If you had an hour left to live,what would you do?

so hey!exams ended today :).Geo was so difficult!!!but Cikgu Rohana said i passed so i guess im quite happy with it.oh oh oh for english,i only know for my novel i got 9/10 :D.soooooo mother freaking happy bout tht!!!mayb coulve have gotten a 10 if it wasnt for the word 'costed'.yes yes i know there's no such word but i was rushing tht time and i was too done with writing more so i didnt double check.just counted my words and FINITO xD.science was aite and math was blardy hard for me.even with the calculator D: anyways today i had free periods till lunch :).did some real personal sharing with Laksh,Xian and Sam :).it was nice,just some girly chit chat with them.oh oh Wednesday was EPIC!after the math test,which was lunch me Laksh and Xian were trying to study for Sejarah but we failed -.- went SUPER DUPER MEGA HYPER!ahahaahahahahahahahahahaha good times,good times.
lets just end this post on a nice note aite?:)

Blow The Candles Out

seems like here’s the only privacy i get.been so caught up with my emotions this week.

is it safe to say tht things aren’t fine?to say tht im not dealing well with you being with him.to say tht im hurt by him actually asking you instead of me.to say tht i don’t know what to say to you anymore.to say tht i never thought you wouldn’t think about my feelings and just tell me to deal with it.to say tht it sucks to know you’ve gone from guy to guy.in this 3 months thts passed,you’ve liked more guys than i’ve had my exes in my entire lifetime.and now you’ve gone for a guy who i’ve patiently waited for.to say tht im doubting the fact tht you even consider me as a friend.are you my friend at all?you say im like your best friend but what best friend hurts you so bad?what best friend lies to your face about having to used to like the guy you’ve liked for more than a yr?tht doesn’t sound like what a best friend does.not to me at least

bck to whatever…im now a proud Diana F+ owner :).it still needs a name tho.suggestions anybody?oh and Red House won this yr :).but a certain captain didn't look too happy when he found out :/.i don't know what's his problem and red house cheerleading got 3rd :(.it was so good beside the fact tht some stunts were an epic fail but still...yellow house kinda copied our moves :p.they didn't have a basket toss until we had one,then they found out we were doing tht air split thing and they did 2 -.- their stunts went fine and ours?well our basket tosses didn't go as well.the first one,i slipped from the mud and fell on the guy's arms.the second one,i went so high but then i went sideways and no one caught me.but i didn't feel anything :).so thts okay i guess :p.I've got no mood to type anymore...

Say Goodbye :)

heyhey!so whats been going on in the blogging world?well i wouldnt know since i barely update mine :p.now my monthlies are OVER!!!:D

i cant believe i actually passed my HISORY TEST!:O the ironic part was when i doing the paper i didnt even know most of the answers!thank god!thank god!
the only question i absolutely knew the answer to was the one where they asked bout the reasons why Malaysia couldnt defend themselves xD.hilarious!!!ahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
anywaysss so now tht im done with my monthlies,i gotta start on the red house deco RIGHT AWAY!:O so quick but we just gotta and this yr a certain someone isnt going to settle for 3rd of 4th place.and i really wanna win tht trophy :].ehehehehehehe

the school's cheerleading team is coming into place tho :).got our routines and stunts done so now all we need is our outfits and accesories which is a little hard given tht no many ppl are willing to pay a whole lot :/.but other than tht,we're really having some laughs at practice and its super fun la!!!i dont want it to end so quick!!!:(

sighhh.things between me and ... are a little confusing.it SUCKS!we're going bck and forth bck and forth.we talk bout life and then we stop talking.then we talk bout our feelings and now the only times we talk is when its important other than tht...NOTHING!ugh!!!getting sick of it.trying to get over him but sighhh

just tell me the truth before things end unsaid

Share Wit Me The Secrets That You Kept In

hey :).i know i havent updated in 3 weeks?4?ahahaha anyways,i can rarely use the computer now cause im 15 and dealing with PMR.and also the fact tht my mom thinks i should study more even though the exam is to just determine which stream im taking -,- anywaysss i cant believe im turning 15!!!FIFTEEN!

*Taylor Swift's Fifteen starts playing in the bck of my mind*

ehehehehe.i know im a little late but...HAPPY 2011!:D
so the first week of school wasnt as great as i thought it'd be.second week's better and this week's the third week.and yesterday we already had to select our runners for red house.the school's already got us planning ahead for Sports Day and in my opinion its kinda quick.but what can we do?nothing.oh oh oh this yr i took on quite a number of responsibilities but im happy with it :).this yr im Red House's Assistant Captain :D.Table Tennis Club's Secretary and the Performing Arts representitive for form 3 :D.i hope red house wins this yr even though we still havent figured our mascot yet.at first we were starfish but then it was too lame and its too hard to create a cheer for starfish so we switched to swordfish but swordfish kinda tanked.and now we're still deciding but i hope we come up with something good soon cause everyone's started their cheer practice.anywaysss been going through some stuff recently.and the worst part is during break yesterday,i broke down when i started thinking bout it.owhmyfudge!when my friends saw they were like whats wrong whats wrong.after i wiped my tears,they aske me 'whats wrong?' i start to tear up all over again.

to all of you who cared...I LOVE YOU FOR CARING!:D

You Got Me All Broken Up In Second Chances

sorry it took me awhile to update but im updating :).been pretty busy lately and yeah...last monday i went to renew my passport and i bumped into Ash :).had breakfast with her and we spent the entire day together cause she wanted to follow me go out with a friend :).tht friend was really really late!tht friend was supposed to come at 2 or 3 but instead he came at 8!but i cant blame hime entirely cause he was helping his mom for christmas.anyways then last weekend was really hectic cause i was serving for the christmas luncheon :D.i was supposed to go to church at 6 but i had no other transport than my brudder so i followed him and got there ard 1.30?he was supposed to b there at 1 sharp cause the chairs and tables were coming.but when we got there the chairs werent even there!so i met up with Jon and Daniel and they wanted lunch but they already said they'd eat anything and it was all up to me to make a decision -.- hate it when tht happens.then Daniel started making jokes bout how it would take me a lifetime to make up my mind on just where to eat.i gave him the death glare and of course he'd just smile at me and i'd laugh.my brudder said 'just pick anywhere la!'.so we ate at the pan mee shop and we just sat there ate and talk talk talk xD.Daniel showed me tht there's a Marshmallow & Spaghetti game :O.i sucked at it :p.after we left i just hung out with Jon cause the chairs came.and he showed me his 'model walk'.super hilarious i tell you!couldnt stop laughing xD.and we exchanged our right slippers and at some point i fake befriended him and he reminded him he had my slipper -.- he said 'if you dont wanna b my friend,you're not getting your slipper bck!'.but it was funny.good times good times xD.ahahahahaha anyways met up with Melanie,Miriam and Martin at One Stop.wait i just realised all their names' start with M xD.ahahahahaha.Phoebe was late xD.Phoebe asked me if i was doing anything after all this cleaning up i told her no.cleaned up in less than an hr and we had to wait for more chairs so they told us we could go for dinner.so i went to makan with Phoebe and Jon and when we came bck,the chairs still havent arrived -.-
so we went to One Stop again to meet up with Sereen and Michelle.Sereen insisted i try the tau fu fa eventhough i didnt want any but she ordered it anyway.but she paid for it la so yeah...then all 4 of us just started talkling bout relationships and i realised tht even tho they're yrs older than me,they really do have my bck :).tht night i found out tht Sereen didnt even talk to the ex after she heard bout what happened.but now its all ok :).everybody's talking to everybody :p.went bck upstairs to clean the chairs and then we were done so we came down and Phoebe and Sereen went bck d.so Michelle,Daniel,Jon and i sat on the stair and just talked.i got home at 12 :O.had to wake up at 6 and left the house ard 7.45?but my brudder was supposed to b there at 8 but we got there 20 mins later.so he was late again xD.Phoebe came late again xD.i guess she really didnt wanna go home cause she asked me if i was doing anything after we were done again.but sadly we didnt go out...when i got home i was so tired i actually slept frm 5-11 and for some reason i kept crying frm 1 to 5 :(.it was weird cause all a sudden i just kept thinking of someone i should think of...anyways i just need to clear things up before school starts cause need to concentrate on PMR PMR PMR so tht i can hopefully get good results and prove my mom wrong to the core!:)

feeling confused right now.people say i should give him another chance but he already screwed up the fist time.and now i think he's leading me on.i dont know.i think we should clear things up.

gonna stop typing now cause im lazy to type more.if i can,i'll blog from my ipod later :p.check out my tumblr tho.the typographies are there because i guess i can relate to them?there's more pictures on tumblr but the stories are here so...check it out kay?:p

It's A Beautiful Night And We're looking For Something Dumb To Do...

hello again :).on Saturday i went out with Sarah and Erika for lunch :).we went to Happy Days and ate and ate and ate xD.we ate lots cant remember much tho xD.eheheheh it was so fun!took lotsa photos and i kinda camwhored a lil :p.but took a few pictures x).then today i found out something amazing!this is how i found out :D

*i walked towards my brother who was hanging ard other people(too many names to mention).Daniel was on the phone and then he saw me.after i stood behind my brother for less than 5 seconds and then Daniel came up to me*

Daniel: i didnt know you were serving
Me: no im not...
Daniel: yes you are!
Me: no.im not.
Daniel: yes.you are.
Me: no...
Daniel: yesss
Me: no la
Uncle Bosco: yeah you are

*at this point i was really really really confused.i thought they were playing a prank on me*

Me: i dont think so :S
Daniel: you are la
Jon: eyh you are seriving
Me: no...

*my brother turns ard*

My brother: yeah you're serving

*turns bck*

i was really confused but then Aunty Sheila said 'we put you're name in.if thts alright' and and i was like yeah sure its ok :D.and she asked if any of my friend would want to too.so i pulled sherrinder in too eheheheh :).Melanie already had plans cause she told me when someone asked her earlier.and now i get to serve :D.weee~ eventhough im 2 yrs earlier :p
weee~ ehehehe :).gonna go watch the new episode of Gossip Girl now :D

Let's Run Away To The Place Where Love First Found Us

hellooo :).i know i've kinda neglected my blog but who reads this anyway?!anyway i didnt wanna be those people who neglects their blog and later get another blog -.-
even tho i have my tumblr,im still trying to update this one just as much :).if only there was an app for blogspot then things would b easier but tht's not happening so...):

gonna try to simplify things here,so things may get spacey :p.on monday of the last week of school,tht day...was one of the best days :).got too hug somebody :3.ehehehe.wednesday was a holiday and i FINALLY went out Laksh :).had so much fun with her alone in the afternoon.then Sashwiny.Sashwarnan,Khaielaash,Brandon and Naviin came along so we stayed till 10?yeah...on thursday was my last day and i dont remember much :p.

HOLIDAYS STARTED
my first official call on the holidays was from my dear momma Sarah :).and she called me at 10 in the morn.btw,i slept ard 3 the night before (like i do now).the phone conversation went:

*i spoke in a very very sleepy voice*

Sarah:Hello!
Me:hi...
Sarah:so cyn...
Me:yeah?
Sarah:wanna go sunway lagoon?:)
Me:when?today?
Sarah:no!another day :)
Me:you called me this early.just to ask me whether i wanna go to lagoon another day?
Sarah:YUP!
Me:ermmm ok.sure...
Sarah:so when you wanna go?
Me:can i call you later?
Sarah:sure :)
Me:kay...good...im gonna go to sleejhkflp

*puts down phone*

funny huh?okay mayb not :p.so my first week of holidays werent as exciting as i thought it'd be :p.didnt do anything on the weekdays but on saturday Sarah,Eva,Azu,Ash,Kyle,Gio and i went to lagoon :).Keith joined us wayyy late and he didnt go on any rides at all!thts kinda sad...he wasted 60 bucks!before it rained,we went to the wave pool.had so much fun i tell you!ash and i kept dancing to the tunes :D.then it started raining and we started dancing more xD.had sooo much fun!:D

yesterday i went to Shook for dinner and daymnnn the food was good :).

new found love-Sour Blue Raspberry Bonbons :3
refound love-Sticky :D

love love love em :).want them for christmas!if anyone bought me a jar of Sticky,i would love them!no joke!well im lazy to type more so yeah...

You Make It Real For Me ♥

im under the covers right now,typing this.so many things have been happening recently and it's really difficult to type all bout it now in the a.m..anyways it was Laksh's birthday the day before yesterday and she absolutely love love loved my present and thank goodness to tht!ahahah anyways,you're probably wondering what i got her right?i got her a pair of red converse :).something tht she's been wanting for yes and now i got her a pair!ehehehe so happy for her.
ok enough bout tht.not so long ago(monday),i realised tht it's no use waiting for him to be in a relationship.i say this why?cause i've tht he's into someone else and mayb it's too late.i know im supposed to be heart broken and sad but no.i feel perfectly fine and it's weird.i guess im still waiting for him hoping one day he changes his mind and realises tht i've been waiting for him all this while.he's been there for me when i was going through all the bullshit bout my past and he knows me.he's has always been there for me and honestly as much as I wanna b in a relationship with him,i don't.as long as he's there to make me feel better when im down then im happy.im missing him now.but he's bck and i hope he's going to school cause somehow,i feel like giving him a hug.it's a weird feeling but i want him to know tht im here if he needs me.
dramatic stuff,done!yesterday was really fun!Eva came to vsit us and we had such a blast!took lotsa pictures.i'll post em one day :).Sarah,Azu and i took videos in the hall when there were teachers all ard but they didn't notice xD.had fun la!hope he comes later.it would b nice to just talk to him again :).anyways it's two in the morning now and I gotta wake up at six so I better stop :p

OH OH OH Sarah and I are going to do a musical next yr.or at least try :).and and and we're gonna do some cheerleading reasons because we want our secondary life to b fun not just study all the time!so I think next yr we're gonna have lotsa fun.we're gonna plot it,write the scripts and all those things.im so excited we're even writing out the storyline tomorrow!*screams* fingers crossed :D

okay okay im going off now!
nighty nights!
wait no morningy morning
ahahah tht was lame

The One Ride I Don't Want To Be On

friday was emotional and kinda pathetic but yeah...made ash mad and i really didnt wanna have tht sort of drama at the end of the schooling yr :|.and as i was crying,i looked up for awhile trying to think of what to write in someone else's yrbook when suddenly he walks by and a tear drops.i think he saw me which made me curious.did he see me?did he wonder why i was so sad?did he want to know?did he care?
then later tht day i saw something tht made me upset and the entire night i couldnt stop thinking bout him :|.he wrote in my yrbook :).but the thing is...there was to spots one in purple ink and the one in the bottom is blue.two very alike signatures and i still dont know...ahhh nevermind i guess i'll have to ask him :S.gonna make this real short so yeah

The Things Of The Past

so had a pretty good week,i guess.got bck my results by wednesday?pretty much kinda got what i expected so thts good right?practically passed everything except for history and mandarin?anyways i completely crapped tht so yeah :p.ahahaha
got our year books on yesterday?i think it was yesterday :p.anyways dont have many ppl writing on mine but still its nice to know i have friends :).i sound so pathetic,i know :|.heck i am pathetic!
i think Daniel Tan Boon Leong likes poking me :p.he keeps poking me :O.am i tht pokable?unfortunately yes :p.people like poking me.mayb cause im fluffy-ly flabby D: sometimes i like people poking me.its a weird tickly giggly feeling.makes me laugh and sometimes it just brightens up my day.but i prefer hugs :)
anyways gotta write on sombody's yr book but somehow im having a problem with writing anything down :|.this afternoon when he asked,he kinda shouted it out loud and i was with Sarah and Laksh.of course i said yes and when he walked up the stairs,the both of them started their ooh's and 'CYN!!!'s xD.Laksh even said 'i bet when you go home,you'll scream like mad.full of joy.ahahaha' but the sad thing was,i didnt have the time to write in it cause i had to do some banner for the general use of the school or something.anyways,he told me to continue after school since we had some time and i thought sitting on the floor,in the middle of the arch would mayb help but...unfortunately no :|.so i had to take it home and i've been thinking for hours!couldnt come up with anything.even when Adik and Momma talking bout stuff with me,i still wasnt focused...i was thinking bout what to write.and i wanna write something amazing tht could put a smile on his face everytime he reads it.i want to make an impression,to have him reading it over and over again but i dont think tht could happen so i think i'll just make it as sweet and long (he told me to make it long :]) as i possibly can.as long as it comes frm the heart right?yeahhh...i think i'll right frm the heart even if he thinks otherwise.at least im writing frm the heart :)