Just A Little Insight Won't Make This Right

is it so hard to live a year without any heartbreak?even if it's not,can't i just just get a break from all of this 'love' the world speaks about?yes i may tweet about how alone i am and sometimes i may tweet bout my past feelings and how much i miss it,but really i just want to be happy.i never wanted guys to like me and ask me out on a date,hoping that we could be together,then having to leave the country next year.yes, it seems like i can actually get a chance of a relationship but why should i be in a relationship when i know it going to end?yes it's going to a nice,sweet but only for 2 months max.and what about next year?he'll be in another continent and me?i'll be here,alone.does he not think i wont get heartbroken?was he even thinking of me and what it's going to be like for me?yeah he's going to make a memory of being with me but then we're just going to be separated by miles!so no,i dont wanna be with him.i dont want to get my heart broken.i want to save myself from all the heartbreak.i dont want to go to school on first day,next year thinking 'i cant spend my first day of school with my boyfriend' or 'i wish my boyfriend was here'.all those needy,i-want-my-boyfriend thing just isnt and SHOULDNT be me.and forgive me if i've hurt that guy's feelings but i dont want to know that i'll be so broken that i wont enjoy the new year.i dont want to have these feeling for him when all he's going to do is break me.so no i wont go on a date with him