the time!so I think next yr we're gonna have lotsa fun.we're gonna plot it,write the scripts and all those things.im so excited we're even writing out the storyline tomorrow!*screams* fingers crossed :D
okay okay im going off now!
nighty nights!
wait no morningy morning
ahahah tht was lame
ok enough bout tht.not so long ago(monday),i realised tht it's no use waiting for him to be in a relationship.i say this why?cause i've tht he's into someone else and mayb it's too late.i know im supposed to be heart broken and sad but no.i feel perfectly fine and it's weird.i guess im still waiting for him hoping one day he changes his mind and realises tht i've been waiting for him all this while.he's been there for me when i was going through all the bullshit bout my past and he knows me.he's has always been there for me and honestly as much as I wanna b in a relationship with him,i don't.as long as he's there to make me feel better when im down then im happy.im missing him now.but he's bck and i hope he's going to school cause somehow,i feel like giving him a hug.it's a weird feeling but i want him to know tht im here if he needs me.
dramatic stuff,done!yesterday was really fun!Eva came to vsit us and we had such a blast!took lotsa pictures.i'll post em one day :).Sarah,Azu and i took videos in the hall when there were teachers all ard but they didn't notice xD.had fun la!hope he comes later.it would b nice to just talk to him again :).anyways it's two in the morning now and I gotta wake up at six so I better stop :p
OH OH OH Sarah and I are going to do a musical next yr.or at least try :).and and and we're gonna do some cheerleading reasons because we want our secondary life to b fun not just study all the time!so I think next yr we're gonna have lotsa fun.we're gonna plot it,write the scripts and all those things.im so excited we're even writing out the storyline tomorrow!*screams* fingers crossed :D
okay okay im going off now!
nighty nights!
wait no morningy morning
ahahah tht was lame
Thursday, November 4, 2010
The One Ride I Don't Want To Be On
friday was emotional and kinda pathetic but yeah...made ash mad and i really didnt wanna have tht sort of drama at the end of the schooling yr :|.and as i was crying,i looked up for awhile trying to think of what to write in someone else's yrbook when suddenly he walks by and a tear drops.i think he saw me which made me curious.did he see me?did he wonder why i was so sad?did he want to know?did he care?
then later tht day i saw something tht made me upset and the entire night i couldnt stop thinking bout him :|.he wrote in my yrbook :).but the thing is...there was to spots one in purple ink and the one in the bottom is blue.two very alike signatures and i still dont know...ahhh nevermind i guess i'll have to ask him :S.gonna make this real short so yeah
then later tht day i saw something tht made me upset and the entire night i couldnt stop thinking bout him :|.he wrote in my yrbook :).but the thing is...there was to spots one in purple ink and the one in the bottom is blue.two very alike signatures and i still dont know...ahhh nevermind i guess i'll have to ask him :S.gonna make this real short so yeah
Thursday, October 28, 2010
The Things Of The Past
so had a pretty good week,i guess.got bck my results by wednesday?pretty much kinda got what i expected so thts good right?practically passed everything except for history and mandarin?anyways i completely crapped tht so yeah :p.ahahaha
got our year books on yesterday?i think it was yesterday :p.anyways dont have many ppl writing on mine but still its nice to know i have friends :).i sound so pathetic,i know :|.heck i am pathetic!
i think Daniel Tan Boon Leong likes poking me :p.he keeps poking me :O.am i tht pokable?unfortunately yes :p.people like poking me.mayb cause im fluffy-ly flabby D: sometimes i like people poking me.its a weird tickly giggly feeling.makes me laugh and sometimes it just brightens up my day.but i prefer hugs :)
anyways gotta write on sombody's yr book but somehow im having a problem with writing anything down :|.this afternoon when he asked,he kinda shouted it out loud and i was with Sarah and Laksh.of course i said yes and when he walked up the stairs,the both of them started their ooh's and 'CYN!!!'s xD.Laksh even said 'i bet when you go home,you'll scream like mad.full of joy.ahahaha' but the sad thing was,i didnt have the time to write in it cause i had to do some banner for the general use of the school or something.anyways,he told me to continue after school since we had some time and i thought sitting on the floor,in the middle of the arch would mayb help but...unfortunately no :|.so i had to take it home and i've been thinking for hours!couldnt come up with anything.even when Adik and Momma talking bout stuff with me,i still wasnt focused...i was thinking bout what to write.and i wanna write something amazing tht could put a smile on his face everytime he reads it.i want to make an impression,to have him reading it over and over again but i dont think tht could happen so i think i'll just make it as sweet and long (he told me to make it long :]) as i possibly can.as long as it comes frm the heart right?yeahhh...i think i'll right frm the heart even if he thinks otherwise.at least im writing frm the heart :)
got our year books on yesterday?i think it was yesterday :p.anyways dont have many ppl writing on mine but still its nice to know i have friends :).i sound so pathetic,i know :|.heck i am pathetic!
i think Daniel Tan Boon Leong likes poking me :p.he keeps poking me :O.am i tht pokable?unfortunately yes :p.people like poking me.mayb cause im fluffy-ly flabby D: sometimes i like people poking me.its a weird tickly giggly feeling.makes me laugh and sometimes it just brightens up my day.but i prefer hugs :)
anyways gotta write on sombody's yr book but somehow im having a problem with writing anything down :|.this afternoon when he asked,he kinda shouted it out loud and i was with Sarah and Laksh.of course i said yes and when he walked up the stairs,the both of them started their ooh's and 'CYN!!!'s xD.Laksh even said 'i bet when you go home,you'll scream like mad.full of joy.ahahaha' but the sad thing was,i didnt have the time to write in it cause i had to do some banner for the general use of the school or something.anyways,he told me to continue after school since we had some time and i thought sitting on the floor,in the middle of the arch would mayb help but...unfortunately no :|.so i had to take it home and i've been thinking for hours!couldnt come up with anything.even when Adik and Momma talking bout stuff with me,i still wasnt focused...i was thinking bout what to write.and i wanna write something amazing tht could put a smile on his face everytime he reads it.i want to make an impression,to have him reading it over and over again but i dont think tht could happen so i think i'll just make it as sweet and long (he told me to make it long :]) as i possibly can.as long as it comes frm the heart right?yeahhh...i think i'll right frm the heart even if he thinks otherwise.at least im writing frm the heart :)
Sunday, October 24, 2010
It Gets Harder Everyday But I cant Seem To Shake The Pain
so this entire week has definitely been a roller coaster ride.the entire week was mixed with...my finals to ppl's birthday and something else.monday started out...okay i guess :|.then tuesday came i felt like a nuclear bomb had landed on me!thts how terrible i felt because exactly a yr frm tuesday something happened tht made me so remorseful.last yr when i heard the news,it took me 10 mins to register it in my mind.and after those 10 mins,i only had on memory in my head.i was so blessed.tht night really brought me to tearseven worse then the time i cried during sports day when i so close to getting third place :/.anyways only at midnight did i realise tht someone turned 21 on tht very day!
wednesday was okay nothing much to say.exams tht day wasnt much.then thursday came and it was math and history :O.completely screwed my history and math i tried my hardest i even memorised the formula without writing it on my arm!ahaha sorry perasan momment xD.after history was over,everyone was clapping and going 'WOOHOO!' xD.adrenaline rush!and on friday was mr.Kylie Hon's birthday!bought him a cake :).see i can b a good friend!
p.s. if i ever said tht in front of Laksh,she'd b all 'I nvr even said you were one!'.ahahaah
saturday i went to pyramid :).so good to finally go out again!and i bumped into the birthday girl TRISHA TEH HUI YEN!she's so adorable ;).too bad she couldnt see this xD.anyways finally got to use the lappie and i checked my pokes on facebook just now and i got a poke frm Daniel Tan Boon Leong!did i even add him?dont remember tht.oh Daniel Tan is the same Daniel Tan frm last yr tht always commented on my age at Sue's 19th Birthday party.
owh yeah!celebrated Sue's birthday the day before my finals started did the usual and Sakinah brought Fateh this time.she told me he begged her to let him tag along.i avoided contact the entire time.was damn awkward la,not tht i had something going on with him but Sakinah said he has a crush on me :|.not trying to b perasan here.all i did was say hi to to him and tht was LAST YR AT HER PARTY :O.saw Daniel Tan again he's not gonna call me 'little girl' anymore :).he said i've changed a lot :p.is tht true?
you know its so damn annoying when someone starts a conversation with you and you chat for awhile then all of a sudden,they just stopped replying you.annoys the crap out of me!he did tht to me recently and now i dont even know what to think.im afraid i might start to annoy him or something i just hate this feeling >(
Happy Birthday Daniel!thanks for mocking me today xD.btw,you did not,i repeat,DID NOT see anything!ahahaha
wednesday was okay nothing much to say.exams tht day wasnt much.then thursday came and it was math and history :O.completely screwed my history and math i tried my hardest i even memorised the formula without writing it on my arm!ahaha sorry perasan momment xD.after history was over,everyone was clapping and going 'WOOHOO!' xD.adrenaline rush!and on friday was mr.Kylie Hon's birthday!bought him a cake :).see i can b a good friend!
p.s. if i ever said tht in front of Laksh,she'd b all 'I nvr even said you were one!'.ahahaah
saturday i went to pyramid :).so good to finally go out again!and i bumped into the birthday girl TRISHA TEH HUI YEN!she's so adorable ;).too bad she couldnt see this xD.anyways finally got to use the lappie and i checked my pokes on facebook just now and i got a poke frm Daniel Tan Boon Leong!did i even add him?dont remember tht.oh Daniel Tan is the same Daniel Tan frm last yr tht always commented on my age at Sue's 19th Birthday party.
owh yeah!celebrated Sue's birthday the day before my finals started did the usual and Sakinah brought Fateh this time.she told me he begged her to let him tag along.i avoided contact the entire time.was damn awkward la,not tht i had something going on with him but Sakinah said he has a crush on me :|.not trying to b perasan here.all i did was say hi to to him and tht was LAST YR AT HER PARTY :O.saw Daniel Tan again he's not gonna call me 'little girl' anymore :).he said i've changed a lot :p.is tht true?
you know its so damn annoying when someone starts a conversation with you and you chat for awhile then all of a sudden,they just stopped replying you.annoys the crap out of me!he did tht to me recently and now i dont even know what to think.im afraid i might start to annoy him or something i just hate this feeling >(
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Popping Bottles In The Ice Like A Blizzard
[Toodles is searching for something on the floor]
Toodles: Lost, lost, lost.
Peter Banning: Lost what?
Toodles: I've lost my marbles.
-The movie Hook(1991)
ahahah.needed a laugh for my post xD.ahaha.so this week was pretty normal except for the occasional laughs :D.ahahah we had a science quiz on Thursday since had two periods so we were given 15mins to study and prepare questions from chapter 1 to chapter 4.we split into 2 groups la.owhmygosh it was hilarious!there was one point when the opposing group was asking a question and mid-way teacher interrupted us and said "Khang Chee,why is your hand in your pants?!".how emberassing is tht man!the entire class laughed their asses off I tell you!and he was sitting right behind me like what the fer shizzznits right?
another situation was when it was the opposing team's turn to ask the question so Kye Shuen stood up to ask."Name the 7 classes of food...Carbohydrates,Fib..." "EYH YOU TELLING THE ANSWERS LA!WHAT THE HELL?!"
owhmygosh it was hilarious!!!!ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah.funnyshit!his face was priceless!
owh yeah early this week a friend of mine told me something really disgusting!it had something to do with another guy in form 2 and it's really...eww!
let's change topic shall we?so i have my finals in a week and i haven't studied a single crap!im so doomed but don't wanna b retained next yr so i really gotta study!bm's a goner and so is sejarah.i might have a chance with geography and science tho but math is becoming a problem.i seriously need some tutoring.but i ain't going to tuition.we all know how tht worked out!i bailed after two months :p.i heard ace tuition is good like they actually have fun while studying but i don't know...and if i do move on to form 3 (god i hope I do) i don't wanna be in beta or gamma or delta.i wanna b in alpha cause i really wanna study and to b able to concentrate!!!
malas to type more
wish me luck!:)
Toodles: Lost, lost, lost.
Peter Banning: Lost what?
Toodles: I've lost my marbles.
-The movie Hook(1991)
ahahah.needed a laugh for my post xD.ahaha.so this week was pretty normal except for the occasional laughs :D.ahahah we had a science quiz on Thursday since had two periods so we were given 15mins to study and prepare questions from chapter 1 to chapter 4.we split into 2 groups la.owhmygosh it was hilarious!there was one point when the opposing group was asking a question and mid-way teacher interrupted us and said "Khang Chee,why is your hand in your pants?!".how emberassing is tht man!the entire class laughed their asses off I tell you!and he was sitting right behind me like what the fer shizzznits right?
another situation was when it was the opposing team's turn to ask the question so Kye Shuen stood up to ask."Name the 7 classes of food...Carbohydrates,Fib..." "EYH YOU TELLING THE ANSWERS LA!WHAT THE HELL?!"
owhmygosh it was hilarious!!!!ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah.funnyshit!his face was priceless!
owh yeah early this week a friend of mine told me something really disgusting!it had something to do with another guy in form 2 and it's really...eww!
let's change topic shall we?so i have my finals in a week and i haven't studied a single crap!im so doomed but don't wanna b retained next yr so i really gotta study!bm's a goner and so is sejarah.i might have a chance with geography and science tho but math is becoming a problem.i seriously need some tutoring.but i ain't going to tuition.we all know how tht worked out!i bailed after two months :p.i heard ace tuition is good like they actually have fun while studying but i don't know...and if i do move on to form 3 (god i hope I do) i don't wanna be in beta or gamma or delta.i wanna b in alpha cause i really wanna study and to b able to concentrate!!!
malas to type more
wish me luck!:)
Sunday, October 3, 2010
It's Something Unpredictable But In The End Is Right ♥
That song starts playing on my iPod
I close my eyes and it reminds me of you
I don't hear Greenday
I hear you
I remember the way you sang it to me the other night
It makes me wonder if that was real or if I was just part of another joke
I close my eyes and it reminds me of you
I don't hear Greenday
I hear you
I remember the way you sang it to me the other night
It makes me wonder if that was real or if I was just part of another joke
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Thursday, September 30, 2010
My World's Hanging By Three Words That I Cant Bare To Say
Clearly you guys like each other!Its so obvious la!
-Laksh
Why you guys so mysterious-mysterious?Cant you guys just tell each other and get over all this mystery?You see me and *bleep*.I told him that i liked him and he was like 'Owhmygosh!Really?!I like you too!.Thats why you should tell him!Just GO and tell him
-Azu
Eyh,when you and *bleep* wanna get together?so cute together ady.I wish i could shout at him to be with you
-Sarah
Yesterday(Monday) i takut *bleep* will come and marah me.Cause i takut he'll come and say 'Why you lend Cynthia your jacket?'.Go borrow jacket from him or else when you guys wanna be together?!
-Jimmie
those are the few.owh yeah Jude shouted 'your boyfriend's here!' the other day -.-
i dont know what to say anymore.Azu even tied a piece of dried up wet tissue paper ard my wrist making me promise tht i cant take it off until something happens between us?like going out...
crazy huh?
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
An Okay-Happy-Only-Because-Of-You Day
so this morning i went bck to school as obvious as it may seem.i go to school all the time :(.anywaysss i felt tired but i couldnt sleep at all this morn but i felt really worn out for no apparent reason :|.then when i got to class,i laughed so hard for no apparent reason and then Laksh said something but i thought otherwise.it was just hilarious xD.too open to say it here xD.then after the second period i was gonna try to sleep or at least get my eyes some rest but i failed.MISERABLY.especially when after closing my eyes for 5 seconds and i start bursting out with laughter.like what the fudge right?it was so random and Laksh gave me the 'what the hell is wrong with you' look.anyways i finally got some shut eye and after i woke up i wasnt exactly tht crazy me anymore.went down for PE and did ordinary PE sitting on the bench stuff.normal stuff happened and then during BM period i was talking to Kyle and we were sharing stuff.so i was kinda behind my ringkasan so i finished it a lil later,made my way to the teacher staffroom to pass it up and when i was walking bck...i saw him and we had a short conversation but still...it made me happy.i was kinda bummed out cause i heard some stuff but he made me happy and yeahhh :).ehehe.he just kinda made my day :).
gotta go now
so im signing off with this thought
me and you in the hallway ♥
gotta go now
so im signing off with this thought
me and you in the hallway ♥
Monday, September 27, 2010
Iman's Birthday and Sarah's Open House Photos :)
so here are some pictures we took at Iman's birthday party!
.cynthia.illyana.sarah.
we're making fishy faces :)
illy and i
whoa our eyes :D
ahahaha.iman's so cute :)
me and illy being silly :).hey tht rhymes.ehehehe
and these are just a few of the pictures we took at Sarah's open house :).i dont have the pictures i took with sarah but hey i'll get them soon :).i shall upload em when i get em ;)
Laksh and me :).owhmygosh loving this photo
azu and me~felt like going a lil crazy at tht point since everyone's just going to smile for every photo ;p
amanda,laksh and me :)
awww look at our lil family :).weee~
so this is pretty much all i've got.when i get more then i'll post it up aite?aite.so today's a special school holiday for us Sedayans :).reasons because our CEO's father passed away and the teachers are forced to go all the way to Negeri Sembilan just to go for the funeral,which i think is a lil extreme since we didnt even know him in the first place.so if there were no teachers then not school :).im sorry Mr.Peter Ng,im deeply sorry tht your father is moving on into the afterlife but in my defense this might just b the stupidest reason to cancel school.but thanks anyways for giving us a break :)
.cynthia.illyana.sarah.
we're making fishy faces :)
illy and i
whoa our eyes :D
ahahaha.iman's so cute :)
me and illy being silly :).hey tht rhymes.ehehehe
and these are just a few of the pictures we took at Sarah's open house :).i dont have the pictures i took with sarah but hey i'll get them soon :).i shall upload em when i get em ;)
Laksh and me :).owhmygosh loving this photo
azu and me~felt like going a lil crazy at tht point since everyone's just going to smile for every photo ;p
amanda,laksh and me :)
awww look at our lil family :).weee~
so this is pretty much all i've got.when i get more then i'll post it up aite?aite.so today's a special school holiday for us Sedayans :).reasons because our CEO's father passed away and the teachers are forced to go all the way to Negeri Sembilan just to go for the funeral,which i think is a lil extreme since we didnt even know him in the first place.so if there were no teachers then not school :).im sorry Mr.Peter Ng,im deeply sorry tht your father is moving on into the afterlife but in my defense this might just b the stupidest reason to cancel school.but thanks anyways for giving us a break :)
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Open And Unexpected
so i went to Sarah's place yesterday :).at first when we got there we were in her room then we had to go down where the party's at xD.couldnt go in the house at all :(.it was fudging hot!her Seafield friend kinda boycotted us probably cause they were comfortable with their gang as we were with ours :|.couldnt wait to go inside!owhmygosh owhmygosh owhmysosh!i got to see my dear Eva again :D.missed her so much la but unfortunately she couldnt stay for long :'(.but thts okay cause im hoping to see her soon :).we went into the house at ard 3?yeahhh and thennn her Seafield friends got jealous xD.ahahaha they got jealous of us :D.so we went out of the house just to wait for them to go inside then only can we go inside -.-
seriously?yeah tht happened...anywaysss we went inside and took one side of the living room while they hung out on the other end :/.me and sarah took so many vids and a few pics :).it was so fun just the two of us crapping bout kyle bullying her xD.then while everyone else was in their own coversations with each other,sarah and i had some personal talk,ya know.it was niceee ;p.after their ignorance ended we finally went upstairs and went crazyyy!i kinda camwhored a lil with her Mac :p.it was fun la!i had to leave early tho :(.its kinda sad really.i wanted to spend more time la but had to go for my aunt's birthday party eventho it wasnt much.ate,wathced some old Cantonese show bout how Chow Yun Fatt had 2 wives and it got confusing,used the wifi and went home by 11 -.-
if i knew it was gonna b boring then i would've asked my mom if i could stay longer but being a good niece(even tho i dont really like since she always criticizes me bout travelling) i still went.so today wasnt much...oh oh oh on saturday morn at 1-ish?yeah someone wrote on my facebook wall and he liked it.Heee :).mayb its cause of what it said :p.i dont know i was just kinda shocked tht the person wrote it :| despite the fact tht tht person knows.or at least i think he does :S.it was so randommm :p.i was kinda hoping he'd comment on it tho ;p.SO i recently i changed my tumblr layout and its new :).havent updated in awhile tho but a few pictures would do me some good.plusss NEW LAYOUT!:D kinda excited bout it sorryyy.
havent used a certain term in awhile
TEEHEE :)
seriously?yeah tht happened...anywaysss we went inside and took one side of the living room while they hung out on the other end :/.me and sarah took so many vids and a few pics :).it was so fun just the two of us crapping bout kyle bullying her xD.then while everyone else was in their own coversations with each other,sarah and i had some personal talk,ya know.it was niceee ;p.after their ignorance ended we finally went upstairs and went crazyyy!i kinda camwhored a lil with her Mac :p.it was fun la!i had to leave early tho :(.its kinda sad really.i wanted to spend more time la but had to go for my aunt's birthday party eventho it wasnt much.ate,wathced some old Cantonese show bout how Chow Yun Fatt had 2 wives and it got confusing,used the wifi and went home by 11 -.-
if i knew it was gonna b boring then i would've asked my mom if i could stay longer but being a good niece(even tho i dont really like since she always criticizes me bout travelling) i still went.so today wasnt much...oh oh oh on saturday morn at 1-ish?yeah someone wrote on my facebook wall and he liked it.Heee :).mayb its cause of what it said :p.i dont know i was just kinda shocked tht the person wrote it :| despite the fact tht tht person knows.or at least i think he does :S.it was so randommm :p.i was kinda hoping he'd comment on it tho ;p.SO i recently i changed my tumblr layout and its new :).havent updated in awhile tho but a few pictures would do me some good.plusss NEW LAYOUT!:D kinda excited bout it sorryyy.
havent used a certain term in awhile
TEEHEE :)
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Tell Me When It's Time To Say I Love You
i blast the volume on my ipod because i want to drown the voices of the world tht made me upset,depressed,sad,disappointed,angry.i wanted to drown my sorrows.i just wanted to live my own little world where i just dance in my mind not giving a fudge about what everyone thinks.
today i wore my hoodie,put on my earphones,blasted the volume on my ipod and closed my eyes.then i get flash memories that i've shared with you and start missing those days.then i cry.but i had to move,i had to walk along the hall and pass by your class.i had to give money to Joel for some compulsary crap.Joel had to ask why i i looked the way i did.i couldnt bare to answer him.i couldnt bare to remind myself why i cried.
you can make me so happy by just smiling at me but this uncertainty is driving me insane.i see you looking at me and boy does it make my heart melt.it makes me so happy but it couldnt last long.not long enough to overcome this uncertainty
today i wore my hoodie,put on my earphones,blasted the volume on my ipod and closed my eyes.then i get flash memories that i've shared with you and start missing those days.then i cry.but i had to move,i had to walk along the hall and pass by your class.i had to give money to Joel for some compulsary crap.Joel had to ask why i i looked the way i did.i couldnt bare to answer him.i couldnt bare to remind myself why i cried.
you can make me so happy by just smiling at me but this uncertainty is driving me insane.i see you looking at me and boy does it make my heart melt.it makes me so happy but it couldnt last long.not long enough to overcome this uncertainty
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Ice-cream at a Waterfall~
so today a bunch of us went to Templer Park and owhmygosh it was so fun therefore i shall tell as much as i possibly can cause i'd like to refresh my memory when there comes a time where i feel the need to read all of my posts :)
situation on thursday.
-Chia Yee's facebook status:i wish i had a bucket of never ending ice-cream :)
Cynthia Teng:me!me!me!ME!!!i want mint chocolate chip too!!!!!!!
Nugget Voon Guan Zhong:I help you make that wish come true but must finish it immediately one wor..
Cynthia Teng bring on saturday!:D
Nugget Voon Guan Zhong What ice cream you wan o?
Cynthia Teng mint chocolate chip :)
Nugget Voon Guan Zhong Try and find larh..
Cynthia Teng if cannot then buy chocolate la xD
Nugget Voon Guan Zhong I got tons of the mint chocolate chip... In UK.. HAHAH.. Okay larh.. Chocolate arh..
Saturdayyy :)
-Morning-
i went to vincent's car,said hi and he said 'he *points to Guan Zhong* brought your ice-cream...' i asked if he was serious and Guan Zhong showed me the 2 boxes ;p.one chocolate and the other peppermint :).i thought i was the last one but see see PeiJing was the last one xD.i followed PeiJing to Templer's in Jet's car and i was super quiet i tell you!i was playing a little on my iPod while texting Keneedy even tho he was just in the other car xD.i only started talking when Jet became some smart ass,overtook Vincent who is the only one who knows the way and got lost -.-
lucky for him i knew my way ard KL a bit ;p.cyehhh perasan bit ;).ahahahah.anywaysss when we finally got to Dataran Merdeka he finally knew how to go -.-
got there ard...9?i think so we went jungle tracking and boy oh boy were there leeches!the first half we walked on the road to the swimming pool and found a snake swimming in the pool?there were also fishes there cause it was from the stream?i have to get to the point la.always get side tracked :p.owkayyy so our goal was to get to the waterfall so we had to start walking on pathways and squeeze through plants trying to be cautious of leeches and trying not to fall.it was and hr and a half of doing so and in the end i had four,i repeat FOUR!,leeches tht stuck on me :O.i freaked out so badly because of the specific reasons below:
-they were very VERY ticklish
-i somehow had the feeling to scratch em :X
-they looked utterly disgusting growing fatter and fatter *shudders*
-i had to wait for ten frigging minutes!
at first i was between ZhiMing and Vincent so just in case i stuble Vincent can catc h me frm behind.PeiJing was with Jet and Keneedy was leading :p.Keneedy struggled with some plant so Vincent went ahead so Joel was behind me shouting 'Cyn!!!LEECH!' and being the paranoid me,i went all 'what?what!where?!' and he goes 'JUST KIDDING!' and he starts laughing.i stopped to turn ard and he goes 'hang la!' -.-
when we finally got to the waterfall,i took of my pants(i was already wearing shorts inside) and i found a leech on my knee,one above my heel,one on my shin and mysterious bleeding on my ankle.they said it dropped off d so its ok.
learnt how to sharpen the parang and how to wash it.did so many things tht i can barely recall due to the days passing by :p.i know tht Vincent,Joel and Keneedy picked me up and threw me into the water -.-
thanks a lot guys.now my beehind hurts :(.damn hard to dive into my bed now *sighhh*.after tht,we took the ice-cream tht Guan Zhong brought and started eating it in the water.someone,i dont know who,started dumping the chocolate ice-cream on Guan Zhong's head then Joel dumped some of it on me.then i started dumping some on him and everyone started wiping ice-cream on everyone :).after Joel dumped the ice-cream on me,i opened my eyes and i had chocolate ice-cream + saliva splattered all over my face because Joel had ice-cream in his mouth and started laughing at me when he saw my face full of ice-cream -.-
owhmygosh it was DISGUSTING!
anywaysss...dont wanna say too much or your brain capasity would b filled :p
situation on thursday.
-Chia Yee's facebook status:i wish i had a bucket of never ending ice-cream :)
Cynthia Teng:me!me!me!ME!!!i want mint chocolate chip too!!!!!!!
Nugget Voon Guan Zhong:I help you make that wish come true but must finish it immediately one wor..
Cynthia Teng bring on saturday!:D
Nugget Voon Guan Zhong What ice cream you wan o?
Cynthia Teng mint chocolate chip :)
Nugget Voon Guan Zhong Try and find larh..
Cynthia Teng if cannot then buy chocolate la xD
Nugget Voon Guan Zhong I got tons of the mint chocolate chip... In UK.. HAHAH.. Okay larh.. Chocolate arh..
Saturdayyy :)
-Morning-
i went to vincent's car,said hi and he said 'he *points to Guan Zhong* brought your ice-cream...' i asked if he was serious and Guan Zhong showed me the 2 boxes ;p.one chocolate and the other peppermint :).i thought i was the last one but see see PeiJing was the last one xD.i followed PeiJing to Templer's in Jet's car and i was super quiet i tell you!i was playing a little on my iPod while texting Keneedy even tho he was just in the other car xD.i only started talking when Jet became some smart ass,overtook Vincent who is the only one who knows the way and got lost -.-
lucky for him i knew my way ard KL a bit ;p.cyehhh perasan bit ;).ahahahah.anywaysss when we finally got to Dataran Merdeka he finally knew how to go -.-
got there ard...9?i think so we went jungle tracking and boy oh boy were there leeches!the first half we walked on the road to the swimming pool and found a snake swimming in the pool?there were also fishes there cause it was from the stream?i have to get to the point la.always get side tracked :p.owkayyy so our goal was to get to the waterfall so we had to start walking on pathways and squeeze through plants trying to be cautious of leeches and trying not to fall.it was and hr and a half of doing so and in the end i had four,i repeat FOUR!,leeches tht stuck on me :O.i freaked out so badly because of the specific reasons below:
-they were very VERY ticklish
-i somehow had the feeling to scratch em :X
-they looked utterly disgusting growing fatter and fatter *shudders*
-i had to wait for ten frigging minutes!
at first i was between ZhiMing and Vincent so just in case i stuble Vincent can catc h me frm behind.PeiJing was with Jet and Keneedy was leading :p.Keneedy struggled with some plant so Vincent went ahead so Joel was behind me shouting 'Cyn!!!LEECH!' and being the paranoid me,i went all 'what?what!where?!' and he goes 'JUST KIDDING!' and he starts laughing.i stopped to turn ard and he goes 'hang la!' -.-
when we finally got to the waterfall,i took of my pants(i was already wearing shorts inside) and i found a leech on my knee,one above my heel,one on my shin and mysterious bleeding on my ankle.they said it dropped off d so its ok.
learnt how to sharpen the parang and how to wash it.did so many things tht i can barely recall due to the days passing by :p.i know tht Vincent,Joel and Keneedy picked me up and threw me into the water -.-
thanks a lot guys.now my beehind hurts :(.damn hard to dive into my bed now *sighhh*.after tht,we took the ice-cream tht Guan Zhong brought and started eating it in the water.someone,i dont know who,started dumping the chocolate ice-cream on Guan Zhong's head then Joel dumped some of it on me.then i started dumping some on him and everyone started wiping ice-cream on everyone :).after Joel dumped the ice-cream on me,i opened my eyes and i had chocolate ice-cream + saliva splattered all over my face because Joel had ice-cream in his mouth and started laughing at me when he saw my face full of ice-cream -.-
owhmygosh it was DISGUSTING!
anywaysss...dont wanna say too much or your brain capasity would b filled :p
Thursday, September 16, 2010
I got Malaysia!!!Marvelous Marvelous xD
it's 3 in the morn and im fudging awake!dammit!i was so tired yesterday cause i slept at 5 and woke up at 7.went to Laksh's house for the entire day :).we were supposed to study but it tanked ;p.let's see what did we do...?
hmmm *think think think*
owhhh yeahhh
the first thing we did when i got there was TALK!missed her so badly :).she talked about her story first then we went to makan breakfast.ehehe.after tht we went upstairs and i told her my story.curious little fella xD.then i slept for an hr while she played with my iPod.woke up slept for another hr,looked at the time,told her to sleep as well cause she said she was tired but she didn't wanna sleep so i went bck to sleep :).i know i know im a pig :).slept for 3 hrs and Laksh was...i don't know what she was doing!she was probably taking pictures of me sleeping hoping to get some black mail ;p.ahahahaha.good thing she stops reading my blog :D.anywaysss had chicken rice for lunch and rohan's asked us why we were so quiet.couldn't tell him why.I wanted to laugh so badly xD.ahahahahahahahahahahaha.too bad Rohan!i saw it >p.there's no way you can turn time!ahahahahahahahahahahaha.sorry inside joke :p.while eating,we watched the first half of the ManU vs Rangers game and Rohan got so bored watching so he left.me and Laksh got addicted to the muruku and we kept eating!honestly i think we at least finished half the conatiner :O.then went upstairs and talked crap!she took a video of me calling her a douche and she kept putting her feet to my face :'(.as i wanna smell her feet!pffft!ahahaha sorry monkey :).went swimming and it was just the two of us there.awesome much?!had so much fun at her place la :).haven't been to her house in awhile *sigh*
my brother cooked spaghetti for dinner.halfway eating the spaghetti,he said tht the meal was mid-western mixed with malay cooking mixed with chinese cooking.i asked him what was the chinese part and he said his sweat!eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.i literally spat out my food and he laughed so hard he almost choked :(.but then he said'no la!I was just kidding!it's wine la'
so mean right?I almost puked!damn disgusting la!
now its 5 *sighhhh*.damn emo now!i wanna scream!Sue is coming to my house later :).thts something tht will keep my smiling for awhile.mayb going to sunway with Ash as well.owh yeah!sorry azu.Laksh was my ride there and you enjoyed yourself with ice-cream watching piranha so good enough right?ahahah.gonna update my tumblr awhile.owh!i have tumblr as well but it's not much and and and I can change my tumblr site anytime :).
wanna see my tumblr?then go to tumblemecyn.tumblr.com
if i ever change you're the first to find out xD
still damn emo la.ishhh!
do you hurt the way that i do after all this time?
you left me broken
hmmm *think think think*
owhhh yeahhh
the first thing we did when i got there was TALK!missed her so badly :).she talked about her story first then we went to makan breakfast.ehehe.after tht we went upstairs and i told her my story.curious little fella xD.then i slept for an hr while she played with my iPod.woke up slept for another hr,looked at the time,told her to sleep as well cause she said she was tired but she didn't wanna sleep so i went bck to sleep :).i know i know im a pig :).slept for 3 hrs and Laksh was...i don't know what she was doing!she was probably taking pictures of me sleeping hoping to get some black mail ;p.ahahahaha.good thing she stops reading my blog :D.anywaysss had chicken rice for lunch and rohan's asked us why we were so quiet.couldn't tell him why.I wanted to laugh so badly xD.ahahahahahahahahahahaha.too bad Rohan!i saw it >p.there's no way you can turn time!ahahahahahahahahahahaha.sorry inside joke :p.while eating,we watched the first half of the ManU vs Rangers game and Rohan got so bored watching so he left.me and Laksh got addicted to the muruku and we kept eating!honestly i think we at least finished half the conatiner :O.then went upstairs and talked crap!she took a video of me calling her a douche and she kept putting her feet to my face :'(.as i wanna smell her feet!pffft!ahahaha sorry monkey :).went swimming and it was just the two of us there.awesome much?!had so much fun at her place la :).haven't been to her house in awhile *sigh*
my brother cooked spaghetti for dinner.halfway eating the spaghetti,he said tht the meal was mid-western mixed with malay cooking mixed with chinese cooking.i asked him what was the chinese part and he said his sweat!eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.i literally spat out my food and he laughed so hard he almost choked :(.but then he said'no la!I was just kidding!it's wine la'
so mean right?I almost puked!damn disgusting la!
now its 5 *sighhhh*.damn emo now!i wanna scream!Sue is coming to my house later :).thts something tht will keep my smiling for awhile.mayb going to sunway with Ash as well.owh yeah!sorry azu.Laksh was my ride there and you enjoyed yourself with ice-cream watching piranha so good enough right?ahahah.gonna update my tumblr awhile.owh!i have tumblr as well but it's not much and and and I can change my tumblr site anytime :).
wanna see my tumblr?then go to tumblemecyn.tumblr.com
if i ever change you're the first to find out xD
still damn emo la.ishhh!
do you hurt the way that i do after all this time?
you left me broken
Monday, September 13, 2010
My tears were for you
the world is crashing down on me.
i was an accident,i know that
everything is my fault
i don't mean a thing to any of you
i don't care anymore
if i fail,nobody would care
i don't know what to think anymore
father left so i expect you would too
who would want to be around me
someone so cold,so emotionless
someone who stopped giving a damn
someone unwanted in this world.
this was a draft frm last night.i was crying my eyes out.why?because of so many things.damn what's wrong with me?
i was an accident,i know that
everything is my fault
i don't mean a thing to any of you
i don't care anymore
if i fail,nobody would care
i don't know what to think anymore
father left so i expect you would too
who would want to be around me
someone so cold,so emotionless
someone who stopped giving a damn
someone unwanted in this world.
this was a draft frm last night.i was crying my eyes out.why?because of so many things.damn what's wrong with me?
Sunday, September 12, 2010
A scene
so my weekend went pretty well :|.woke up on saturday at 10 after sleeping at 4 :(.got to sunway ard 10 something and waited for Kyle and Ash at starbucks till 11.30?there was an old man who took the chair next to mine cause there was no other seats ard his old lady gang.i didnt know what else to do so i used the wifi to kill boredom.then the old dude started massaging his feet!i was kinda creeped out and wanted to move but there were no other seats :(.anywaysss luckily Ash came after 10 mins and then Kyle :).we went to Burger King for lunch :).i kinda regretted buying the mozarella cheese tho.every time i pull it still wouldnt tear.Ash and Kyle laughed...a-ha-ha-ha.not funny!after tht we went archery and 5-10 of my arrows kept bouncing bck o.o
damn funny la.one of the workers there kept joking ard by taking my chips and Ash's Ribena xD.was so damn funny la.after we finished our arrows Ash wanted her snowy -.- so we went to get snowy :p.after tht we played air hockey and and and we set the new highscore for tht basketball game thing xD.all 3 of us played together and we were trying to score at the same time.some even bounced off xD.it was so fun!we didnt wanna waste our cash there anymore so we went to the arcade :).it was the first time i raced virtually in an arcade!seriously o.o
after tht we just lepak-ed in Starbucks until we went home :).i wonder what Kyle did when i had to go...he got estatic when he heard my mom was gonna come 30 mins later than she said she would.ahahaha funny boy!
came home.rested a bit.when i say rested i mean went online and watched tv :).i WAS supposed to go to James' place straight but then my mom wanted to take a detour and go to sungai buloh first -.-'
ate very little and fell asleep while watching iron man 2.yes i was tht tired...
didnt do much today.i dont know why but lately i've been feeling so messed up.like the world's hating on me and nothing i could say would change their minds.im so messed up to the point where the other day i didnt know what i was thinking and i dropped a glass plate.just like how im feeling,i fell and shattered into pieces.
i just want happiness for an entire day.could you do that for me?
damn funny la.one of the workers there kept joking ard by taking my chips and Ash's Ribena xD.was so damn funny la.after we finished our arrows Ash wanted her snowy -.- so we went to get snowy :p.after tht we played air hockey and and and we set the new highscore for tht basketball game thing xD.all 3 of us played together and we were trying to score at the same time.some even bounced off xD.it was so fun!we didnt wanna waste our cash there anymore so we went to the arcade :).it was the first time i raced virtually in an arcade!seriously o.o
after tht we just lepak-ed in Starbucks until we went home :).i wonder what Kyle did when i had to go...he got estatic when he heard my mom was gonna come 30 mins later than she said she would.ahahaha funny boy!
came home.rested a bit.when i say rested i mean went online and watched tv :).i WAS supposed to go to James' place straight but then my mom wanted to take a detour and go to sungai buloh first -.-'
ate very little and fell asleep while watching iron man 2.yes i was tht tired...
didnt do much today.i dont know why but lately i've been feeling so messed up.like the world's hating on me and nothing i could say would change their minds.im so messed up to the point where the other day i didnt know what i was thinking and i dropped a glass plate.just like how im feeling,i fell and shattered into pieces.
i just want happiness for an entire day.could you do that for me?
Mood Swings
i was talking to someone like half an hour ago.one minute he's nice to me but the next minute he's giving me this vibe like he's got a problem with me.im thinking to myself 'mayb im not the only one with mood swings'.he said tht it's cute tht I cried for almost getting my phone confiscated,which really happened(don't laugh!).i replied 'it is?' and he says 'ya la ya la VERY'.either he got vexed or tht was sarcasm.and i don't think it was sarcasm!i didn't exactly know what to say after tht.i like him but i don't really know what's going on :/.jeez!i don't know how he feels about me dammit!good thing he doesnt read my blog.in this case i wish he knew what i was thinking.i wish he knew how i felt about him *sighhh*.anywaysss confusion ASIDE!would love to blog bout my weekend but it's already past one and im supposed to wake up early :(
could you just let me know how you feel about me so i wouldn't have to go through this confusion?
could you just let me know how you feel about me so i wouldn't have to go through this confusion?
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Life's turning it's back on me
*sighhh* why in the world is life hating me?seriously!*sighhh*
plans for tomorrow?I mean later...
i WAS supposed to hang with SOME PPL but it was canceled last minute :(.I was looking forward to it.even last time i couldn't go but now when I can go it got canceled :(.life's probably laughing at my misery now dammit!
*sighhh* I knew something like this would happen!I just knew it would.I kinda had tht vibe the entire night.but there's a bright side to this :).Kyle,Ash and I were already planning to go out later so yeah :).at least I get to go out.the original plan was to hang with those ppl then hang with Ash and Kyle but since those ppl canceled :(,i'll just have more time to hang withAsh and Kyle :).after tht farewell dinner at James' house for Mei and Dave :).gonna miss them loads!!!nevermind i'll just go visit them after PMR or something :).and i'll bring Eleen with me :D.ehehehe
anyways since my plans were ruined yesterday and a tad ruined todayyy,I shall try to sleep it off without tearing.it's only cause im THT fragile now.if YOU'RE reading this then THANKS FOR CANCELING ON ME
sorry im just really really emotional this week till Wednesday I hope.dammit!i don't fudging know what to fudging feel right now
plans for tomorrow?I mean later...
i WAS supposed to hang with SOME PPL but it was canceled last minute :(.I was looking forward to it.even last time i couldn't go but now when I can go it got canceled :(.life's probably laughing at my misery now dammit!
*sighhh* I knew something like this would happen!I just knew it would.I kinda had tht vibe the entire night.but there's a bright side to this :).Kyle,Ash and I were already planning to go out later so yeah :).at least I get to go out.the original plan was to hang with those ppl then hang with Ash and Kyle but since those ppl canceled :(,i'll just have more time to hang withAsh and Kyle :).after tht farewell dinner at James' house for Mei and Dave :).gonna miss them loads!!!nevermind i'll just go visit them after PMR or something :).and i'll bring Eleen with me :D.ehehehe
anyways since my plans were ruined yesterday and a tad ruined todayyy,I shall try to sleep it off without tearing.it's only cause im THT fragile now.if YOU'RE reading this then THANKS FOR CANCELING ON ME
sorry im just really really emotional this week till Wednesday I hope.dammit!i don't fudging know what to fudging feel right now
Thursday, September 9, 2010
What would i have done without you?
so recently i've been feeling crappy.like really crappy due to some issues.someone noticed and made me feel better :).
thank you :).what you said made me smile.the way you cared for me made me smile.and mayb i havent expressed enough but you asked me through msn and quite frankly if i was right in front of you,my face would've probably light up the momment you ask me.thank you very much :).you know who you are ;)
tht person doesnt even read my blog!why in the world am i saying this?mayb its cause tht was the first time anyone made me smile today besides tv and other conversations with other ppl but i never told anyone bout it so yeahhh.anywaysss today i had this good girl attitude to me and actually finished my homework :).im very proud of myself because usually i leave all this to the last night.i tweeted bout it and Laksh's reply was what is wrong with you xD.oh oh oh!i bought 4 apps today :).weee~
been wanting to buy apps for quite some time!finally!!!joyyy :).well i got pretty much nothing to say cause i havent been productive at all!was planning to go out today but it was only going to be kyle,sathya and me.it was last minute so we decided on another day when more ppl could go.honestly i dont mind being the only girl.its so normal of me :).after all,i am the only girl in the family and the youngest so im used to it.i realised my mom's side of the family is mostly men.when i say men i mean men.my cousins are almost past their mid 20s seriously.
WHOA!Nickson looks like Keneedy and Joel combined!damnnn thts really something i've nvr noticed...its really weird!!!
i've got nothing else to say...
thank you :).what you said made me smile.the way you cared for me made me smile.and mayb i havent expressed enough but you asked me through msn and quite frankly if i was right in front of you,my face would've probably light up the momment you ask me.thank you very much :).you know who you are ;)
tht person doesnt even read my blog!why in the world am i saying this?mayb its cause tht was the first time anyone made me smile today besides tv and other conversations with other ppl but i never told anyone bout it so yeahhh.anywaysss today i had this good girl attitude to me and actually finished my homework :).im very proud of myself because usually i leave all this to the last night.i tweeted bout it and Laksh's reply was what is wrong with you xD.oh oh oh!i bought 4 apps today :).weee~
been wanting to buy apps for quite some time!finally!!!joyyy :).well i got pretty much nothing to say cause i havent been productive at all!was planning to go out today but it was only going to be kyle,sathya and me.it was last minute so we decided on another day when more ppl could go.honestly i dont mind being the only girl.its so normal of me :).after all,i am the only girl in the family and the youngest so im used to it.i realised my mom's side of the family is mostly men.when i say men i mean men.my cousins are almost past their mid 20s seriously.
WHOA!Nickson looks like Keneedy and Joel combined!damnnn thts really something i've nvr noticed...its really weird!!!
i've got nothing else to say...
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
i love dreaming about you :)
i know you doubted me feeling the same way you did
but boy you can't be anymore wrong.
i don't need to be in a relationship
all i need is to tell you how I feel about you
but i wouldn't want to change a thing
i wouldn't want to change what we have
we're already starting to have a normal conversation
believe me this little normal conversations ,
are already making me happy compared to just waving and smiling
you don't know how happy you make me
just talking to you makes me happy
can't you see how hard i try to hold back my smile
especially when i'm around you
so that you wouldn't think i'm a psycho smiling for no apparent reason
but i can't exactly tell you that i'm smiling just because you're talking to me
can i?
i don't want us to stop talking again
because i know that things would change if i told you.
i want our friendship to grow
it doesn't have to grow into a relationship
i just hope we could be as close as we were last year
you don't know how just thinking about you can make me smile :)
but boy you can't be anymore wrong.
i don't need to be in a relationship
all i need is to tell you how I feel about you
but i wouldn't want to change a thing
i wouldn't want to change what we have
we're already starting to have a normal conversation
believe me this little normal conversations ,
are already making me happy compared to just waving and smiling
you don't know how happy you make me
just talking to you makes me happy
can't you see how hard i try to hold back my smile
especially when i'm around you
so that you wouldn't think i'm a psycho smiling for no apparent reason
but i can't exactly tell you that i'm smiling just because you're talking to me
can i?
i don't want us to stop talking again
because i know that things would change if i told you.
i want our friendship to grow
it doesn't have to grow into a relationship
i just hope we could be as close as we were last year
you don't know how just thinking about you can make me smile :)
Monday, September 6, 2010
i cant get you off my mind
have i mentioned how much i enjoyed my friday?or my weekend?well if i havent then i really like my weekend :).no fights,no arguements,no quarreling.it was nice...not one day,was i not thinking bout him :).seriously this might stick for a while :X.anywaysss pancakes :).yummyyy :D.wanna come over and have some?yeah im talking bout you!so do ya?im gonna make a few soon :).with chocolate chips!last night i shared some with my bro :).we only ate em with peanut butter,kaya and pure honey :).sadly there wasnt any chocolate syrup or else it might have tasted better :/.damnnn i cant stop thinking bout you.not tht its a bad thing but i have no idea how you feel about me.damnnn this feeling is kinda crappy...none the less,im quite happy :)
Friday, September 3, 2010
you turned something so utterly boring to something tht would b remembered :)
i thought tht today would be really boring especially after school since Azu didnt come :p.anywaysss a whole lot of ppl didnt come today and most teachers werent in the mood to teach so i had 5 free periods :).as for math,mrs joan helped us with wednesday's homework(which i did last minute but still got it correct ;]).so NO HOMEWORK FOR THE HOLIDAYSSS!!!WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!happy happy happy me :D.ehehehe
after school was really interesting...i was kinda happy bout it :).okay fine...i am really happy bout it :D.i cant stop smiling owhmyfreakinggosh!!!!*screams* too happy to the point where i cant sleep anymore :O.i was so sleepy but somehow i couldnt sleep in class...i should probably try to get some sleep for tonight.as for tonight,no plans for supper.so i should b home early i guess
mayb i'll post something later.
who knows
happy me signing off :D
after school was really interesting...i was kinda happy bout it :).okay fine...i am really happy bout it :D.i cant stop smiling owhmyfreakinggosh!!!!*screams* too happy to the point where i cant sleep anymore :O.i was so sleepy but somehow i couldnt sleep in class...i should probably try to get some sleep for tonight.as for tonight,no plans for supper.so i should b home early i guess
mayb i'll post something later.
who knows
happy me signing off :D
in scouts camp,Joel told me one part of his scout test.it was damn funny and I cant believe he actually said it xD.ahahahahaha.they asked him some question he didn't know and he said too loudly 'chao ci bai' xD.ahahaha then they replied him 'we're speaking English now'.ahahahahahahaha I laughed so hard when I heard it.this suddenly came to me and I thought it was it was funny as obvious as it may seem xD.owhmygosh ahahahahahahaha damn funny la just can't get it out of my mind xD.ahahahahahahaha
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Scouts Camp :)
it was so damn fun!
the first night was the first time i cut a full chicken to bits :D
so our patrol cooked ABC soup :).it tasted better than i expected!of course i had help...thank you Shu Ying for helping me witht the cleaning and the cooking!iloveyou :).and thanks to Kamal for handling the fire and also for cooking with me :).you awesome and you know it!!!and last but not least thanks to Khang Hwui and Kheng Han for eating the food :).good thing they didnt get tummy aches or food poisoning :D.anywaysss,after tht vincent asked me to stick mahjong paper on the windows to give the girls some privacy :).i was sticking one up then i sat on a chair tht was on the table and somehow i kinda fell...backwards...yeahhh.i hurt my right ankle,thigh,waist and elbow :X.cut my thigh and both my calves hut along with right arm.there's a bruise ard my thigh :O.little troublesome but anywayss.after tht we had to go for a tenderfoot manual crash course.it was really really boring -.-
after tht had maggi cup and milo for supper.couldnt sleep till 3 :(.but before tht Nicole,Illy,Ash and i were giggling too much just because we were squeezing into the corner xD.and it was really really cold in the classrooms!!!
day two.woke up at 5 to wake Illy for sahur.then went bck to sleep and woke up again to find Ash missing.wanted to text her but i found it pointless cause i could have the sleeping bag all to myself :p.anyways,woke up and found out Ash was outside all along playing cho tai ti xD.the day woke up with some exercise and then...i kinda forgot :P.i knw we played with water for bout...5 minutes?then it rained heavily so they called us bck and while we were showering,our seniors played imaginary football in the rain :O.after we finshed showering then only it stopped raining -.-
after tht... we had free time till 6.so thts bout 2hrs of free time?yeah.anyways me and Ash was combining groups to perform so they were practising la.i didnt know what else to do cause it was kinda boring so i went into the projecter room and hang out with Joel,Keneedy,Pei Jing,Li Yen,Jet and Vincent.i found out Vincent was playing Starcraft on the laptop -.-'
after tht i had to go look for Kheng Han's temporaily missing Swiss army knife.i was talking to Joel halfway so he also came down with me.had and interesting talk with him :).ahahah damn funny la.after free time was ovr,we had a grand dinner and each patrol cooked a dish which was really good.all of it :).then while everyone was waiting to finally eat,i already cleaned my spot so i didnt have to do much after dinner :).didnt really have much to do when everyone else was cleaning so i hung out with the seniors and a few of the juniors :).Li Yen made jokes bout the sausages xD.need i say more?ahahahaha.then we had to play games?i dont remember what we played tho :X.all i remeber is Keneedy and Li Yen had to do a duet but then end up Joel and Li Yen singing then Keneedy and Li Yen again xD.after tht someone said something.and all a sudden Keneedy had to give Li Yen a piggy bck ride xD.damnnn funnyyy la.ahahahahahhahhahahahah.it was already 10 :O.after all the games we were given 20 mins to study the tenderfoot manual(which we were supposed to study weeks before :X).it took Vincent,Jet and Gilbert a long time to interview all the form 1s and the form 2s.Ash,Trish,Tash and i were the last form 2s to be interviewed and owhmygosh it was the atmosphere was seriously creepyyy.the lights off and flashlights shun at you so they can see you but you can see them.and they were dead serious.i wanted to laugh but i was afraid to o.o
and and and i was shaking really badly frm head to toe and Jet was teasing me bout it :(.afte my test i warned Pei Jing,Li Yen,Joel and Keneedy what they're gonna ask and how serious they creepily were :O.they were like 'nahhh i dont care la'.after their test,Pei Jing was really terrified,Li Yen wasnt as terrified as i thought...she was sleepy xD.so cute :).and joel who was like 'i dont care la' went all 'SHIT!damn hard wei!stupid go aske me questions tht arent even on the book!' and keneedy was 'everything i say i dunno,i dunno,i dunno'.i think i trembled too hard to the point where i cant sleep anymore :|.so i stayed up helping Ash and everyone else who failed study :).most of the morning was spent in 4B :).damn cold la!!!so i shared comforter with Joel-.-
cause he doesnt have one >p.then halfway talking i saw something i shouldnt have :O.shhh!secret :)
i told Joel and he said he was used to it?weird...then all of us went downstairs to play NightGut :).interesting game...after tht we got hungry so SUPPER TIME!!!ate HarMee,never tried it before but it wasnt tht bad...then dunno who go cook MiSedap.didnt wanna eat anymore :p.we got tired so we cleaned up and went upstairs :).i was ALMOST fast asleep in the classroom but Vincent had to prevent me frm sleeping and ask not to go outside and sleep :(.i was so lazyyy to move my arse!!!so i slept outside with Ash and Nicole got kicked out too so she slept next to me :).cutie pie la :)
woke up on saturday and instanly felt chilly like the winter time in Europe as soon as someone ripped the blanket frm me :(.could barely walk la!couldnt even make my way to the toilet to brush my teeth without it taking 1 minute for every step!woke up with some morning exercise...i could see Nicole,Joel and Keneedy struggling with the exercise as did i. after tht,had free time till 10.played with water :).then the other scouts went for a talk or something while Ash,Nicole,Lynn,Joel,Keneedy and i were cleaning up then we just lepak :).after things ended,Li Yen,Joel,Keneedy and i played cho tai ti and black jack with a dice damn funny la xD.i wanna play again!!!me wanna play me wanna play!!! after tht,followed ash home and my mom picked me up frm there and we went to my cousin's barbeque :).tht person didnt follow me cause plans changed...anyways dont care bout tht person la!anyways...there' so many things to blog bout but heck im too lazyyy
anyways im just gonna stop
dont b emo kay?be happy and make a good decision or else things will go down hill.so take your time kay babe?iloveyou sister :)
nights~
the first night was the first time i cut a full chicken to bits :D
so our patrol cooked ABC soup :).it tasted better than i expected!of course i had help...thank you Shu Ying for helping me witht the cleaning and the cooking!iloveyou :).and thanks to Kamal for handling the fire and also for cooking with me :).you awesome and you know it!!!and last but not least thanks to Khang Hwui and Kheng Han for eating the food :).good thing they didnt get tummy aches or food poisoning :D.anywaysss,after tht vincent asked me to stick mahjong paper on the windows to give the girls some privacy :).i was sticking one up then i sat on a chair tht was on the table and somehow i kinda fell...backwards...yeahhh.i hurt my right ankle,thigh,waist and elbow :X.cut my thigh and both my calves hut along with right arm.there's a bruise ard my thigh :O.little troublesome but anywayss.after tht we had to go for a tenderfoot manual crash course.it was really really boring -.-
after tht had maggi cup and milo for supper.couldnt sleep till 3 :(.but before tht Nicole,Illy,Ash and i were giggling too much just because we were squeezing into the corner xD.and it was really really cold in the classrooms!!!
day two.woke up at 5 to wake Illy for sahur.then went bck to sleep and woke up again to find Ash missing.wanted to text her but i found it pointless cause i could have the sleeping bag all to myself :p.anyways,woke up and found out Ash was outside all along playing cho tai ti xD.the day woke up with some exercise and then...i kinda forgot :P.i knw we played with water for bout...5 minutes?then it rained heavily so they called us bck and while we were showering,our seniors played imaginary football in the rain :O.after we finshed showering then only it stopped raining -.-
after tht... we had free time till 6.so thts bout 2hrs of free time?yeah.anyways me and Ash was combining groups to perform so they were practising la.i didnt know what else to do cause it was kinda boring so i went into the projecter room and hang out with Joel,Keneedy,Pei Jing,Li Yen,Jet and Vincent.i found out Vincent was playing Starcraft on the laptop -.-'
after tht i had to go look for Kheng Han's temporaily missing Swiss army knife.i was talking to Joel halfway so he also came down with me.had and interesting talk with him :).ahahah damn funny la.after free time was ovr,we had a grand dinner and each patrol cooked a dish which was really good.all of it :).then while everyone was waiting to finally eat,i already cleaned my spot so i didnt have to do much after dinner :).didnt really have much to do when everyone else was cleaning so i hung out with the seniors and a few of the juniors :).Li Yen made jokes bout the sausages xD.need i say more?ahahahaha.then we had to play games?i dont remember what we played tho :X.all i remeber is Keneedy and Li Yen had to do a duet but then end up Joel and Li Yen singing then Keneedy and Li Yen again xD.after tht someone said something.and all a sudden Keneedy had to give Li Yen a piggy bck ride xD.damnnn funnyyy la.ahahahahahhahhahahahah.it was already 10 :O.after all the games we were given 20 mins to study the tenderfoot manual(which we were supposed to study weeks before :X).it took Vincent,Jet and Gilbert a long time to interview all the form 1s and the form 2s.Ash,Trish,Tash and i were the last form 2s to be interviewed and owhmygosh it was the atmosphere was seriously creepyyy.the lights off and flashlights shun at you so they can see you but you can see them.and they were dead serious.i wanted to laugh but i was afraid to o.o
and and and i was shaking really badly frm head to toe and Jet was teasing me bout it :(.afte my test i warned Pei Jing,Li Yen,Joel and Keneedy what they're gonna ask and how serious they creepily were :O.they were like 'nahhh i dont care la'.after their test,Pei Jing was really terrified,Li Yen wasnt as terrified as i thought...she was sleepy xD.so cute :).and joel who was like 'i dont care la' went all 'SHIT!damn hard wei!stupid go aske me questions tht arent even on the book!' and keneedy was 'everything i say i dunno,i dunno,i dunno'.i think i trembled too hard to the point where i cant sleep anymore :|.so i stayed up helping Ash and everyone else who failed study :).most of the morning was spent in 4B :).damn cold la!!!so i shared comforter with Joel-.-
cause he doesnt have one >p.then halfway talking i saw something i shouldnt have :O.shhh!secret :)
i told Joel and he said he was used to it?weird...then all of us went downstairs to play NightGut :).interesting game...after tht we got hungry so SUPPER TIME!!!ate HarMee,never tried it before but it wasnt tht bad...then dunno who go cook MiSedap.didnt wanna eat anymore :p.we got tired so we cleaned up and went upstairs :).i was ALMOST fast asleep in the classroom but Vincent had to prevent me frm sleeping and ask not to go outside and sleep :(.i was so lazyyy to move my arse!!!so i slept outside with Ash and Nicole got kicked out too so she slept next to me :).cutie pie la :)
woke up on saturday and instanly felt chilly like the winter time in Europe as soon as someone ripped the blanket frm me :(.could barely walk la!couldnt even make my way to the toilet to brush my teeth without it taking 1 minute for every step!woke up with some morning exercise...i could see Nicole,Joel and Keneedy struggling with the exercise as did i. after tht,had free time till 10.played with water :).then the other scouts went for a talk or something while Ash,Nicole,Lynn,Joel,Keneedy and i were cleaning up then we just lepak :).after things ended,Li Yen,Joel,Keneedy and i played cho tai ti and black jack with a dice damn funny la xD.i wanna play again!!!me wanna play me wanna play!!! after tht,followed ash home and my mom picked me up frm there and we went to my cousin's barbeque :).tht person didnt follow me cause plans changed...anyways dont care bout tht person la!anyways...there' so many things to blog bout but heck im too lazyyy
anyways im just gonna stop
dont b emo kay?be happy and make a good decision or else things will go down hill.so take your time kay babe?iloveyou sister :)
nights~
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Change of Plans
im not staying ovr at Ash's house cause she had to go out.i think :p.anywaysss im gonna b dropped of at her house in the morn then we're gonna go to pyramid :).since we've been pyramid-less,we decide to go tomorrow and buy whatever essential we need for the camp :).let's hope we get to get some froyos tomorrow ;).I haven't been to pyramid in...a month?whoa tht is long...anyways I should b packing my bag now but...I dunno.im feeling awfully lazy these days especially after school :X.it's 11 now and im still laying on the couch :O.need to pack!!!but later la xD.watching family guy now.Olivia and Stewie are such an adorable 6-yr old-ish couple :).better go now or I'd probably pack last minute.wouldn't want tht happening :O.
im not gonna b able to blog,log onto facebook,tweet or anything tht involves the Internet :'(.at least I got my phone :D.so if you're reading this,yeah you ;),text me or call me :).I need to socialise :D.will probably get really bored do feel free to talk to me aite?ahahahah
nights :)
im not gonna b able to blog,log onto facebook,tweet or anything tht involves the Internet :'(.at least I got my phone :D.so if you're reading this,yeah you ;),text me or call me :).I need to socialise :D.will probably get really bored do feel free to talk to me aite?ahahahah
nights :)
Monday, August 23, 2010
Blanko~
so...
there's nothing much to say really
*sigh*
im just wasting space here arent i?
well then i guess i should stop :p
i gotta say something but im afraid it might b too public :O.im quite happy :).
owhhh yeah!im sure i've said it in my previous posts,i was supposed to go out on saturday.but i didnt so i fasted and went to the freaking dentist -.-
what a great way to spend your saturdays huh?as i was saying,i was supposed to go out but on the way home,my mom asked where i wanted to break my fast.so i said anywhere la!she said you just wanna eat in sunway so you can see your friends right?and i didnt reply her.anywaysss we went to ss15 instead la
okay then today during lunch time i had a brief conversation with J
J: so...saturday...
C: uh-huh...?
J: i thought you were going!
C: well you didnt reply me
J: i thought you were going so i didnt reply la
C: o.O
J: you were supposed to go!
C: well i didnt know you wanted me there
J: you should've gone la
at tht point i kinda regreted la.my saturdays are getting boring.literally.nevermind!this saturday im gonna go home with Ash after the scouts camp :).then afterwards i'll go home and get ready for my cousin's barbeque :D.cant wait!!!and someone might come but tht person keeps saying 'i dont mind if you dont mind.and if your mom doesnt mind'.i told him tht my aunts,uncles and cousins might think tht we're together(we're not!) and he said 'just tell them tht we're just FRIENDS la!or you can say NOT YET'.tht person gave me a cheeky grin and i said tht we dont know if tht'll happen and he replied 'thts why you should say not yet :)'.i really didnt know what to say next.anyways,his presence is not confirmed.cause he hasnt asked my mom -.-
btw,im not dating tht person aite?neither do i have a crush on him!so dont think your thoughts!(the powerful words of ms.mary xD)
why'd you have to go?is there something i could say to make you turn around?cause it's times like these when i wish i'd said dont go
there's nothing much to say really
*sigh*
im just wasting space here arent i?
well then i guess i should stop :p
i gotta say something but im afraid it might b too public :O.im quite happy :).
owhhh yeah!im sure i've said it in my previous posts,i was supposed to go out on saturday.but i didnt so i fasted and went to the freaking dentist -.-
what a great way to spend your saturdays huh?as i was saying,i was supposed to go out but on the way home,my mom asked where i wanted to break my fast.so i said anywhere la!she said you just wanna eat in sunway so you can see your friends right?and i didnt reply her.anywaysss we went to ss15 instead la
okay then today during lunch time i had a brief conversation with J
J: so...saturday...
C: uh-huh...?
J: i thought you were going!
C: well you didnt reply me
J: i thought you were going so i didnt reply la
C: o.O
J: you were supposed to go!
C: well i didnt know you wanted me there
J: you should've gone la
at tht point i kinda regreted la.my saturdays are getting boring.literally.nevermind!this saturday im gonna go home with Ash after the scouts camp :).then afterwards i'll go home and get ready for my cousin's barbeque :D.cant wait!!!and someone might come but tht person keeps saying 'i dont mind if you dont mind.and if your mom doesnt mind'.i told him tht my aunts,uncles and cousins might think tht we're together(we're not!) and he said 'just tell them tht we're just FRIENDS la!or you can say NOT YET'.tht person gave me a cheeky grin and i said tht we dont know if tht'll happen and he replied 'thts why you should say not yet :)'.i really didnt know what to say next.anyways,his presence is not confirmed.cause he hasnt asked my mom -.-
btw,im not dating tht person aite?neither do i have a crush on him!so dont think your thoughts!(the powerful words of ms.mary xD)
why'd you have to go?is there something i could say to make you turn around?cause it's times like these when i wish i'd said dont go
Saturday, August 21, 2010
100th post
was my previous post :p.this is the 101th :D.yay me!never knew I could post so much bout my life before ;p.not much actually but still...at least it isn't dead right right?anyways,it's not as if anyone would wanna know every single detail bout my life.im such a boring person you'd probably wanna stab your eyeballs just reading bout me and what not.anyways...went an original Junkfood USA store and I bought 3 new tees :).I finally found what I've been looking for!you can barely find tees like these in ordinary Malaysian stores.I got myself a Smurf tee :D.im so happy :).been wanting to have one of my own and I got it at a cheap price considering it's buy one free one and and and I got 10% discount :D.so yeah im happy bout it.can't wait till finals end :).then I can go out and probably go crazyyy :p.and after holiday im gonna study my butt off for PMR with Laksh :).wanna get good grades and prove my mother wrong :p.this week im gonna attend the scouts camp and it's 3 days 2 nights.in school.but I know it's gonna b quite fun cause im gonna stay ovr at Ash's on Wednesday then leave for camp on Thursday :).and this time my sister,shuxian, is coming along :D.can't wait!!!planning on bringing my chargers along so can play with my iPod all night ;).don't think Ash and I will sleep the first night again xD.but this time we can entertain ourselves with my iPod!weee~
which kinda reminds me,gotta buy marshmallows again ;).great for roasting :D.eheheh
anyways,this is where I sign off.got an early Sunday morning.as always :)
which kinda reminds me,gotta buy marshmallows again ;).great for roasting :D.eheheh
anyways,this is where I sign off.got an early Sunday morning.as always :)
A great taste
I wanna go out tomor...later.it's past 12 therefore I say later :).bahhh!I wanna go out and have fun I don't wanna b in the dentist chair :(.and it was sincere and now I feel like some asshole who turned tht person down just for a dentist appointment >:(.denggg!they're gonna have fun without me :(.I wanna go...why mother why?!ahhh!feel like screaming at the top of my lungs right now!the one chance to go out with tht person and I can't go :'(.how sad is tht?!very!bahhh I wanna go so fricken badly!
on another note,just came home.I went for supper just now and everything was...great :).can't wait till the next time ;).need another day la!two hrs isn't enough ;p.I had a nice time *wink wink* ahahahaha
I WANT TO GO OUT!!!!!
please don't tell me if I'm dreaming when all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you
on another note,just came home.I went for supper just now and everything was...great :).can't wait till the next time ;).need another day la!two hrs isn't enough ;p.I had a nice time *wink wink* ahahahaha
I WANT TO GO OUT!!!!!
please don't tell me if I'm dreaming when all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you
Thursday, August 19, 2010
whoa i havent blogged with the comp for quite somee time huh.anyways,on tuesday i was told i'd get happiness in my life and now i can honestly say tht i am happy :).now i have to make a decision.my mom said i could go out on saturday but now its up to me if i wanna go or not.im not sure if its a prank or if tht person felt guilty for asking my friend and not me or something.eventho tht person said tht they were serious but what happens if it is?i go there and get stood up?wait there like a total jack?do nothing for god knows how many hrs?they didnt even tell me what time to meet them.jeez im just being super duper paranoid huh.if tht person really wanted me there then i guess i'll go.i do wanna go yeah but i have no idea why im having my doubts.i would feel so much more relieved if my friend went cause at least someone could confirm going and if we get ditched,i still have her.i dont know why im being so worried bout this.i should just chill and go right?and if i do get ditched i'd always have starbuck right?i could walk alone...as long as no one follows me :).i need help...
i see you but i can't touch you.and it's killing me,it's killing me so good
Monday, August 16, 2010
Well ask me a question I tell you no lies
Cause there's nothing to hide the souls in my eyes
And I'm ahead of my time but I cannot rewind
The only thing I fear is the mirror in my bathroom
People look and try to see a disguise
But there is nothing that nobody can't see in light
If it's a song with a rhyme or a verse with a line
Then you wanna stay in my mind
Cause there's nothing to hide the souls in my eyes
And I'm ahead of my time but I cannot rewind
The only thing I fear is the mirror in my bathroom
People look and try to see a disguise
But there is nothing that nobody can't see in light
If it's a song with a rhyme or a verse with a line
Then you wanna stay in my mind
Sunday, August 15, 2010
It's just one heart break after one heart break.tell me how much you can take.
baby,let's go sky diving together
we could hold hands and feel the wind blowing in our hair
this way,i could just look into your brown lit eyes and lose all my fears
even if it was for a mere moment
i want that adrenaline rushing through me
through my organs
through my blood
oh the bright red blood that floods my cheeks
what amazing things you do to me
i can't quite get these feelings to vanish
and i don't want to lose these feelings
they're something i have never experienced
and darling believe me when i say i have experienced a roller coaster ride
you drove me onto dangerous grounds
you drove me into a vortex
we could hold hands and feel the wind blowing in our hair
this way,i could just look into your brown lit eyes and lose all my fears
even if it was for a mere moment
i want that adrenaline rushing through me
through my organs
through my blood
oh the bright red blood that floods my cheeks
what amazing things you do to me
i can't quite get these feelings to vanish
and i don't want to lose these feelings
they're something i have never experienced
and darling believe me when i say i have experienced a roller coaster ride
you drove me onto dangerous grounds
you drove me into a vortex
Thursday, August 12, 2010
iPod blogging :p
im blogging frm my iPod xD.first time,never thought I could do tht :D.ahahahah.gosh im lame :p.watching family guy now :).it's so funnyyy xD.gahhh I need new dresses la :(.I think i gotta shop pretty hard for the dress I'm looking for.it's either find it in shops or probably draw it out and put it on the internet asking ppl to look for it for me xD.kidding!just really looking for a really nice dress tht suits me la.some dresses tht I see are nice but the length of it is pretty much of a problem for me la.not too formal but not to casual,ya know what I mean?more to summer dresses la since Malaysia is pretty much a summer/spring country all yr long :p.like dresses like...on Glee in the walking on sunshine scene those were really really nice summer dresses.I feel like my wardrobe lacks colour.all I can see is some red,blue,black,white,a couple of greys and purples.so kesian la my wardrobe.lack of colour...not tht I need to shop but just feel so kesian la.I know I know I sound like a bitch la.it's ok I've been called a bitch by someone who I thought would never think tht of me but things are different now I guess.I really hope for a miracle to happen and happen soon!all I really want right now is for things to be the way it was between us before it's too late.jeez im really really really...frustrated-ish.things just somehow get better but only a couple are staying the way it wants to b.
guess what?!I got 35 for bm :(.sad me...
guess what?!I got 35 for bm :(.sad me...
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
My Lil Gummy Bears ;)
i miss my little cutie pies :(.they're all the way in sweden while im stuck here with this weird mind-changing weather...loveyouboys♥.
here's Little Paul♥.love him lots!!!lil cutie pie :)
i wonder what he's watching on the ipod.hmmm...
here's Baby David :D.he's as cute as a button♥
*nom nom nom* must have tasted good ;)
im hungryyy :p
awww how adorable are these two :D.isnt it amazing how their mom stuffs the both of em in one pram xD.owhhh Sal how still amaze me with your lil tricks :)
missing you guys♥.
here's Little Paul♥.love him lots!!!lil cutie pie :)
i wonder what he's watching on the ipod.hmmm...
here's Baby David :D.he's as cute as a button♥
*nom nom nom* must have tasted good ;)
im hungryyy :p
awww how adorable are these two :D.isnt it amazing how their mom stuffs the both of em in one pram xD.owhhh Sal how still amaze me with your lil tricks :)
missing you guys♥.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Sunday, August 8, 2010
For the Love of Sharpies♥ ;)
step aside boys!i have a new love now :).
how i could just dream...
*gets weak in the knees*
immitation!!!
Kyle wants this i think :p.i want it too!!!looks cool innit?:D
uncap whats inside *cover mouth* xD
awe-to-the-freaking-some!!!
this made me laugh xD
ooolala ♥:)
this made me go awww ♥
how i could just dream...
*gets weak in the knees*
immitation!!!
Kyle wants this i think :p.i want it too!!!looks cool innit?:D
uncap whats inside *cover mouth* xD
awe-to-the-freaking-some!!!
this made me laugh xD
ooolala ♥:)
this made me go awww ♥
Mood Swing-ish
im sorry if it's a lil harsh but i need to leash it out somewhere!jeez...
i was fine with starting everything all over.you wanted us to be friends,i agreed.but lately it feels like we're not!you treat me like im some kind of stranger.you never say hi,hey or whatever proper greeting.you always ask me questions like you never wanted me there in the first place.tht just makes me wonder even more.do you even want me around you?it's kinda hard for me to deal with the fact tht you thought or still do think of me as a bitch.it's not tht i think of myself as a sweet cherry pie or something but i really thought you knew me well enough.you're being completely rude to me and I know tht it's not how you generally are.i don't understand how someone whom I thought I've known for quite sometime and be so nice to me,could suddenly turn out so rude to me and only me.to others you're the good guy tht everyone knows.the one i used to know.im sorry i made you think differently of me.im sorry i broke my promises,i would like to make it up to you if you gave me a chance.im sorry i didnt watch new moon with you like we planned to.im sorry if i've treated you badly.im sorry for everything i've done wrong.do me a favour and please please please just tell me what you think of me.if you dont like me then just tell me.dont,im begging you,DONT make me think about you constantly.please just tell me.
♥girly-girl-graphics♥
i was fine with starting everything all over.you wanted us to be friends,i agreed.but lately it feels like we're not!you treat me like im some kind of stranger.you never say hi,hey or whatever proper greeting.you always ask me questions like you never wanted me there in the first place.tht just makes me wonder even more.do you even want me around you?it's kinda hard for me to deal with the fact tht you thought or still do think of me as a bitch.it's not tht i think of myself as a sweet cherry pie or something but i really thought you knew me well enough.you're being completely rude to me and I know tht it's not how you generally are.i don't understand how someone whom I thought I've known for quite sometime and be so nice to me,could suddenly turn out so rude to me and only me.to others you're the good guy tht everyone knows.the one i used to know.im sorry i made you think differently of me.im sorry i broke my promises,i would like to make it up to you if you gave me a chance.im sorry i didnt watch new moon with you like we planned to.im sorry if i've treated you badly.im sorry for everything i've done wrong.do me a favour and please please please just tell me what you think of me.if you dont like me then just tell me.dont,im begging you,DONT make me think about you constantly.please just tell me.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
The Silent Week
is what i shall name this week!:D
wanna know why?huh?huh?huh?owh i know you do :)
ahaha.its cause...
i aint telling :).i know im so scretive now.nahhh its just im trying my best not to b too obvious cause Laksh read it and she was like 'ITS SO FREAKING OBVIOUS!!!'.but in my opinion,its only obvious cause she knows whats going on with FULL details.im pretty sure it goes the same for everyone :).
tests are O-V-E-R!!!but the thing is...i think i practically screwed up all my papers D: so now im pretty much nervous for my results :/.bahhh bought a tube of Mentos like an hr ago.and guess what?i finished it already!:O bought it cause i got nervous for my results and thts what i do.eat!im such a fatty...
im gonna head to sleep now :)
goodnight hotties :]
wanna know why?huh?huh?huh?owh i know you do :)
ahaha.its cause...
i aint telling :).i know im so scretive now.nahhh its just im trying my best not to b too obvious cause Laksh read it and she was like 'ITS SO FREAKING OBVIOUS!!!'.but in my opinion,its only obvious cause she knows whats going on with FULL details.im pretty sure it goes the same for everyone :).
tests are O-V-E-R!!!but the thing is...i think i practically screwed up all my papers D: so now im pretty much nervous for my results :/.bahhh bought a tube of Mentos like an hr ago.and guess what?i finished it already!:O bought it cause i got nervous for my results and thts what i do.eat!im such a fatty...
im gonna head to sleep now :)
goodnight hotties :]
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Cuts healed by a tub of ice-cream :)
got lotsa cuts this week.the other day i got one on my left knee then the next day on the right -.-
and today?i got a deep one on my left thigh -.-'
how?my bag
when?i was putting my bag on the floor -.-'
aint tht just the darnest thing?
nowadays since i've gotten a tub of ice-cream,i've been eating a bowl everyday afterr i come home frm school.it helps with things...its really soothing!i know i know.im gonna get fat...but thts what everyone wants frm me right?eversince i was young,all everyone's been saying to me 'eat more.should be fatter.you're too skinny'.ugh!cant they see im already fat enough?i like the way i am now so really there's no point in arguing with me about getting any fatter.its enough having Azu call me fat,squishing my arms and Laksh calling me succulent.dont need other ppl to call me fat -.-'
cuts and ice-cream fats ASIDE!
i heard something today.truth b told,i've actually known tht something for quite some time now...i've heard it frm *counts fingers* 5 people?yeahhh.i just really wanna ask tht person but i guess it'll b a lil awkward bring up the past.bahhh nevermind la.i'll ask tht person one dayyy :).owhhh wait you wanted to know tht something,didnt you?well sucks for you cause i aint telling!muahahaha im so mean,im a bitch.thts what some people would think.if you're one of those people then...what goes around comes around!you can think im a bitch all you want but just know tht there's someone else in this world thinking the same bout you.
so many confusions.but day by day im getting over it :)
just when i think no one reads my blog and tht i could practically write crap and no one would wanna care,somebody aka Azu comes along reading it -.-
not tht i have anything against it,its just tht.my blog isnt exactly the easiest link to remember...anywaysss my point is people read my blog when i dont expect anyone too.unbelievable -.-'
i think im gonna hit the sacks
been sleeping kinda early nowadays :O
like at 11 :O
nightey night :)
and today?i got a deep one on my left thigh -.-'
how?my bag
when?i was putting my bag on the floor -.-'
aint tht just the darnest thing?
nowadays since i've gotten a tub of ice-cream,i've been eating a bowl everyday afterr i come home frm school.it helps with things...its really soothing!i know i know.im gonna get fat...but thts what everyone wants frm me right?eversince i was young,all everyone's been saying to me 'eat more.should be fatter.you're too skinny'.ugh!cant they see im already fat enough?i like the way i am now so really there's no point in arguing with me about getting any fatter.its enough having Azu call me fat,squishing my arms and Laksh calling me succulent.dont need other ppl to call me fat -.-'
cuts and ice-cream fats ASIDE!
i heard something today.truth b told,i've actually known tht something for quite some time now...i've heard it frm *counts fingers* 5 people?yeahhh.i just really wanna ask tht person but i guess it'll b a lil awkward bring up the past.bahhh nevermind la.i'll ask tht person one dayyy :).owhhh wait you wanted to know tht something,didnt you?well sucks for you cause i aint telling!muahahaha im so mean,im a bitch.thts what some people would think.if you're one of those people then...what goes around comes around!you can think im a bitch all you want but just know tht there's someone else in this world thinking the same bout you.
so many confusions.but day by day im getting over it :)
just when i think no one reads my blog and tht i could practically write crap and no one would wanna care,somebody aka Azu comes along reading it -.-
not tht i have anything against it,its just tht.my blog isnt exactly the easiest link to remember...anywaysss my point is people read my blog when i dont expect anyone too.unbelievable -.-'
i think im gonna hit the sacks
been sleeping kinda early nowadays :O
like at 11 :O
nightey night :)
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Activities
i didnt talk much bout prom did i?less i than i expected in my mind.of course who in the right mind would wanna blog at midnight?!ok mayb me right now...but whatever la!anywaysss,wont name all the activities aite?i'll just shorten them up :).Jude was made to dance to Single Ladies-Beyonce cause he wasnt wearing his mask xD.when he came bck,he said 'i lost my dignity' xD.was so funny ;).then there was this banana game where couples have to peel and eat the banana without using their hands and one person would have the banana in their mouth while the other has to try to peel and eat the entire thing!it was funny to watch xD.after tht,Akmal was telling lame jokes but we laughed anyway cause it was funny xD.then Ace of Spades performed and everyone was just sitting down.then Akmal took the mic and said 'people get up!seriously stand up.come and dance la you assholes!dance la you assholes!' it was so funny and then when everyone got to the dance floor akmal told some Digimon joke?lameee.and finally they performed mkultra and everyons started headbanging and jumping :).was sooo fun!then they played Pitbull and the guys were jumping and headbanging while us girls were dancing.Wern Xin sexy danced!actually most of us did :D.then my date wanted to walk so we did :).Amanda,Dan,my date and i went for a walk :).we walked to the bowling alley at Holiday Villa Hotel and then downstairs to the Victorian place?yeahhh the scene was really...nevermind.hmmm then they announced the Prom King and Queen:Daryl and Mabel xD.they had their dance and then the DJ said everyone else could join in.then my date and i slow danced :).it was my first dance :O it ended real nice :)
i dont know why i keep saying 'my date' xD.everyone already knows its Jude xD.
gonna call it a night.
goodnight sleepy heads ;)
i dont know why i keep saying 'my date' xD.everyone already knows its Jude xD.
gonna call it a night.
goodnight sleepy heads ;)
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Slow-danced
prom ended with a slow dance :)
it was so sweet :)
then my date saw Rohan looking at us.eventho he was wearing a mask,we could see the way he looked at us -.-
Laksh,if you're reading this...im pretty sure your bro already told you bout it.i wish it could last longer :).the event and mayb the dancing and jumping :).i'd upload the pictures but i look really really REALLY horrible :(.stupid fringe making everything look worse!argh!now my date is out with a Sedayan Elvis Presley and his bro.leaving me behind,not taking me :(.i wanna go with him...not tht i like hime in that way or anything but just wanna go out and have fun!
a certain someone went walking with 'a guy' and im curious to know what they were talking bout.yes im jealous that she got to talk to him for a long time but we used to do that and now...things are different :(
im dead beat!enough excitement and fun for the night :(.tho i wish it could last till...forever?its so fun!
Monday, July 26, 2010
prom is this friday...
im excited:)
oh oh oh today i was supposed to go out to buy the masks for sarah momma but she wasnt replying me at dinner time :(.so i didnt buy any la.then my mom n i went walking around,finally we stopped ard the digital stores when she got a call.all a sudden she remembered my eaphones got busted in the washing machine.eheheh so she reminded me n we went to Machines and she bought me a NEW pair of earphones withe a remote and mic!!!ahhh completely in love with my earphones!!!!!who knew Gossip Girl would be...interesting :O
tht was random...these few weeks has been a lil awesome :)
did i forget to mention HE TALKED TO ME
ULTIMATE BLISS
loving Sparks the Rescue!!!love love love em!!!
lets see wat to say wat to sayyy
my date is so...sweet :)
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Yesterdayyy
woke up at 8 in the freaking morn :O when i was supposed to wake up at 9.30!!!anywaysss i woke up the vibrations of my phone and Hadif's id appeared.
'prom dipostpon because not enough money to pay the hotel'
and i was like WAT THE?!!!
it was really disappointing...went out with ash,ell,kyle n gio :)
its so FLUFFYYY!!!xD
anyways...here's some pictures of my performances :X
i like this picture :)...
o.o
'prom dipostpon because not enough money to pay the hotel'
and i was like WAT THE?!!!
it was really disappointing...went out with ash,ell,kyle n gio :)
its so FLUFFYYY!!!xD
anyways...here's some pictures of my performances :X
i like this picture :)...
o.o
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Prom
is tomorrow night!!!starting at 7.30 in the evening till midnight :O
but before tht,gonna hang out at sunway with ash,ell,kyle and gio :)
cant wait!!!teehee.
gonna shop for masks for prom :X
eeepppp im becoming an excited monkeyyy :D
eheheh
woot woot woot woot!!!
see im so excited to the point where i doubled my woot woots xD
updating my iTunes n soon my iPod :D
LALALA
will try to remember to bring my cammie this time ;)
will take lotsa lotsa lotsa picturesss
or at least tryyy
cant believe i actually got a date...
:O
but before tht,gonna hang out at sunway with ash,ell,kyle and gio :)
cant wait!!!teehee.
gonna shop for masks for prom :X
eeepppp im becoming an excited monkeyyy :D
eheheh
woot woot woot woot!!!
see im so excited to the point where i doubled my woot woots xD
updating my iTunes n soon my iPod :D
LALALA
will try to remember to bring my cammie this time ;)
will take lotsa lotsa lotsa picturesss
or at least tryyy
cant believe i actually got a date...
:O
Sunday, July 11, 2010
get me a time travelling machine.please
i have the worst brothers in the world!they dont protect me one single bit!they dont interfere when i get hit and they certainly dont give a damn bout anything tht involves me!!!!
a few days ago,i found out i could have a better life!a life where i wouldnt get hit where i wouldnt have to put up with all of this!!!at tht time i was glad with how my life is even tho i had my issues.i knew i could work those problems out.but now im just waiting for the time when i turn 18 and soon i'll b able to get out of this place!
i cant believe im living this way
i cant believe in living in hell!
i cant even stand the freaking sight of her!
ugh!!!i wished she just wasnt in my life
i wished she would have just given me up!!
i hate the fact tht im an accident
i despise the fact tht she keeps comparing me to them!!
we're human,we're not perfect!!!
i was created to his liking
not yours!
so im not the perfect daughter but heck who is perfect?!
u told me to put my studies first and i did
now ur yelling at me for doing so?!
wat the heck is wrong with you
i wish i followed him to sabah!
at least i got to b away from you!!!
i dunno wats worst the fact that im crying ovr the fact tht i want you to accept for the perfect daughter im not or the fact tht i just wanna run away FAR AWAY FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR 10000 MILES FAR AWAY FROM YOU!!!!
i wish i was talking to him right now i really do.i wish he could hold me in his arms and just comfort me right now.i wanna turn back time.just get me a time machine
a few days ago,i found out i could have a better life!a life where i wouldnt get hit where i wouldnt have to put up with all of this!!!at tht time i was glad with how my life is even tho i had my issues.i knew i could work those problems out.but now im just waiting for the time when i turn 18 and soon i'll b able to get out of this place!
i cant believe im living this way
i cant believe in living in hell!
i cant even stand the freaking sight of her!
ugh!!!i wished she just wasnt in my life
i wished she would have just given me up!!
i hate the fact tht im an accident
i despise the fact tht she keeps comparing me to them!!
we're human,we're not perfect!!!
i was created to his liking
not yours!
so im not the perfect daughter but heck who is perfect?!
u told me to put my studies first and i did
now ur yelling at me for doing so?!
wat the heck is wrong with you
i wish i followed him to sabah!
at least i got to b away from you!!!
i dunno wats worst the fact that im crying ovr the fact tht i want you to accept for the perfect daughter im not or the fact tht i just wanna run away FAR AWAY FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR 10000 MILES FAR AWAY FROM YOU!!!!
i wish i was talking to him right now i really do.i wish he could hold me in his arms and just comfort me right now.i wanna turn back time.just get me a time machine
Saturday, July 10, 2010
things change over time i know tht.but how can the simplest friendship seem so wrong.i want everything to go bck to the way they were.the way we were.i want last yr bck.i want November 2009 bck.i want that simple talk on that shared bench again.i didnt want things to change,i liked it the way it was.something so simple changed.i want you to see my tears.the tears tht were just for you,for our friendship.
i want YOU back.
i want YOU back.
Sedayan Concert and Sedayan Night
was a blast!i was really excited.everyone looks HAWT n BEAUTIFUL!!!!the boys were looking sharp and hot!they should dress like tht more often,they were really good-looking ;).ahahaha anyways ours was the last dance :/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tHtAVFaH1FY
go check it out ;)
p.s. try n figure out where im in :D
here's some pictures we took :D
nicole and me :)
(i look different :O,my head is HUGE!!!eheheh)
illy and me.weee~
momma sarah and me :D
vampire and werewolf ;)
Laksh,Fifa and mmeee :D
smexayyy xD
final pose :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tHtAVFaH1FY
go check it out ;)
p.s. try n figure out where im in :D
here's some pictures we took :D
nicole and me :)
(i look different :O,my head is HUGE!!!eheheh)
illy and me.weee~
momma sarah and me :D
vampire and werewolf ;)
Laksh,Fifa and mmeee :D
smexayyy xD
final pose :D
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