My World's Hanging By Three Words That I Cant Bare To Say

Clearly you guys like each other!Its so obvious la!

-Laksh

Why you guys so mysterious-mysterious?Cant you guys just tell each other and get over all this mystery?You see me and *bleep*.I told him that i liked him and he was like 'Owhmygosh!Really?!I like you too!.Thats why you should tell him!Just GO and tell him

-Azu

Eyh,when you and *bleep* wanna get together?so cute together ady.I wish i could shout at him to be with you

-Sarah

Yesterday(Monday) i takut *bleep* will come and marah me.Cause i takut he'll come and say 'Why you lend Cynthia your jacket?'.Go borrow jacket from him or else when you guys wanna be together?!

-Jimmie

those are the few.owh yeah Jude shouted 'your boyfriend's here!' the other day -.-
i dont know what to say anymore.Azu even tied a piece of dried up wet tissue paper ard my wrist making me promise tht i cant take it off until something happens between us?like going out...
crazy huh?

An Okay-Happy-Only-Because-Of-You Day

so this morning i went bck to school as obvious as it may seem.i go to school all the time :(.anywaysss i felt tired but i couldnt sleep at all this morn but i felt really worn out for no apparent reason :|.then when i got to class,i laughed so hard for no apparent reason and then Laksh said something but i thought otherwise.it was just hilarious xD.too open to say it here xD.then after the second period i was gonna try to sleep or at least get my eyes some rest but i failed.MISERABLY.especially when after closing my eyes for 5 seconds and i start bursting out with laughter.like what the fudge right?it was so random and Laksh gave me the 'what the hell is wrong with you' look.anyways i finally got some shut eye and after i woke up i wasnt exactly tht crazy me anymore.went down for PE and did ordinary PE sitting on the bench stuff.normal stuff happened and then during BM period i was talking to Kyle and we were sharing stuff.so i was kinda behind my ringkasan so i finished it a lil later,made my way to the teacher staffroom to pass it up and when i was walking bck...i saw him and we had a short conversation but still...it made me happy.i was kinda bummed out cause i heard some stuff but he made me happy and yeahhh :).ehehe.he just kinda made my day :).
gotta go now
so im signing off with this thought
me and you in the hallway ♥

Iman's Birthday and Sarah's Open House Photos :)

so here are some pictures we took at Iman's birthday party!

.cynthia.illyana.sarah.


we're making fishy faces :)


illy and i


whoa our eyes :D


ahahaha.iman's so cute :)


me and illy being silly :).hey tht rhymes.ehehehe

and these are just a few of the pictures we took at Sarah's open house :).i dont have the pictures i took with sarah but hey i'll get them soon :).i shall upload em when i get em ;)


Laksh and me :).owhmygosh loving this photo


azu and me~felt like going a lil crazy at tht point since everyone's just going to smile for every photo ;p


amanda,laksh and me :)


awww look at our lil family :).weee~

so this is pretty much all i've got.when i get more then i'll post it up aite?aite.so today's a special school holiday for us Sedayans :).reasons because our CEO's father passed away and the teachers are forced to go all the way to Negeri Sembilan just to go for the funeral,which i think is a lil extreme since we didnt even know him in the first place.so if there were no teachers then not school :).im sorry Mr.Peter Ng,im deeply sorry tht your father is moving on into the afterlife but in my defense this might just b the stupidest reason to cancel school.but thanks anyways for giving us a break :)

Open And Unexpected

so i went to Sarah's place yesterday :).at first when we got there we were in her room then we had to go down where the party's at xD.couldnt go in the house at all :(.it was fudging hot!her Seafield friend kinda boycotted us probably cause they were comfortable with their gang as we were with ours :|.couldnt wait to go inside!owhmygosh owhmygosh owhmysosh!i got to see my dear Eva again :D.missed her so much la but unfortunately she couldnt stay for long :'(.but thts okay cause im hoping to see her soon :).we went into the house at ard 3?yeahhh and thennn her Seafield friends got jealous xD.ahahaha they got jealous of us :D.so we went out of the house just to wait for them to go inside then only can we go inside -.-
seriously?yeah tht happened...anywaysss we went inside and took one side of the living room while they hung out on the other end :/.me and sarah took so many vids and a few pics :).it was so fun just the two of us crapping bout kyle bullying her xD.then while everyone else was in their own coversations with each other,sarah and i had some personal talk,ya know.it was niceee ;p.after their ignorance ended we finally went upstairs and went crazyyy!i kinda camwhored a lil with her Mac :p.it was fun la!i had to leave early tho :(.its kinda sad really.i wanted to spend more time la but had to go for my aunt's birthday party eventho it wasnt much.ate,wathced some old Cantonese show bout how Chow Yun Fatt had 2 wives and it got confusing,used the wifi and went home by 11 -.-
if i knew it was gonna b boring then i would've asked my mom if i could stay longer but being a good niece(even tho i dont really like since she always criticizes me bout travelling) i still went.so today wasnt much...oh oh oh on saturday morn at 1-ish?yeah someone wrote on my facebook wall and he liked it.Heee :).mayb its cause of what it said :p.i dont know i was just kinda shocked tht the person wrote it :| despite the fact tht tht person knows.or at least i think he does :S.it was so randommm :p.i was kinda hoping he'd comment on it tho ;p.SO i recently i changed my tumblr layout and its new :).havent updated in awhile tho but a few pictures would do me some good.plusss NEW LAYOUT!:D kinda excited bout it sorryyy.
havent used a certain term in awhile

TEEHEE :)

Tell Me When It's Time To Say I Love You

i blast the volume on my ipod because i want to drown the voices of the world tht made me upset,depressed,sad,disappointed,angry.i wanted to drown my sorrows.i just wanted to live my own little world where i just dance in my mind not giving a fudge about what everyone thinks.

today i wore my hoodie,put on my earphones,blasted the volume on my ipod and closed my eyes.then i get flash memories that i've shared with you and start missing those days.then i cry.but i had to move,i had to walk along the hall and pass by your class.i had to give money to Joel for some compulsary crap.Joel had to ask why i i looked the way i did.i couldnt bare to answer him.i couldnt bare to remind myself why i cried.

you can make me so happy by just smiling at me but this uncertainty is driving me insane.i see you looking at me and boy does it make my heart melt.it makes me so happy but it couldnt last long.not long enough to overcome this uncertainty

Ice-cream at a Waterfall~

so today a bunch of us went to Templer Park and owhmygosh it was so fun therefore i shall tell as much as i possibly can cause i'd like to refresh my memory when there comes a time where i feel the need to read all of my posts :)

situation on thursday.
-Chia Yee's facebook status:i wish i had a bucket of never ending ice-cream :)
Cynthia Teng:me!me!me!ME!!!i want mint chocolate chip too!!!!!!!
Nugget Voon Guan Zhong:I help you make that wish come true but must finish it immediately one wor..
Cynthia Teng bring on saturday!:D
Nugget Voon Guan Zhong What ice cream you wan o?
Cynthia Teng mint chocolate chip :)
Nugget Voon Guan Zhong Try and find larh..
Cynthia Teng if cannot then buy chocolate la xD
Nugget Voon Guan Zhong I got tons of the mint chocolate chip... In UK.. HAHAH.. Okay larh.. Chocolate arh..

Saturdayyy :)
-Morning-
i went to vincent's car,said hi and he said 'he *points to Guan Zhong* brought your ice-cream...' i asked if he was serious and Guan Zhong showed me the 2 boxes ;p.one chocolate and the other peppermint :).i thought i was the last one but see see PeiJing was the last one xD.i followed PeiJing to Templer's in Jet's car and i was super quiet i tell you!i was playing a little on my iPod while texting Keneedy even tho he was just in the other car xD.i only started talking when Jet became some smart ass,overtook Vincent who is the only one who knows the way and got lost -.-
lucky for him i knew my way ard KL a bit ;p.cyehhh perasan bit ;).ahahahah.anywaysss when we finally got to Dataran Merdeka he finally knew how to go -.-
got there ard...9?i think so we went jungle tracking and boy oh boy were there leeches!the first half we walked on the road to the swimming pool and found a snake swimming in the pool?there were also fishes there cause it was from the stream?i have to get to the point la.always get side tracked :p.owkayyy so our goal was to get to the waterfall so we had to start walking on pathways and squeeze through plants trying to be cautious of leeches and trying not to fall.it was and hr and a half of doing so and in the end i had four,i repeat FOUR!,leeches tht stuck on me :O.i freaked out so badly because of the specific reasons below:
-they were very VERY ticklish
-i somehow had the feeling to scratch em :X
-they looked utterly disgusting growing fatter and fatter *shudders*
-i had to wait for ten frigging minutes!
at first i was between ZhiMing and Vincent so just in case i stuble Vincent can catc h me frm behind.PeiJing was with Jet and Keneedy was leading :p.Keneedy struggled with some plant so Vincent went ahead so Joel was behind me shouting 'Cyn!!!LEECH!' and being the paranoid me,i went all 'what?what!where?!' and he goes 'JUST KIDDING!' and he starts laughing.i stopped to turn ard and he goes 'hang la!' -.-
when we finally got to the waterfall,i took of my pants(i was already wearing shorts inside) and i found a leech on my knee,one above my heel,one on my shin and mysterious bleeding on my ankle.they said it dropped off d so its ok.
learnt how to sharpen the parang and how to wash it.did so many things tht i can barely recall due to the days passing by :p.i know tht Vincent,Joel and Keneedy picked me up and threw me into the water -.-
thanks a lot guys.now my beehind hurts :(.damn hard to dive into my bed now *sighhh*.after tht,we took the ice-cream tht Guan Zhong brought and started eating it in the water.someone,i dont know who,started dumping the chocolate ice-cream on Guan Zhong's head then Joel dumped some of it on me.then i started dumping some on him and everyone started wiping ice-cream on everyone :).after Joel dumped the ice-cream on me,i opened my eyes and i had chocolate ice-cream + saliva splattered all over my face because Joel had ice-cream in his mouth and started laughing at me when he saw my face full of ice-cream -.-
owhmygosh it was DISGUSTING!
anywaysss...dont wanna say too much or your brain capasity would b filled :p

I got Malaysia!!!Marvelous Marvelous xD

it's 3 in the morn and im fudging awake!dammit!i was so tired yesterday cause i slept at 5 and woke up at 7.went to Laksh's house for the entire day :).we were supposed to study but it tanked ;p.let's see what did we do...?
hmmm *think think think*
owhhh yeahhh
the first thing we did when i got there was TALK!missed her so badly :).she talked about her story first then we went to makan breakfast.ehehe.after tht we went upstairs and i told her my story.curious little fella xD.then i slept for an hr while she played with my iPod.woke up slept for another hr,looked at the time,told her to sleep as well cause she said she was tired but she didn't wanna sleep so i went bck to sleep :).i know i know im a pig :).slept for 3 hrs and Laksh was...i don't know what she was doing!she was probably taking pictures of me sleeping hoping to get some black mail ;p.ahahahaha.good thing she stops reading my blog :D.anywaysss had chicken rice for lunch and rohan's asked us why we were so quiet.couldn't tell him why.I wanted to laugh so badly xD.ahahahahahahahahahahaha.too bad Rohan!i saw it >p.there's no way you can turn time!ahahahahahahahahahahaha.sorry inside joke :p.while eating,we watched the first half of the ManU vs Rangers game and Rohan got so bored watching so he left.me and Laksh got addicted to the muruku and we kept eating!honestly i think we at least finished half the conatiner :O.then went upstairs and talked crap!she took a video of me calling her a douche and she kept putting her feet to my face :'(.as i wanna smell her feet!pffft!ahahaha sorry monkey :).went swimming and it was just the two of us there.awesome much?!had so much fun at her place la :).haven't been to her house in awhile *sigh*
my brother cooked spaghetti for dinner.halfway eating the spaghetti,he said tht the meal was mid-western mixed with malay cooking mixed with chinese cooking.i asked him what was the chinese part and he said his sweat!eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.i literally spat out my food and he laughed so hard he almost choked :(.but then he said'no la!I was just kidding!it's wine la'
so mean right?I almost puked!damn disgusting la!
now its 5 *sighhhh*.damn emo now!i wanna scream!Sue is coming to my house later :).thts something tht will keep my smiling for awhile.mayb going to sunway with Ash as well.owh yeah!sorry azu.Laksh was my ride there and you enjoyed yourself with ice-cream watching piranha so good enough right?ahahah.gonna update my tumblr awhile.owh!i have tumblr as well but it's not much and and and I can change my tumblr site anytime :).
wanna see my tumblr?then go to tumblemecyn.tumblr.com
if i ever change you're the first to find out xD
still damn emo la.ishhh!


do you hurt the way that i do after all this time?
you left me broken

My tears were for you

the world is crashing down on me.
i was an accident,i know that
everything is my fault
i don't mean a thing to any of you
i don't care anymore
if i fail,nobody would care
i don't know what to think anymore
father left so i expect you would too
who would want to be around me
someone so cold,so emotionless
someone who stopped giving a damn
someone unwanted in this world.

this was a draft frm last night.i was crying my eyes out.why?because of so many things.damn what's wrong with me?

A scene

so my weekend went pretty well :|.woke up on saturday at 10 after sleeping at 4 :(.got to sunway ard 10 something and waited for Kyle and Ash at starbucks till 11.30?there was an old man who took the chair next to mine cause there was no other seats ard his old lady gang.i didnt know what else to do so i used the wifi to kill boredom.then the old dude started massaging his feet!i was kinda creeped out and wanted to move but there were no other seats :(.anywaysss luckily Ash came after 10 mins and then Kyle :).we went to Burger King for lunch :).i kinda regretted buying the mozarella cheese tho.every time i pull it still wouldnt tear.Ash and Kyle laughed...a-ha-ha-ha.not funny!after tht we went archery and 5-10 of my arrows kept bouncing bck o.o
damn funny la.one of the workers there kept joking ard by taking my chips and Ash's Ribena xD.was so damn funny la.after we finished our arrows Ash wanted her snowy -.- so we went to get snowy :p.after tht we played air hockey and and and we set the new highscore for tht basketball game thing xD.all 3 of us played together and we were trying to score at the same time.some even bounced off xD.it was so fun!we didnt wanna waste our cash there anymore so we went to the arcade :).it was the first time i raced virtually in an arcade!seriously o.o
after tht we just lepak-ed in Starbucks until we went home :).i wonder what Kyle did when i had to go...he got estatic when he heard my mom was gonna come 30 mins later than she said she would.ahahaha funny boy!

came home.rested a bit.when i say rested i mean went online and watched tv :).i WAS supposed to go to James' place straight but then my mom wanted to take a detour and go to sungai buloh first -.-'
ate very little and fell asleep while watching iron man 2.yes i was tht tired...

didnt do much today.i dont know why but lately i've been feeling so messed up.like the world's hating on me and nothing i could say would change their minds.im so messed up to the point where the other day i didnt know what i was thinking and i dropped a glass plate.just like how im feeling,i fell and shattered into pieces.

i just want happiness for an entire day.could you do that for me?

Mood Swings

i was talking to someone like half an hour ago.one minute he's nice to me but the next minute he's giving me this vibe like he's got a problem with me.im thinking to myself 'mayb im not the only one with mood swings'.he said tht it's cute tht I cried for almost getting my phone confiscated,which really happened(don't laugh!).i replied 'it is?' and he says 'ya la ya la VERY'.either he got vexed or tht was sarcasm.and i don't think it was sarcasm!i didn't exactly know what to say after tht.i like him but i don't really know what's going on :/.jeez!i don't know how he feels about me dammit!good thing he doesnt read my blog.in this case i wish he knew what i was thinking.i wish he knew how i felt about him *sighhh*.anywaysss confusion ASIDE!would love to blog bout my weekend but it's already past one and im supposed to wake up early :(

could you just let me know how you feel about me so i wouldn't have to go through this confusion?

Life's turning it's back on me

*sighhh* why in the world is life hating me?seriously!*sighhh*
plans for tomorrow?I mean later...
i WAS supposed to hang with SOME PPL but it was canceled last minute :(.I was looking forward to it.even last time i couldn't go but now when I can go it got canceled :(.life's probably laughing at my misery now dammit!
*sighhh* I knew something like this would happen!I just knew it would.I kinda had tht vibe the entire night.but there's a bright side to this :).Kyle,Ash and I were already planning to go out later so yeah :).at least I get to go out.the original plan was to hang with those ppl then hang with Ash and Kyle but since those ppl canceled :(,i'll just have more time to hang withAsh and Kyle :).after tht farewell dinner at James' house for Mei and Dave :).gonna miss them loads!!!nevermind i'll just go visit them after PMR or something :).and i'll bring Eleen with me :D.ehehehe

anyways since my plans were ruined yesterday and a tad ruined todayyy,I shall try to sleep it off without tearing.it's only cause im THT fragile now.if YOU'RE reading this then THANKS FOR CANCELING ON ME
sorry im just really really emotional this week till Wednesday I hope.dammit!i don't fudging know what to fudging feel right now

What would i have done without you?

so recently i've been feeling crappy.like really crappy due to some issues.someone noticed and made me feel better :).

thank you :).what you said made me smile.the way you cared for me made me smile.and mayb i havent expressed enough but you asked me through msn and quite frankly if i was right in front of you,my face would've probably light up the momment you ask me.thank you very much :).you know who you are ;)

tht person doesnt even read my blog!why in the world am i saying this?mayb its cause tht was the first time anyone made me smile today besides tv and other conversations with other ppl but i never told anyone bout it so yeahhh.anywaysss today i had this good girl attitude to me and actually finished my homework :).im very proud of myself because usually i leave all this to the last night.i tweeted bout it and Laksh's reply was what is wrong with you xD.oh oh oh!i bought 4 apps today :).weee~
been wanting to buy apps for quite some time!finally!!!joyyy :).well i got pretty much nothing to say cause i havent been productive at all!was planning to go out today but it was only going to be kyle,sathya and me.it was last minute so we decided on another day when more ppl could go.honestly i dont mind being the only girl.its so normal of me :).after all,i am the only girl in the family and the youngest so im used to it.i realised my mom's side of the family is mostly men.when i say men i mean men.my cousins are almost past their mid 20s seriously.
WHOA!Nickson looks like Keneedy and Joel combined!damnnn thts really something i've nvr noticed...its really weird!!!

i've got nothing else to say...

i love dreaming about you :)

i know you doubted me feeling the same way you did
but boy you can't be anymore wrong.
i don't need to be in a relationship
all i need is to tell you how I feel about you
but i wouldn't want to change a thing
i wouldn't want to change what we have
we're already starting to have a normal conversation
believe me this little normal conversations ,
are already making me happy compared to just waving and smiling
you don't know how happy you make me
just talking to you makes me happy
can't you see how hard i try to hold back my smile
especially when i'm around you
so that you wouldn't think i'm a psycho smiling for no apparent reason
but i can't exactly tell you that i'm smiling just because you're talking to me
can i?
i don't want us to stop talking again
because i know that things would change if i told you.
i want our friendship to grow
it doesn't have to grow into a relationship
i just hope we could be as close as we were last year
you don't know how just thinking about you can make me smile :)

i cant get you off my mind

have i mentioned how much i enjoyed my friday?or my weekend?well if i havent then i really like my weekend :).no fights,no arguements,no quarreling.it was nice...not one day,was i not thinking bout him :).seriously this might stick for a while :X.anywaysss pancakes :).yummyyy :D.wanna come over and have some?yeah im talking bout you!so do ya?im gonna make a few soon :).with chocolate chips!last night i shared some with my bro :).we only ate em with peanut butter,kaya and pure honey :).sadly there wasnt any chocolate syrup or else it might have tasted better :/.damnnn i cant stop thinking bout you.not tht its a bad thing but i have no idea how you feel about me.damnnn this feeling is kinda crappy...none the less,im quite happy :)

you turned something so utterly boring to something tht would b remembered :)

i thought tht today would be really boring especially after school since Azu didnt come :p.anywaysss a whole lot of ppl didnt come today and most teachers werent in the mood to teach so i had 5 free periods :).as for math,mrs joan helped us with wednesday's homework(which i did last minute but still got it correct ;]).so NO HOMEWORK FOR THE HOLIDAYSSS!!!WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!happy happy happy me :D.ehehehe
after school was really interesting...i was kinda happy bout it :).okay fine...i am really happy bout it :D.i cant stop smiling owhmyfreakinggosh!!!!*screams* too happy to the point where i cant sleep anymore :O.i was so sleepy but somehow i couldnt sleep in class...i should probably try to get some sleep for tonight.as for tonight,no plans for supper.so i should b home early i guess

mayb i'll post something later.
who knows
happy me signing off :D

in scouts camp,Joel told me one part of his scout test.it was damn funny and I cant believe he actually said it xD.ahahahahaha.they asked him some question he didn't know and he said too loudly 'chao ci bai' xD.ahahaha then they replied him 'we're speaking English now'.ahahahahahahaha I laughed so hard when I heard it.this suddenly came to me and I thought it was it was funny as obvious as it may seem xD.owhmygosh ahahahahahahaha damn funny la just can't get it out of my mind xD.ahahahahahahaha