Don't Concern Yourself With This Mess You Left For Me

There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't 'cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone. Because what if you learn that you need love and then you don't have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever.
- Meredith,Unaccompanied Minor,Grey's Anatomy Season 7

Sinking To The Bottom

your level for tolerance is ZERO!all you can think about is yourself and your relationship!and you're not even happy in your relationship.might as well end it before one of you gets really hurt!I'm not asking you to not care about him,I'm just saying tht you don't deserve this unhappiness.it's making you all worried and angry all the time.it's like you're not even yourself anymore!when you found out what your dad has been doing,I understand tht he betrayed your trust but when I ask you to calm down,don't take it out on me kay?!what did I even do to you?!I tell you to chill then you say you're damn angry.when I say chilling doesn't mean getting all worked up bout it,you shout at me saying you're not angry.HELLO!YOU'RE THE ONE WHO TOLD ME YOU WERE ANGRY!please la,you fight everyday and just because your boyfriend has got stuff going on doesn't mean you shouldn't live your life like you're bound to him.you're such a hypocrite!first you say you can care less about him and what he thinks,then you say you're worried tht he won't concentrate?!you yourself aren't concentrating in class thinking bout what's your dad doing and what you and him fight about.please la just dump him already!if he always brings up a certain someone when you fight then obviously he can't let go of the past.and every time the both of you fight,you act all sad and gedik-ish,giving me tht baby voice.when I ask why you're speaking like tht,you say you're just trying to be happy.what you're trying to do is get attention.you already know tht certain someone likes you and hasn't gotten over you,what more break up with his ex just to try to be with you again.and what are you doing?being all flirty and cute-like with him,giving him mixed signals.you already have a boyfriend,god!if you really wantto stop fighting and being so upset bout it then just break up.I'm so sick and tired of listening to you complaining all the time.yes I care about you but fighting every single day in a relationship is not an ideal choice,whatmore fighting bout petty things.sure you guys will eventually split but don't prolong the anger and the suffering.whatever it is you wanna do its your choice but please don't come to me and complain how irratated you are.i've had enough of it.and please!PLEASE just stop leashing out your anger towards me cause one day,I'll just explode in your face.and sometimes when I shout bck,it's because I can't take it anymore.you tell other people tht we're just messing around but to me,I mean it.yes it does hurt that much to have you shouting in my face for no apparent reason.and when you insult me,I know it's real because you say it like you really mean it.even if you do really mean why don't you just stop being my friend?I'm still your friend because I know you aren't always like this.the reason I'm ranting is because I'm so tired of you shouting at me all the time!i remember you saying tht whenever you see someone sitting alone on the bench you feel sorry for them tht they have no company.you always see me sitting alone and prefer to sit somewhere else unless other people you aren't as close to doesn't come.does tht mean you feel sorry for me too?does that mean I'm just as lonely as the next?yeah because when you really need something or have no one to talk to,thts when I appear in your eyes.