The Things We Say

Just A Little Insight Won't Make This Right

2011-10-06T20:18:00.003+08:00

is it so hard to live a year without any heartbreak?even if it's not,can't i just just get a break from all of this 'love' the world speaks about?yes i may tweet about how alone i am and sometimes i may tweet bout my past feelings and how much i miss it,but really i just want to be happy.i never wanted guys to like me and ask me out on a date,hoping that we could be together,then having to leave the country next year.yes, it seems like i can actually get a chance of a relationship but why should i be in a relationship when i know it going to end?yes it's going to a nice,sweet but only for 2 months max.and what about next year?he'll be in another continent and me?i'll be here,alone.does he not think i wont get heartbroken?was he even thinking of me and what it's going to be like for me?yeah he's going to make a memory of being with me but then we're just going to be separated by miles!so no,i dont wanna be with him.i dont want to get my heart broken.i want to save myself from all the heartbreak.i dont want to go to school on first day,next year thinking 'i cant spend my first day of school with my boyfriend' or 'i wish my boyfriend was here'.all those needy,i-want-my-boyfriend thing just isnt and SHOULDNT be me.and forgive me if i've hurt that guy's feelings but i dont want to know that i'll be so broken that i wont enjoy the new year.i dont want to have these feeling for him when all he's going to do is break me.so no i wont go on a date with him

Don't Concern Yourself With This Mess You Left For Me

2011-09-17T01:34:00.002+08:00

There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't 'cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone. Because what if you learn that you need love and then you don't have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever.
- Meredith,Unaccompanied Minor,Grey's Anatomy Season 7

Sinking To The Bottom

2011-09-11T17:32:00.002+08:00

your level for tolerance is ZERO!all you can think about is yourself and your relationship!and you're not even happy in your relationship.might as well end it before one of you gets really hurt!I'm not asking you to not care about him,I'm just saying tht you don't deserve this unhappiness.it's making you all worried and angry all the time.it's like you're not even yourself anymore!when you found out what your dad has been doing,I understand tht he betrayed your trust but when I ask you to calm down,don't take it out on me kay?!what did I even do to you?!I tell you to chill then you say you're damn angry.when I say chilling doesn't mean getting all worked up bout it,you shout at me saying you're not angry.HELLO!YOU'RE THE ONE WHO TOLD ME YOU WERE ANGRY!please la,you fight everyday and just because your boyfriend has got stuff going on doesn't mean you shouldn't live your life like you're bound to him.you're such a hypocrite!first you say you can care less about him and what he thinks,then you say you're worried tht he won't concentrate?!you yourself aren't concentrating in class thinking bout what's your dad doing and what you and him fight about.please la just dump him already!if he always brings up a certain someone when you fight then obviously he can't let go of the past.and every time the both of you fight,you act all sad and gedik-ish,giving me tht baby voice.when I ask why you're speaking like tht,you say you're just trying to be happy.what you're trying to do is get attention.you already know tht certain someone likes you and hasn't gotten over you,what more break up with his ex just to try to be with you again.and what are you doing?being all flirty and cute-like with him,giving him mixed signals.you already have a boyfriend,god!if you really wantto stop fighting and being so upset bout it then just break up.I'm so sick and tired of listening to you complaining all the time.yes I care about you but fighting every single day in a relationship is not an ideal choice,whatmore fighting bout petty things.sure you guys will eventually split but don't prolong the anger and the suffering.whatever it is you wanna do its your choice but please don't come to me and complain how irratated you are.i've had enough of it.and please!PLEASE just stop leashing out your anger towards me cause one day,I'll just explode in your face.and sometimes when I shout bck,it's because I can't take it anymore.you tell other people tht we're just messing around but to me,I mean it.yes it does hurt that much to have you shouting in my face for no apparent reason.and when you insult me,I know it's real because you say it like you really mean it.even if you do really mean why don't you just stop being my friend?I'm still your friend because I know you aren't always like this.the reason I'm ranting is because I'm so tired of you shouting at me all the time!i remember you saying tht whenever you see someone sitting alone on the bench you feel sorry for them tht they have no company.you always see me sitting alone and prefer to sit somewhere else unless other people you aren't as close to doesn't come.does tht mean you feel sorry for me too?does that mean I'm just as lonely as the next?yeah because when you really need something or have no one to talk to,thts when I appear in your eyes.

Back To Reality

2011-08-29T14:39:00.002+08:00

hellooooo :).it has been too long hasnt it?anyways,the last time i updated my blog was in march im guessing?ahahahahahaah been too lazy to blog anymore.its always with twitter.twitter's like a diary now :p.eheheheh oh oh oh have i mentioned i got myself a Lomo!!!:) i bought the Diana F+ Deluxe Set and the only item left to have the complete accessories is the instant bck :D.a lomo is an anologue camera tht uses film :).it so old school!love it to the max!trying to save up for the Instant Back,which turns it into a polaroid :).also trying to save up for prom but its not really comfirmed yet.it went from formal to beach party at night,not really sure anymore...okay since there's been a lot going on theses last few months since i've updated,i shall catagorise them.
firstly i wanna give a shoutout to Daniel since he's probably the only one who reads it anymore.he'll probably read this in a few months or whatever.just hi :)

School-well its school,so pretty much super boring!!!you sould see the amount of papers i've gotten recently.they're about the size of of your monitor.even though i cant possibly know but yeah :).oh for Sedaya Night and Sedaya Concert i was chosen for cheerleading captain,not bragging cause being captain is not awesome,and we named our team FLASH!:D practise was sometimes fun but there was one monday where i had to go practise for Rika's performance and when i went for cheer practise straight after,i notice they were just playing around.so i got pissed at them for not putting much effort.ugh i yelled at them and they said they already practise but it wasnt enough for me.we havent even gotten out timing right as well as the routine and the worst part was the events were only 2 weeks away!then i got badmouthed which made me all the more reason to be pissed,but Sarah calmed me down and im so grateful to have her as a friend :).things went off with a BOOM on Thursday but for Sedaya Night,some of them came late cause of tht damn BERSIH rally!there was a massive jam to the point where half of the boys couldnt make it in time.luckily the event wasnt going to start without the VIPs and they were late to.some of the guys even got out of their cars and started running to school!2 of the boys even ran from Taipan!mygoshhh man from tht point on,its like whoa!everything just went smoothly and after the event went out for supper with Mal,Dan,Ash,Trent,Adrie,Faya,Shareena and Iman :).super fun man!got home at almost one xD.had a nice talk with Mal on the way home too :).other than tht,got my trials.all 3 of em!done with 2 and one to go!

Love-so there was this guy who's younger by 2 yrs and i wasnt interested in him.but i guess he took it wrong and just thought tht mayb being around would change my mind.it didnt and he said he wasnt going to bother me anymore and with tht,he just completely ignored me.whattheheck bro?!i thought we could've actually been friends but apparently not..there's also a douche just doesnt get it when i say no.he asks again after a few month and im like bro,im sticking to my word.you know the him i've been talking about in my other posts,i've been giing him the silent treatment manly because i thought it be easier for me to get over him.but after a few months a just thought ah heck i'll just talk to him.and we got kinda close again :).oh last monday for CCA,he asked me to teman him while his other friends went for games so i did.Xian followed me and we went to chill in the canteen then he took my phone and started reading my texts.he wouldnt let me have my phone back so of course it had to get it bck.in the midst of trying to get my phone bck,Xian was laughing her ass off,saying tht i look like im raping him -.-' i dont think anyone know how a rape looks like.she also took a video of it and it just looks like i was over-hugging him.anyways my point is..im an innocent girl!:)

Friendships-well since Xian came into our class this yr and i promised her i wouldnt just ditch her,so her,Laksh and me became a little trio kind of thing.after awhile we became quite close but recently i feel rather distant.i feel so left out sometimes.usually we would always wait for each other when someone's behind or something but nowadays,whenever i stop for some reason,they'd just walk off without me.now they just walk off without even knowing im not there.im not saying this like i should be waited upon all the time or like im some bigshot or whatever.i just really dont like change i guess.sometimes or mayb all the time,i feel like everyone hates me,like im an out cast.sigh whatever la i guess i just gotta deal with it

so thts pretty much it i guess...kay bye

If you had an hour left to live,what would you do?

2011-05-12T23:17:00.000+08:00

so hey!exams ended today :).Geo was so difficult!!!but Cikgu Rohana said i passed so i guess im quite happy with it.oh oh oh for english,i only know for my novel i got 9/10 :D.soooooo mother freaking happy bout tht!!!mayb coulve have gotten a 10 if it wasnt for the word 'costed'.yes yes i know there's no such word but i was rushing tht time and i was too done with writing more so i didnt double check.just counted my words and FINITO xD.science was aite and math was blardy hard for me.even with the calculator D: anyways today i had free periods till lunch :).did some real personal sharing with Laksh,Xian and Sam :).it was nice,just some girly chit chat with them.oh oh Wednesday was EPIC!after the math test,which was lunch me Laksh and Xian were trying to study for Sejarah but we failed -.- went SUPER DUPER MEGA HYPER!ahahaahahahahahahahahahaha good times,good times.
lets just end this post on a nice note aite?:)

Blow The Candles Out

2011-04-03T18:46:00.003+08:00

seems like here’s the only privacy i get.been so caught up with my emotions this week.

is it safe to say tht things aren’t fine?to say tht im not dealing well with you being with him.to say tht im hurt by him actually asking you instead of me.to say tht i don’t know what to say to you anymore.to say tht i never thought you wouldn’t think about my feelings and just tell me to deal with it.to say tht it sucks to know you’ve gone from guy to guy.in this 3 months thts passed,you’ve liked more guys than i’ve had my exes in my entire lifetime.and now you’ve gone for a guy who i’ve patiently waited for.to say tht im doubting the fact tht you even consider me as a friend.are you my friend at all?you say im like your best friend but what best friend hurts you so bad?what best friend lies to your face about having to used to like the guy you’ve liked for more than a yr?tht doesn’t sound like what a best friend does.not to me at least

bck to whatever…im now a proud Diana F+ owner :).it still needs a name tho.suggestions anybody?oh and Red House won this yr :).but a certain captain didn't look too happy when he found out :/.i don't know what's his problem and red house cheerleading got 3rd :(.it was so good beside the fact tht some stunts were an epic fail but still...yellow house kinda copied our moves :p.they didn't have a basket toss until we had one,then they found out we were doing tht air split thing and they did 2 -.- their stunts went fine and ours?well our basket tosses didn't go as well.the first one,i slipped from the mud and fell on the guy's arms.the second one,i went so high but then i went sideways and no one caught me.but i didn't feel anything :).so thts okay i guess :p.I've got no mood to type anymore...

Say Goodbye :)

2011-02-24T19:47:00.003+08:00

heyhey!so whats been going on in the blogging world?well i wouldnt know since i barely update mine :p.now my monthlies are OVER!!!:D

i cant believe i actually passed my HISORY TEST!:O the ironic part was when i doing the paper i didnt even know most of the answers!thank god!thank god!
the only question i absolutely knew the answer to was the one where they asked bout the reasons why Malaysia couldnt defend themselves xD.hilarious!!!ahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
anywaysss so now tht im done with my monthlies,i gotta start on the red house deco RIGHT AWAY!:O so quick but we just gotta and this yr a certain someone isnt going to settle for 3rd of 4th place.and i really wanna win tht trophy :].ehehehehehehe

the school's cheerleading team is coming into place tho :).got our routines and stunts done so now all we need is our outfits and accesories which is a little hard given tht no many ppl are willing to pay a whole lot :/.but other than tht,we're really having some laughs at practice and its super fun la!!!i dont want it to end so quick!!!:(

sighhh.things between me and ... are a little confusing.it SUCKS!we're going bck and forth bck and forth.we talk bout life and then we stop talking.then we talk bout our feelings and now the only times we talk is when its important other than tht...NOTHING!ugh!!!getting sick of it.trying to get over him but sighhh

just tell me the truth before things end unsaid

Share Wit Me The Secrets That You Kept In

2011-01-20T16:51:00.002+08:00

hey :).i know i havent updated in 3 weeks?4?ahahaha anyways,i can rarely use the computer now cause im 15 and dealing with PMR.and also the fact tht my mom thinks i should study more even though the exam is to just determine which stream im taking -,- anywaysss i cant believe im turning 15!!!FIFTEEN!

*Taylor Swift's Fifteen starts playing in the bck of my mind*

ehehehehe.i know im a little late but...HAPPY 2011!:D
so the first week of school wasnt as great as i thought it'd be.second week's better and this week's the third week.and yesterday we already had to select our runners for red house.the school's already got us planning ahead for Sports Day and in my opinion its kinda quick.but what can we do?nothing.oh oh oh this yr i took on quite a number of responsibilities but im happy with it :).this yr im Red House's Assistant Captain :D.Table Tennis Club's Secretary and the Performing Arts representitive for form 3 :D.i hope red house wins this yr even though we still havent figured our mascot yet.at first we were starfish but then it was too lame and its too hard to create a cheer for starfish so we switched to swordfish but swordfish kinda tanked.and now we're still deciding but i hope we come up with something good soon cause everyone's started their cheer practice.anywaysss been going through some stuff recently.and the worst part is during break yesterday,i broke down when i started thinking bout it.owhmyfudge!when my friends saw they were like whats wrong whats wrong.after i wiped my tears,they aske me 'whats wrong?' i start to tear up all over again.

to all of you who cared...I LOVE YOU FOR CARING!:D

You Got Me All Broken Up In Second Chances

2010-12-22T17:42:00.003+08:00

sorry it took me awhile to update but im updating :).been pretty busy lately and yeah...last monday i went to renew my passport and i bumped into Ash :).had breakfast with her and we spent the entire day together cause she wanted to follow me go out with a friend :).tht friend was really really late!tht friend was supposed to come at 2 or 3 but instead he came at 8!but i cant blame hime entirely cause he was helping his mom for christmas.anyways then last weekend was really hectic cause i was serving for the christmas luncheon :D.i was supposed to go to church at 6 but i had no other transport than my brudder so i followed him and got there ard 1.30?he was supposed to b there at 1 sharp cause the chairs and tables were coming.but when we got there the chairs werent even there!so i met up with Jon and Daniel and they wanted lunch but they already said they'd eat anything and it was all up to me to make a decision -.- hate it when tht happens.then Daniel started making jokes bout how it would take me a lifetime to make up my mind on just where to eat.i gave him the death glare and of course he'd just smile at me and i'd laugh.my brudder said 'just pick anywhere la!'.so we ate at the pan mee shop and we just sat there ate and talk talk talk xD.Daniel showed me tht there's a Marshmallow & Spaghetti game :O.i sucked at it :p.after we left i just hung out with Jon cause the chairs came.and he showed me his 'model walk'.super hilarious i tell you!couldnt stop laughing xD.and we exchanged our right slippers and at some point i fake befriended him and he reminded him he had my slipper -.- he said 'if you dont wanna b my friend,you're not getting your slipper bck!'.but it was funny.good times good times xD.ahahahahaha anyways met up with Melanie,Miriam and Martin at One Stop.wait i just realised all their names' start with M xD.ahahahahaha.Phoebe was late xD.Phoebe asked me if i was doing anything after all this cleaning up i told her no.cleaned up in less than an hr and we had to wait for more chairs so they told us we could go for dinner.so i went to makan with Phoebe and Jon and when we came bck,the chairs still havent arrived -.-
so we went to One Stop again to meet up with Sereen and Michelle.Sereen insisted i try the tau fu fa eventhough i didnt want any but she ordered it anyway.but she paid for it la so yeah...then all 4 of us just started talkling bout relationships and i realised tht even tho they're yrs older than me,they really do have my bck :).tht night i found out tht Sereen didnt even talk to the ex after she heard bout what happened.but now its all ok :).everybody's talking to everybody :p.went bck upstairs to clean the chairs and then we were done so we came down and Phoebe and Sereen went bck d.so Michelle,Daniel,Jon and i sat on the stair and just talked.i got home at 12 :O.had to wake up at 6 and left the house ard 7.45?but my brudder was supposed to b there at 8 but we got there 20 mins later.so he was late again xD.Phoebe came late again xD.i guess she really didnt wanna go home cause she asked me if i was doing anything after we were done again.but sadly we didnt go out...when i got home i was so tired i actually slept frm 5-11 and for some reason i kept crying frm 1 to 5 :(.it was weird cause all a sudden i just kept thinking of someone i should think of...anyways i just need to clear things up before school starts cause need to concentrate on PMR PMR PMR so tht i can hopefully get good results and prove my mom wrong to the core!:)

feeling confused right now.people say i should give him another chance but he already screwed up the fist time.and now i think he's leading me on.i dont know.i think we should clear things up.

gonna stop typing now cause im lazy to type more.if i can,i'll blog from my ipod later :p.check out my tumblr tho.the typographies are there because i guess i can relate to them?there's more pictures on tumblr but the stories are here so...check it out kay?:p

It's A Beautiful Night And We're looking For Something Dumb To Do...

2010-12-05T21:52:00.002+08:00

hello again :).on Saturday i went out with Sarah and Erika for lunch :).we went to Happy Days and ate and ate and ate xD.we ate lots cant remember much tho xD.eheheheh it was so fun!took lotsa photos and i kinda camwhored a lil :p.but took a few pictures x).then today i found out something amazing!this is how i found out :D

*i walked towards my brother who was hanging ard other people(too many names to mention).Daniel was on the phone and then he saw me.after i stood behind my brother for less than 5 seconds and then Daniel came up to me*

Daniel: i didnt know you were serving
Me: no im not...
Daniel: yes you are!
Me: no.im not.
Daniel: yes.you are.
Me: no...
Daniel: yesss
Me: no la
Uncle Bosco: yeah you are

*at this point i was really really really confused.i thought they were playing a prank on me*

Me: i dont think so :S
Daniel: you are la
Jon: eyh you are seriving
Me: no...

*my brother turns ard*

My brother: yeah you're serving

*turns bck*

i was really confused but then Aunty Sheila said 'we put you're name in.if thts alright' and and i was like yeah sure its ok :D.and she asked if any of my friend would want to too.so i pulled sherrinder in too eheheheh :).Melanie already had plans cause she told me when someone asked her earlier.and now i get to serve :D.weee~ eventhough im 2 yrs earlier :p
weee~ ehehehe :).gonna go watch the new episode of Gossip Girl now :D

Let's Run Away To The Place Where Love First Found Us

2010-11-29T21:20:00.003+08:00

hellooo :).i know i've kinda neglected my blog but who reads this anyway?!anyway i didnt wanna be those people who neglects their blog and later get another blog -.-
even tho i have my tumblr,im still trying to update this one just as much :).if only there was an app for blogspot then things would b easier but tht's not happening so...):

gonna try to simplify things here,so things may get spacey :p.on monday of the last week of school,tht day...was one of the best days :).got too hug somebody :3.ehehehe.wednesday was a holiday and i FINALLY went out Laksh :).had so much fun with her alone in the afternoon.then Sashwiny.Sashwarnan,Khaielaash,Brandon and Naviin came along so we stayed till 10?yeah...on thursday was my last day and i dont remember much :p.

HOLIDAYS STARTED
my first official call on the holidays was from my dear momma Sarah :).and she called me at 10 in the morn.btw,i slept ard 3 the night before (like i do now).the phone conversation went:

*i spoke in a very very sleepy voice*

Sarah:Hello!
Me:hi...
Sarah:so cyn...
Me:yeah?
Sarah:wanna go sunway lagoon?:)
Me:when?today?
Sarah:no!another day :)
Me:you called me this early.just to ask me whether i wanna go to lagoon another day?
Sarah:YUP!
Me:ermmm ok.sure...
Sarah:so when you wanna go?
Me:can i call you later?
Sarah:sure :)
Me:kay...good...im gonna go to sleejhkflp

*puts down phone*

funny huh?okay mayb not :p.so my first week of holidays werent as exciting as i thought it'd be :p.didnt do anything on the weekdays but on saturday Sarah,Eva,Azu,Ash,Kyle,Gio and i went to lagoon :).Keith joined us wayyy late and he didnt go on any rides at all!thts kinda sad...he wasted 60 bucks!before it rained,we went to the wave pool.had so much fun i tell you!ash and i kept dancing to the tunes :D.then it started raining and we started dancing more xD.had sooo much fun!:D

yesterday i went to Shook for dinner and daymnnn the food was good :).

new found love-Sour Blue Raspberry Bonbons :3
refound love-Sticky :D

love love love em :).want them for christmas!if anyone bought me a jar of Sticky,i would love them!no joke!well im lazy to type more so yeah...

You Make It Real For Me ♥

2010-11-11T01:42:00.002+08:00

im under the covers right now,typing this.so many things have been happening recently and it's really difficult to type all bout it now in the a.m..anyways it was Laksh's birthday the day before yesterday and she absolutely love love loved my present and thank goodness to tht!ahahah anyways,you're probably wondering what i got her right?i got her a pair of red converse :).something tht she's been wanting for yes and now i got her a pair!ehehehe so happy for her.
ok enough bout tht.not so long ago(monday),i realised tht it's no use waiting for him to be in a relationship.i say this why?cause i've tht he's into someone else and mayb it's too late.i know im supposed to be heart broken and sad but no.i feel perfectly fine and it's weird.i guess im still waiting for him hoping one day he changes his mind and realises tht i've been waiting for him all this while.he's been there for me when i was going through all the bullshit bout my past and he knows me.he's has always been there for me and honestly as much as I wanna b in a relationship with him,i don't.as long as he's there to make me feel better when im down then im happy.im missing him now.but he's bck and i hope he's going to school cause somehow,i feel like giving him a hug.it's a weird feeling but i want him to know tht im here if he needs me.
dramatic stuff,done!yesterday was really fun!Eva came to vsit us and we had such a blast!took lotsa pictures.i'll post em one day :).Sarah,Azu and i took videos in the hall when there were teachers all ard but they didn't notice xD.had fun la!hope he comes later.it would b nice to just talk to him again :).anyways it's two in the morning now and I gotta wake up at six so I better stop :p

OH OH OH Sarah and I are going to do a musical next yr.or at least try :).and and and we're gonna do some cheerleading reasons because we want our secondary life to b fun not just study all the time!so I think next yr we're gonna have lotsa fun.we're gonna plot it,write the scripts and all those things.im so excited we're even writing out the storyline tomorrow!*screams* fingers crossed :D

okay okay im going off now!
nighty nights!
wait no morningy morning
ahahah tht was lame

The One Ride I Don't Want To Be On

2010-11-04T00:31:00.000+08:00

friday was emotional and kinda pathetic but yeah...made ash mad and i really didnt wanna have tht sort of drama at the end of the schooling yr :|.and as i was crying,i looked up for awhile trying to think of what to write in someone else's yrbook when suddenly he walks by and a tear drops.i think he saw me which made me curious.did he see me?did he wonder why i was so sad?did he want to know?did he care?
then later tht day i saw something tht made me upset and the entire night i couldnt stop thinking bout him :|.he wrote in my yrbook :).but the thing is...there was to spots one in purple ink and the one in the bottom is blue.two very alike signatures and i still dont know...ahhh nevermind i guess i'll have to ask him :S.gonna make this real short so yeah

The Things Of The Past

2010-10-28T23:15:00.002+08:00

so had a pretty good week,i guess.got bck my results by wednesday?pretty much kinda got what i expected so thts good right?practically passed everything except for history and mandarin?anyways i completely crapped tht so yeah :p.ahahaha
got our year books on yesterday?i think it was yesterday :p.anyways dont have many ppl writing on mine but still its nice to know i have friends :).i sound so pathetic,i know :|.heck i am pathetic!
i think Daniel Tan Boon Leong likes poking me :p.he keeps poking me :O.am i tht pokable?unfortunately yes :p.people like poking me.mayb cause im fluffy-ly flabby D: sometimes i like people poking me.its a weird tickly giggly feeling.makes me laugh and sometimes it just brightens up my day.but i prefer hugs :)
anyways gotta write on sombody's yr book but somehow im having a problem with writing anything down :|.this afternoon when he asked,he kinda shouted it out loud and i was with Sarah and Laksh.of course i said yes and when he walked up the stairs,the both of them started their ooh's and 'CYN!!!'s xD.Laksh even said 'i bet when you go home,you'll scream like mad.full of joy.ahahaha' but the sad thing was,i didnt have the time to write in it cause i had to do some banner for the general use of the school or something.anyways,he told me to continue after school since we had some time and i thought sitting on the floor,in the middle of the arch would mayb help but...unfortunately no :|.so i had to take it home and i've been thinking for hours!couldnt come up with anything.even when Adik and Momma talking bout stuff with me,i still wasnt focused...i was thinking bout what to write.and i wanna write something amazing tht could put a smile on his face everytime he reads it.i want to make an impression,to have him reading it over and over again but i dont think tht could happen so i think i'll just make it as sweet and long (he told me to make it long :]) as i possibly can.as long as it comes frm the heart right?yeahhh...i think i'll right frm the heart even if he thinks otherwise.at least im writing frm the heart :)

It Gets Harder Everyday But I cant Seem To Shake The Pain

2010-10-24T22:49:00.002+08:00

so this entire week has definitely been a roller coaster ride.the entire week was mixed with...my finals to ppl's birthday and something else.monday started out...okay i guess :|.then tuesday came i felt like a nuclear bomb had landed on me!thts how terrible i felt because exactly a yr frm tuesday something happened tht made me so remorseful.last yr when i heard the news,it took me 10 mins to register it in my mind.and after those 10 mins,i only had on memory in my head.i was so blessed.tht night really brought me to tearseven worse then the time i cried during sports day when i so close to getting third place :/.anyways only at midnight did i realise tht someone turned 21 on tht very day!

Happy Birthday Daniel!thanks for mocking me today xD.btw,you did not,i repeat,DID NOT see anything!ahahaha

wednesday was okay nothing much to say.exams tht day wasnt much.then thursday came and it was math and history :O.completely screwed my history and math i tried my hardest i even memorised the formula without writing it on my arm!ahaha sorry perasan momment xD.after history was over,everyone was clapping and going 'WOOHOO!' xD.adrenaline rush!and on friday was mr.Kylie Hon's birthday!bought him a cake :).see i can b a good friend!

p.s. if i ever said tht in front of Laksh,she'd b all 'I nvr even said you were one!'.ahahaah

saturday i went to pyramid :).so good to finally go out again!and i bumped into the birthday girl TRISHA TEH HUI YEN!she's so adorable ;).too bad she couldnt see this xD.anyways finally got to use the lappie and i checked my pokes on facebook just now and i got a poke frm Daniel Tan Boon Leong!did i even add him?dont remember tht.oh Daniel Tan is the same Daniel Tan frm last yr tht always commented on my age at Sue's 19th Birthday party.

owh yeah!celebrated Sue's birthday the day before my finals started did the usual and Sakinah brought Fateh this time.she told me he begged her to let him tag along.i avoided contact the entire time.was damn awkward la,not tht i had something going on with him but Sakinah said he has a crush on me :|.not trying to b perasan here.all i did was say hi to to him and tht was LAST YR AT HER PARTY :O.saw Daniel Tan again he's not gonna call me 'little girl' anymore :).he said i've changed a lot :p.is tht true?

you know its so damn annoying when someone starts a conversation with you and you chat for awhile then all of a sudden,they just stopped replying you.annoys the crap out of me!he did tht to me recently and now i dont even know what to think.im afraid i might start to annoy him or something i just hate this feeling >(

Popping Bottles In The Ice Like A Blizzard

2010-10-09T19:38:00.002+08:00

[Toodles is searching for something on the floor]
Toodles: Lost, lost, lost.
Peter Banning: Lost what?
Toodles: I've lost my marbles.

-The movie Hook(1991)

ahahah.needed a laugh for my post xD.ahaha.so this week was pretty normal except for the occasional laughs :D.ahahah we had a science quiz on Thursday since had two periods so we were given 15mins to study and prepare questions from chapter 1 to chapter 4.we split into 2 groups la.owhmygosh it was hilarious!there was one point when the opposing group was asking a question and mid-way teacher interrupted us and said "Khang Chee,why is your hand in your pants?!".how emberassing is tht man!the entire class laughed their asses off I tell you!and he was sitting right behind me like what the fer shizzznits right?
another situation was when it was the opposing team's turn to ask the question so Kye Shuen stood up to ask."Name the 7 classes of food...Carbohydrates,Fib..." "EYH YOU TELLING THE ANSWERS LA!WHAT THE HELL?!"
owhmygosh it was hilarious!!!!ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah.funnyshit!his face was priceless!
owh yeah early this week a friend of mine told me something really disgusting!it had something to do with another guy in form 2 and it's really...eww!
let's change topic shall we?so i have my finals in a week and i haven't studied a single crap!im so doomed but don't wanna b retained next yr so i really gotta study!bm's a goner and so is sejarah.i might have a chance with geography and science tho but math is becoming a problem.i seriously need some tutoring.but i ain't going to tuition.we all know how tht worked out!i bailed after two months :p.i heard ace tuition is good like they actually have fun while studying but i don't know...and if i do move on to form 3 (god i hope I do) i don't wanna be in beta or gamma or delta.i wanna b in alpha cause i really wanna study and to b able to concentrate!!!

malas to type more
wish me luck!:)

It's Something Unpredictable But In The End Is Right ♥

2010-10-03T00:28:00.002+08:00

That song starts playing on my iPod
I close my eyes and it reminds me of you
I don't hear Greenday
I hear you
I remember the way you sang it to me the other night
It makes me wonder if that was real or if I was just part of another joke

2010-10-02T02:17:00.002+08:00

i never really said anything bout this but thanks for walking me bck to class :).

so today it rained in the afternoon.but Ash,Kyle,Carl Son and i insisted on going to AnW so we walked in the rain :).weee~had so much fun in the rain.eheheh

short short post :p

My World's Hanging By Three Words That I Cant Bare To Say

2010-09-30T00:38:00.006+08:00

Clearly you guys like each other!Its so obvious la!

-Laksh

Why you guys so mysterious-mysterious?Cant you guys just tell each other and get over all this mystery?You see me and *bleep*.I told him that i liked him and he was like 'Owhmygosh!Really?!I like you too!.Thats why you should tell him!Just GO and tell him

-Azu

Eyh,when you and *bleep* wanna get together?so cute together ady.I wish i could shout at him to be with you

-Sarah

Yesterday(Monday) i takut *bleep* will come and marah me.Cause i takut he'll come and say 'Why you lend Cynthia your jacket?'.Go borrow jacket from him or else when you guys wanna be together?!

-Jimmie

those are the few.owh yeah Jude shouted 'your boyfriend's here!' the other day -.-
i dont know what to say anymore.Azu even tied a piece of dried up wet tissue paper ard my wrist making me promise tht i cant take it off until something happens between us?like going out...
crazy huh?

An Okay-Happy-Only-Because-Of-You Day

2010-09-28T22:46:00.002+08:00

so this morning i went bck to school as obvious as it may seem.i go to school all the time :(.anywaysss i felt tired but i couldnt sleep at all this morn but i felt really worn out for no apparent reason :|.then when i got to class,i laughed so hard for no apparent reason and then Laksh said something but i thought otherwise.it was just hilarious xD.too open to say it here xD.then after the second period i was gonna try to sleep or at least get my eyes some rest but i failed.MISERABLY.especially when after closing my eyes for 5 seconds and i start bursting out with laughter.like what the fudge right?it was so random and Laksh gave me the 'what the hell is wrong with you' look.anyways i finally got some shut eye and after i woke up i wasnt exactly tht crazy me anymore.went down for PE and did ordinary PE sitting on the bench stuff.normal stuff happened and then during BM period i was talking to Kyle and we were sharing stuff.so i was kinda behind my ringkasan so i finished it a lil later,made my way to the teacher staffroom to pass it up and when i was walking bck...i saw him and we had a short conversation but still...it made me happy.i was kinda bummed out cause i heard some stuff but he made me happy and yeahhh :).ehehe.he just kinda made my day :).
gotta go now
so im signing off with this thought
me and you in the hallway ♥

Iman's Birthday and Sarah's Open House Photos :)

2010-09-27T13:04:00.006+08:00

so here are some pictures we took at Iman's birthday party!

.cynthia.illyana.sarah.

we're making fishy faces :)

illy and i

whoa our eyes :D

ahahaha.iman's so cute :)

me and illy being silly :).hey tht rhymes.ehehehe

and these are just a few of the pictures we took at Sarah's open house :).i dont have the pictures i took with sarah but hey i'll get them soon :).i shall upload em when i get em ;)

Laksh and me :).owhmygosh loving this photo

azu and me~felt like going a lil crazy at tht point since everyone's just going to smile for every photo ;p

amanda,laksh and me :)

awww look at our lil family :).weee~

so this is pretty much all i've got.when i get more then i'll post it up aite?aite.so today's a special school holiday for us Sedayans :).reasons because our CEO's father passed away and the teachers are forced to go all the way to Negeri Sembilan just to go for the funeral,which i think is a lil extreme since we didnt even know him in the first place.so if there were no teachers then not school :).im sorry Mr.Peter Ng,im deeply sorry tht your father is moving on into the afterlife but in my defense this might just b the stupidest reason to cancel school.but thanks anyways for giving us a break :)

Open And Unexpected

2010-09-26T23:31:00.003+08:00

so i went to Sarah's place yesterday :).at first when we got there we were in her room then we had to go down where the party's at xD.couldnt go in the house at all :(.it was fudging hot!her Seafield friend kinda boycotted us probably cause they were comfortable with their gang as we were with ours :|.couldnt wait to go inside!owhmygosh owhmygosh owhmysosh!i got to see my dear Eva again :D.missed her so much la but unfortunately she couldnt stay for long :'(.but thts okay cause im hoping to see her soon :).we went into the house at ard 3?yeahhh and thennn her Seafield friends got jealous xD.ahahaha they got jealous of us :D.so we went out of the house just to wait for them to go inside then only can we go inside -.-
seriously?yeah tht happened...anywaysss we went inside and took one side of the living room while they hung out on the other end :/.me and sarah took so many vids and a few pics :).it was so fun just the two of us crapping bout kyle bullying her xD.then while everyone else was in their own coversations with each other,sarah and i had some personal talk,ya know.it was niceee ;p.after their ignorance ended we finally went upstairs and went crazyyy!i kinda camwhored a lil with her Mac :p.it was fun la!i had to leave early tho :(.its kinda sad really.i wanted to spend more time la but had to go for my aunt's birthday party eventho it wasnt much.ate,wathced some old Cantonese show bout how Chow Yun Fatt had 2 wives and it got confusing,used the wifi and went home by 11 -.-
if i knew it was gonna b boring then i would've asked my mom if i could stay longer but being a good niece(even tho i dont really like since she always criticizes me bout travelling) i still went.so today wasnt much...oh oh oh on saturday morn at 1-ish?yeah someone wrote on my facebook wall and he liked it.Heee :).mayb its cause of what it said :p.i dont know i was just kinda shocked tht the person wrote it :| despite the fact tht tht person knows.or at least i think he does :S.it was so randommm :p.i was kinda hoping he'd comment on it tho ;p.SO i recently i changed my tumblr layout and its new :).havent updated in awhile tho but a few pictures would do me some good.plusss NEW LAYOUT!:D kinda excited bout it sorryyy.
havent used a certain term in awhile

TEEHEE :)

Tell Me When It's Time To Say I Love You

2010-09-22T21:58:00.002+08:00

i blast the volume on my ipod because i want to drown the voices of the world tht made me upset,depressed,sad,disappointed,angry.i wanted to drown my sorrows.i just wanted to live my own little world where i just dance in my mind not giving a fudge about what everyone thinks.

today i wore my hoodie,put on my earphones,blasted the volume on my ipod and closed my eyes.then i get flash memories that i've shared with you and start missing those days.then i cry.but i had to move,i had to walk along the hall and pass by your class.i had to give money to Joel for some compulsary crap.Joel had to ask why i i looked the way i did.i couldnt bare to answer him.i couldnt bare to remind myself why i cried.

you can make me so happy by just smiling at me but this uncertainty is driving me insane.i see you looking at me and boy does it make my heart melt.it makes me so happy but it couldnt last long.not long enough to overcome this uncertainty

Ice-cream at a Waterfall~

2010-09-18T23:03:00.003+08:00

so today a bunch of us went to Templer Park and owhmygosh it was so fun therefore i shall tell as much as i possibly can cause i'd like to refresh my memory when there comes a time where i feel the need to read all of my posts :)

situation on thursday.
-Chia Yee's facebook status:i wish i had a bucket of never ending ice-cream :)
Cynthia Teng:me!me!me!ME!!!i want mint chocolate chip too!!!!!!!
Nugget Voon Guan Zhong:I help you make that wish come true but must finish it immediately one wor..
Cynthia Teng bring on saturday!:D
Nugget Voon Guan Zhong What ice cream you wan o?
Cynthia Teng mint chocolate chip :)
Nugget Voon Guan Zhong Try and find larh..
Cynthia Teng if cannot then buy chocolate la xD
Nugget Voon Guan Zhong I got tons of the mint chocolate chip... In UK.. HAHAH.. Okay larh.. Chocolate arh..

Saturdayyy :)
-Morning-
i went to vincent's car,said hi and he said 'he *points to Guan Zhong* brought your ice-cream...' i asked if he was serious and Guan Zhong showed me the 2 boxes ;p.one chocolate and the other peppermint :).i thought i was the last one but see see PeiJing was the last one xD.i followed PeiJing to Templer's in Jet's car and i was super quiet i tell you!i was playing a little on my iPod while texting Keneedy even tho he was just in the other car xD.i only started talking when Jet became some smart ass,overtook Vincent who is the only one who knows the way and got lost -.-
lucky for him i knew my way ard KL a bit ;p.cyehhh perasan bit ;).ahahahah.anywaysss when we finally got to Dataran Merdeka he finally knew how to go -.-
got there ard...9?i think so we went jungle tracking and boy oh boy were there leeches!the first half we walked on the road to the swimming pool and found a snake swimming in the pool?there were also fishes there cause it was from the stream?i have to get to the point la.always get side tracked :p.owkayyy so our goal was to get to the waterfall so we had to start walking on pathways and squeeze through plants trying to be cautious of leeches and trying not to fall.it was and hr and a half of doing so and in the end i had four,i repeat FOUR!,leeches tht stuck on me :O.i freaked out so badly because of the specific reasons below:
-they were very VERY ticklish
-i somehow had the feeling to scratch em :X
-they looked utterly disgusting growing fatter and fatter *shudders*
-i had to wait for ten frigging minutes!
at first i was between ZhiMing and Vincent so just in case i stuble Vincent can catc h me frm behind.PeiJing was with Jet and Keneedy was leading :p.Keneedy struggled with some plant so Vincent went ahead so Joel was behind me shouting 'Cyn!!!LEECH!' and being the paranoid me,i went all 'what?what!where?!' and he goes 'JUST KIDDING!' and he starts laughing.i stopped to turn ard and he goes 'hang la!' -.-
when we finally got to the waterfall,i took of my pants(i was already wearing shorts inside) and i found a leech on my knee,one above my heel,one on my shin and mysterious bleeding on my ankle.they said it dropped off d so its ok.
learnt how to sharpen the parang and how to wash it.did so many things tht i can barely recall due to the days passing by :p.i know tht Vincent,Joel and Keneedy picked me up and threw me into the water -.-
thanks a lot guys.now my beehind hurts :(.damn hard to dive into my bed now *sighhh*.after tht,we took the ice-cream tht Guan Zhong brought and started eating it in the water.someone,i dont know who,started dumping the chocolate ice-cream on Guan Zhong's head then Joel dumped some of it on me.then i started dumping some on him and everyone started wiping ice-cream on everyone :).after Joel dumped the ice-cream on me,i opened my eyes and i had chocolate ice-cream + saliva splattered all over my face because Joel had ice-cream in his mouth and started laughing at me when he saw my face full of ice-cream -.-
owhmygosh it was DISGUSTING!
anywaysss...dont wanna say too much or your brain capasity would b filled :p

I got Malaysia!!!Marvelous Marvelous xD

2010-09-16T04:10:00.003+08:00

it's 3 in the morn and im fudging awake!dammit!i was so tired yesterday cause i slept at 5 and woke up at 7.went to Laksh's house for the entire day :).we were supposed to study but it tanked ;p.let's see what did we do...?
hmmm *think think think*
owhhh yeahhh
the first thing we did when i got there was TALK!missed her so badly :).she talked about her story first then we went to makan breakfast.ehehe.after tht we went upstairs and i told her my story.curious little fella xD.then i slept for an hr while she played with my iPod.woke up slept for another hr,looked at the time,told her to sleep as well cause she said she was tired but she didn't wanna sleep so i went bck to sleep :).i know i know im a pig :).slept for 3 hrs and Laksh was...i don't know what she was doing!she was probably taking pictures of me sleeping hoping to get some black mail ;p.ahahahaha.good thing she stops reading my blog :D.anywaysss had chicken rice for lunch and rohan's asked us why we were so quiet.couldn't tell him why.I wanted to laugh so badly xD.ahahahahahahahahahahaha.too bad Rohan!i saw it >p.there's no way you can turn time!ahahahahahahahahahahaha.sorry inside joke :p.while eating,we watched the first half of the ManU vs Rangers game and Rohan got so bored watching so he left.me and Laksh got addicted to the muruku and we kept eating!honestly i think we at least finished half the conatiner :O.then went upstairs and talked crap!she took a video of me calling her a douche and she kept putting her feet to my face :'(.as i wanna smell her feet!pffft!ahahaha sorry monkey :).went swimming and it was just the two of us there.awesome much?!had so much fun at her place la :).haven't been to her house in awhile *sigh*
my brother cooked spaghetti for dinner.halfway eating the spaghetti,he said tht the meal was mid-western mixed with malay cooking mixed with chinese cooking.i asked him what was the chinese part and he said his sweat!eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.i literally spat out my food and he laughed so hard he almost choked :(.but then he said'no la!I was just kidding!it's wine la'
so mean right?I almost puked!damn disgusting la!
now its 5 *sighhhh*.damn emo now!i wanna scream!Sue is coming to my house later :).thts something tht will keep my smiling for awhile.mayb going to sunway with Ash as well.owh yeah!sorry azu.Laksh was my ride there and you enjoyed yourself with ice-cream watching piranha so good enough right?ahahah.gonna update my tumblr awhile.owh!i have tumblr as well but it's not much and and and I can change my tumblr site anytime :).
wanna see my tumblr?then go to tumblemecyn.tumblr.com
if i ever change you're the first to find out xD
still damn emo la.ishhh!

do you hurt the way that i do after all this time?
you left me broken

My tears were for you

2010-09-13T12:32:00.000+08:00

the world is crashing down on me.
i was an accident,i know that
everything is my fault
i don't mean a thing to any of you
i don't care anymore
if i fail,nobody would care
i don't know what to think anymore
father left so i expect you would too
who would want to be around me
someone so cold,so emotionless
someone who stopped giving a damn
someone unwanted in this world.

this was a draft frm last night.i was crying my eyes out.why?because of so many things.damn what's wrong with me?

A scene

2010-09-12T23:58:00.003+08:00

so my weekend went pretty well :|.woke up on saturday at 10 after sleeping at 4 :(.got to sunway ard 10 something and waited for Kyle and Ash at starbucks till 11.30?there was an old man who took the chair next to mine cause there was no other seats ard his old lady gang.i didnt know what else to do so i used the wifi to kill boredom.then the old dude started massaging his feet!i was kinda creeped out and wanted to move but there were no other seats :(.anywaysss luckily Ash came after 10 mins and then Kyle :).we went to Burger King for lunch :).i kinda regretted buying the mozarella cheese tho.every time i pull it still wouldnt tear.Ash and Kyle laughed...a-ha-ha-ha.not funny!after tht we went archery and 5-10 of my arrows kept bouncing bck o.o
damn funny la.one of the workers there kept joking ard by taking my chips and Ash's Ribena xD.was so damn funny la.after we finished our arrows Ash wanted her snowy -.- so we went to get snowy :p.after tht we played air hockey and and and we set the new highscore for tht basketball game thing xD.all 3 of us played together and we were trying to score at the same time.some even bounced off xD.it was so fun!we didnt wanna waste our cash there anymore so we went to the arcade :).it was the first time i raced virtually in an arcade!seriously o.o
after tht we just lepak-ed in Starbucks until we went home :).i wonder what Kyle did when i had to go...he got estatic when he heard my mom was gonna come 30 mins later than she said she would.ahahaha funny boy!

came home.rested a bit.when i say rested i mean went online and watched tv :).i WAS supposed to go to James' place straight but then my mom wanted to take a detour and go to sungai buloh first -.-'
ate very little and fell asleep while watching iron man 2.yes i was tht tired...

didnt do much today.i dont know why but lately i've been feeling so messed up.like the world's hating on me and nothing i could say would change their minds.im so messed up to the point where the other day i didnt know what i was thinking and i dropped a glass plate.just like how im feeling,i fell and shattered into pieces.

i just want happiness for an entire day.could you do that for me?

Mood Swings

2010-09-12T01:27:00.002+08:00

i was talking to someone like half an hour ago.one minute he's nice to me but the next minute he's giving me this vibe like he's got a problem with me.im thinking to myself 'mayb im not the only one with mood swings'.he said tht it's cute tht I cried for almost getting my phone confiscated,which really happened(don't laugh!).i replied 'it is?' and he says 'ya la ya la VERY'.either he got vexed or tht was sarcasm.and i don't think it was sarcasm!i didn't exactly know what to say after tht.i like him but i don't really know what's going on :/.jeez!i don't know how he feels about me dammit!good thing he doesnt read my blog.in this case i wish he knew what i was thinking.i wish he knew how i felt about him *sighhh*.anywaysss confusion ASIDE!would love to blog bout my weekend but it's already past one and im supposed to wake up early :(

could you just let me know how you feel about me so i wouldn't have to go through this confusion?

Life's turning it's back on me

2010-09-11T02:02:00.002+08:00

*sighhh* why in the world is life hating me?seriously!*sighhh*
plans for tomorrow?I mean later...
i WAS supposed to hang with SOME PPL but it was canceled last minute :(.I was looking forward to it.even last time i couldn't go but now when I can go it got canceled :(.life's probably laughing at my misery now dammit!
*sighhh* I knew something like this would happen!I just knew it would.I kinda had tht vibe the entire night.but there's a bright side to this :).Kyle,Ash and I were already planning to go out later so yeah :).at least I get to go out.the original plan was to hang with those ppl then hang with Ash and Kyle but since those ppl canceled :(,i'll just have more time to hang withAsh and Kyle :).after tht farewell dinner at James' house for Mei and Dave :).gonna miss them loads!!!nevermind i'll just go visit them after PMR or something :).and i'll bring Eleen with me :D.ehehehe

anyways since my plans were ruined yesterday and a tad ruined todayyy,I shall try to sleep it off without tearing.it's only cause im THT fragile now.if YOU'RE reading this then THANKS FOR CANCELING ON ME
sorry im just really really emotional this week till Wednesday I hope.dammit!i don't fudging know what to fudging feel right now

What would i have done without you?

2010-09-09T00:39:00.002+08:00

so recently i've been feeling crappy.like really crappy due to some issues.someone noticed and made me feel better :).

thank you :).what you said made me smile.the way you cared for me made me smile.and mayb i havent expressed enough but you asked me through msn and quite frankly if i was right in front of you,my face would've probably light up the momment you ask me.thank you very much :).you know who you are ;)

tht person doesnt even read my blog!why in the world am i saying this?mayb its cause tht was the first time anyone made me smile today besides tv and other conversations with other ppl but i never told anyone bout it so yeahhh.anywaysss today i had this good girl attitude to me and actually finished my homework :).im very proud of myself because usually i leave all this to the last night.i tweeted bout it and Laksh's reply was what is wrong with you xD.oh oh oh!i bought 4 apps today :).weee~
been wanting to buy apps for quite some time!finally!!!joyyy :).well i got pretty much nothing to say cause i havent been productive at all!was planning to go out today but it was only going to be kyle,sathya and me.it was last minute so we decided on another day when more ppl could go.honestly i dont mind being the only girl.its so normal of me :).after all,i am the only girl in the family and the youngest so im used to it.i realised my mom's side of the family is mostly men.when i say men i mean men.my cousins are almost past their mid 20s seriously.
WHOA!Nickson looks like Keneedy and Joel combined!damnnn thts really something i've nvr noticed...its really weird!!!

i've got nothing else to say...

i love dreaming about you :)

2010-09-07T00:14:00.002+08:00

i know you doubted me feeling the same way you did
but boy you can't be anymore wrong.
i don't need to be in a relationship
all i need is to tell you how I feel about you
but i wouldn't want to change a thing
i wouldn't want to change what we have
we're already starting to have a normal conversation
believe me this little normal conversations ,
are already making me happy compared to just waving and smiling
you don't know how happy you make me
just talking to you makes me happy
can't you see how hard i try to hold back my smile
especially when i'm around you
so that you wouldn't think i'm a psycho smiling for no apparent reason
but i can't exactly tell you that i'm smiling just because you're talking to me
can i?
i don't want us to stop talking again
because i know that things would change if i told you.
i want our friendship to grow
it doesn't have to grow into a relationship
i just hope we could be as close as we were last year
you don't know how just thinking about you can make me smile :)

i cant get you off my mind

2010-09-06T22:25:00.002+08:00

have i mentioned how much i enjoyed my friday?or my weekend?well if i havent then i really like my weekend :).no fights,no arguements,no quarreling.it was nice...not one day,was i not thinking bout him :).seriously this might stick for a while :X.anywaysss pancakes :).yummyyy :D.wanna come over and have some?yeah im talking bout you!so do ya?im gonna make a few soon :).with chocolate chips!last night i shared some with my bro :).we only ate em with peanut butter,kaya and pure honey :).sadly there wasnt any chocolate syrup or else it might have tasted better :/.damnnn i cant stop thinking bout you.not tht its a bad thing but i have no idea how you feel about me.damnnn this feeling is kinda crappy...none the less,im quite happy :)

you turned something so utterly boring to something tht would b remembered :)

2010-09-03T16:30:00.003+08:00

i thought tht today would be really boring especially after school since Azu didnt come :p.anywaysss a whole lot of ppl didnt come today and most teachers werent in the mood to teach so i had 5 free periods :).as for math,mrs joan helped us with wednesday's homework(which i did last minute but still got it correct ;]).so NO HOMEWORK FOR THE HOLIDAYSSS!!!WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!happy happy happy me :D.ehehehe
after school was really interesting...i was kinda happy bout it :).okay fine...i am really happy bout it :D.i cant stop smiling owhmyfreakinggosh!!!!*screams* too happy to the point where i cant sleep anymore :O.i was so sleepy but somehow i couldnt sleep in class...i should probably try to get some sleep for tonight.as for tonight,no plans for supper.so i should b home early i guess

mayb i'll post something later.
who knows
happy me signing off :D

2010-09-03T00:08:00.003+08:00

in scouts camp,Joel told me one part of his scout test.it was damn funny and I cant believe he actually said it xD.ahahahahaha.they asked him some question he didn't know and he said too loudly 'chao ci bai' xD.ahahaha then they replied him 'we're speaking English now'.ahahahahahahaha I laughed so hard when I heard it.this suddenly came to me and I thought it was it was funny as obvious as it may seem xD.owhmygosh ahahahahahahaha damn funny la just can't get it out of my mind xD.ahahahahahahaha

Scouts Camp :)

2010-08-29T17:02:00.006+08:00

it was so damn fun!
the first night was the first time i cut a full chicken to bits :D
so our patrol cooked ABC soup :).it tasted better than i expected!of course i had help...thank you Shu Ying for helping me witht the cleaning and the cooking!iloveyou :).and thanks to Kamal for handling the fire and also for cooking with me :).you awesome and you know it!!!and last but not least thanks to Khang Hwui and Kheng Han for eating the food :).good thing they didnt get tummy aches or food poisoning :D.anywaysss,after tht vincent asked me to stick mahjong paper on the windows to give the girls some privacy :).i was sticking one up then i sat on a chair tht was on the table and somehow i kinda fell...backwards...yeahhh.i hurt my right ankle,thigh,waist and elbow :X.cut my thigh and both my calves hut along with right arm.there's a bruise ard my thigh :O.little troublesome but anywayss.after tht we had to go for a tenderfoot manual crash course.it was really really boring -.-
after tht had maggi cup and milo for supper.couldnt sleep till 3 :(.but before tht Nicole,Illy,Ash and i were giggling too much just because we were squeezing into the corner xD.and it was really really cold in the classrooms!!!
day two.woke up at 5 to wake Illy for sahur.then went bck to sleep and woke up again to find Ash missing.wanted to text her but i found it pointless cause i could have the sleeping bag all to myself :p.anyways,woke up and found out Ash was outside all along playing cho tai ti xD.the day woke up with some exercise and then...i kinda forgot :P.i knw we played with water for bout...5 minutes?then it rained heavily so they called us bck and while we were showering,our seniors played imaginary football in the rain :O.after we finshed showering then only it stopped raining -.-
after tht... we had free time till 6.so thts bout 2hrs of free time?yeah.anyways me and Ash was combining groups to perform so they were practising la.i didnt know what else to do cause it was kinda boring so i went into the projecter room and hang out with Joel,Keneedy,Pei Jing,Li Yen,Jet and Vincent.i found out Vincent was playing Starcraft on the laptop -.-'
after tht i had to go look for Kheng Han's temporaily missing Swiss army knife.i was talking to Joel halfway so he also came down with me.had and interesting talk with him :).ahahah damn funny la.after free time was ovr,we had a grand dinner and each patrol cooked a dish which was really good.all of it :).then while everyone was waiting to finally eat,i already cleaned my spot so i didnt have to do much after dinner :).didnt really have much to do when everyone else was cleaning so i hung out with the seniors and a few of the juniors :).Li Yen made jokes bout the sausages xD.need i say more?ahahahaha.then we had to play games?i dont remember what we played tho :X.all i remeber is Keneedy and Li Yen had to do a duet but then end up Joel and Li Yen singing then Keneedy and Li Yen again xD.after tht someone said something.and all a sudden Keneedy had to give Li Yen a piggy bck ride xD.damnnn funnyyy la.ahahahahahhahhahahahah.it was already 10 :O.after all the games we were given 20 mins to study the tenderfoot manual(which we were supposed to study weeks before :X).it took Vincent,Jet and Gilbert a long time to interview all the form 1s and the form 2s.Ash,Trish,Tash and i were the last form 2s to be interviewed and owhmygosh it was the atmosphere was seriously creepyyy.the lights off and flashlights shun at you so they can see you but you can see them.and they were dead serious.i wanted to laugh but i was afraid to o.o
and and and i was shaking really badly frm head to toe and Jet was teasing me bout it :(.afte my test i warned Pei Jing,Li Yen,Joel and Keneedy what they're gonna ask and how serious they creepily were :O.they were like 'nahhh i dont care la'.after their test,Pei Jing was really terrified,Li Yen wasnt as terrified as i thought...she was sleepy xD.so cute :).and joel who was like 'i dont care la' went all 'SHIT!damn hard wei!stupid go aske me questions tht arent even on the book!' and keneedy was 'everything i say i dunno,i dunno,i dunno'.i think i trembled too hard to the point where i cant sleep anymore :|.so i stayed up helping Ash and everyone else who failed study :).most of the morning was spent in 4B :).damn cold la!!!so i shared comforter with Joel-.-
cause he doesnt have one >p.then halfway talking i saw something i shouldnt have :O.shhh!secret :)
i told Joel and he said he was used to it?weird...then all of us went downstairs to play NightGut :).interesting game...after tht we got hungry so SUPPER TIME!!!ate HarMee,never tried it before but it wasnt tht bad...then dunno who go cook MiSedap.didnt wanna eat anymore :p.we got tired so we cleaned up and went upstairs :).i was ALMOST fast asleep in the classroom but Vincent had to prevent me frm sleeping and ask not to go outside and sleep :(.i was so lazyyy to move my arse!!!so i slept outside with Ash and Nicole got kicked out too so she slept next to me :).cutie pie la :)
woke up on saturday and instanly felt chilly like the winter time in Europe as soon as someone ripped the blanket frm me :(.could barely walk la!couldnt even make my way to the toilet to brush my teeth without it taking 1 minute for every step!woke up with some morning exercise...i could see Nicole,Joel and Keneedy struggling with the exercise as did i. after tht,had free time till 10.played with water :).then the other scouts went for a talk or something while Ash,Nicole,Lynn,Joel,Keneedy and i were cleaning up then we just lepak :).after things ended,Li Yen,Joel,Keneedy and i played cho tai ti and black jack with a dice damn funny la xD.i wanna play again!!!me wanna play me wanna play!!! after tht,followed ash home and my mom picked me up frm there and we went to my cousin's barbeque :).tht person didnt follow me cause plans changed...anyways dont care bout tht person la!anyways...there' so many things to blog bout but heck im too lazyyy

anyways im just gonna stop
dont b emo kay?be happy and make a good decision or else things will go down hill.so take your time kay babe?iloveyou sister :)
nights~

Change of Plans

2010-08-25T23:28:00.002+08:00

im not staying ovr at Ash's house cause she had to go out.i think :p.anywaysss im gonna b dropped of at her house in the morn then we're gonna go to pyramid :).since we've been pyramid-less,we decide to go tomorrow and buy whatever essential we need for the camp :).let's hope we get to get some froyos tomorrow ;).I haven't been to pyramid in...a month?whoa tht is long...anyways I should b packing my bag now but...I dunno.im feeling awfully lazy these days especially after school :X.it's 11 now and im still laying on the couch :O.need to pack!!!but later la xD.watching family guy now.Olivia and Stewie are such an adorable 6-yr old-ish couple :).better go now or I'd probably pack last minute.wouldn't want tht happening :O.

im not gonna b able to blog,log onto facebook,tweet or anything tht involves the Internet :'(.at least I got my phone :D.so if you're reading this,yeah you ;),text me or call me :).I need to socialise :D.will probably get really bored do feel free to talk to me aite?ahahahah
nights :)

Blanko~

2010-08-23T23:30:00.003+08:00

so...

there's nothing much to say really

*sigh*

im just wasting space here arent i?

well then i guess i should stop :p

i gotta say something but im afraid it might b too public :O.im quite happy :).

owhhh yeah!im sure i've said it in my previous posts,i was supposed to go out on saturday.but i didnt so i fasted and went to the freaking dentist -.-
what a great way to spend your saturdays huh?as i was saying,i was supposed to go out but on the way home,my mom asked where i wanted to break my fast.so i said anywhere la!she said you just wanna eat in sunway so you can see your friends right?and i didnt reply her.anywaysss we went to ss15 instead la

okay then today during lunch time i had a brief conversation with J

J: so...saturday...
C: uh-huh...?
J: i thought you were going!
C: well you didnt reply me
J: i thought you were going so i didnt reply la
C: o.O
J: you were supposed to go!
C: well i didnt know you wanted me there
J: you should've gone la

at tht point i kinda regreted la.my saturdays are getting boring.literally.nevermind!this saturday im gonna go home with Ash after the scouts camp :).then afterwards i'll go home and get ready for my cousin's barbeque :D.cant wait!!!and someone might come but tht person keeps saying 'i dont mind if you dont mind.and if your mom doesnt mind'.i told him tht my aunts,uncles and cousins might think tht we're together(we're not!) and he said 'just tell them tht we're just FRIENDS la!or you can say NOT YET'.tht person gave me a cheeky grin and i said tht we dont know if tht'll happen and he replied 'thts why you should say not yet :)'.i really didnt know what to say next.anyways,his presence is not confirmed.cause he hasnt asked my mom -.-
btw,im not dating tht person aite?neither do i have a crush on him!so dont think your thoughts!(the powerful words of ms.mary xD)

why'd you have to go?is there something i could say to make you turn around?cause it's times like these when i wish i'd said dont go

100th post

2010-08-21T23:58:00.002+08:00

was my previous post :p.this is the 101th :D.yay me!never knew I could post so much bout my life before ;p.not much actually but still...at least it isn't dead right right?anyways,it's not as if anyone would wanna know every single detail bout my life.im such a boring person you'd probably wanna stab your eyeballs just reading bout me and what not.anyways...went an original Junkfood USA store and I bought 3 new tees :).I finally found what I've been looking for!you can barely find tees like these in ordinary Malaysian stores.I got myself a Smurf tee :D.im so happy :).been wanting to have one of my own and I got it at a cheap price considering it's buy one free one and and and I got 10% discount :D.so yeah im happy bout it.can't wait till finals end :).then I can go out and probably go crazyyy :p.and after holiday im gonna study my butt off for PMR with Laksh :).wanna get good grades and prove my mother wrong :p.this week im gonna attend the scouts camp and it's 3 days 2 nights.in school.but I know it's gonna b quite fun cause im gonna stay ovr at Ash's on Wednesday then leave for camp on Thursday :).and this time my sister,shuxian, is coming along :D.can't wait!!!planning on bringing my chargers along so can play with my iPod all night ;).don't think Ash and I will sleep the first night again xD.but this time we can entertain ourselves with my iPod!weee~
which kinda reminds me,gotta buy marshmallows again ;).great for roasting :D.eheheh

anyways,this is where I sign off.got an early Sunday morning.as always :)

2010-08-21T11:07:00.002+08:00

ishhh!geram sial!I feel so effing trapped in my own effing home dammit!

A great taste

2010-08-21T01:04:00.002+08:00

I wanna go out tomor...later.it's past 12 therefore I say later :).bahhh!I wanna go out and have fun I don't wanna b in the dentist chair :(.and it was sincere and now I feel like some asshole who turned tht person down just for a dentist appointment >:(.denggg!they're gonna have fun without me :(.I wanna go...why mother why?!ahhh!feel like screaming at the top of my lungs right now!the one chance to go out with tht person and I can't go :'(.how sad is tht?!very!bahhh I wanna go so fricken badly!

on another note,just came home.I went for supper just now and everything was...great :).can't wait till the next time ;).need another day la!two hrs isn't enough ;p.I had a nice time *wink wink* ahahahaha

I WANT TO GO OUT!!!!!

please don't tell me if I'm dreaming when all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you

Funnies :p

2010-08-19T22:02:00.002+08:00

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2010-08-19T21:53:00.003+08:00

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2010-08-19T21:27:00.000+08:00

im afraid of my own insecurities

2010-08-19T20:50:00.002+08:00

whoa i havent blogged with the comp for quite somee time huh.anyways,on tuesday i was told i'd get happiness in my life and now i can honestly say tht i am happy :).now i have to make a decision.my mom said i could go out on saturday but now its up to me if i wanna go or not.im not sure if its a prank or if tht person felt guilty for asking my friend and not me or something.eventho tht person said tht they were serious but what happens if it is?i go there and get stood up?wait there like a total jack?do nothing for god knows how many hrs?they didnt even tell me what time to meet them.jeez im just being super duper paranoid huh.if tht person really wanted me there then i guess i'll go.i do wanna go yeah but i have no idea why im having my doubts.i would feel so much more relieved if my friend went cause at least someone could confirm going and if we get ditched,i still have her.i dont know why im being so worried bout this.i should just chill and go right?and if i do get ditched i'd always have starbuck right?i could walk alone...as long as no one follows me :).i need help...

i see you but i can't touch you.and it's killing me,it's killing me so good

2010-08-16T23:53:00.005+08:00

Well ask me a question I tell you no lies
Cause there's nothing to hide the souls in my eyes
And I'm ahead of my time but I cannot rewind
The only thing I fear is the mirror in my bathroom
People look and try to see a disguise
But there is nothing that nobody can't see in light
If it's a song with a rhyme or a verse with a line
Then you wanna stay in my mind

It's just one heart break after one heart break.tell me how much you can take.

2010-08-15T19:58:00.003+08:00

baby,let's go sky diving together
we could hold hands and feel the wind blowing in our hair
this way,i could just look into your brown lit eyes and lose all my fears
even if it was for a mere moment
i want that adrenaline rushing through me
through my organs
through my blood
oh the bright red blood that floods my cheeks
what amazing things you do to me
i can't quite get these feelings to vanish
and i don't want to lose these feelings
they're something i have never experienced
and darling believe me when i say i have experienced a roller coaster ride
you drove me onto dangerous grounds
you drove me into a vortex

iPod blogging :p

2010-08-12T19:57:00.002+08:00

im blogging frm my iPod xD.first time,never thought I could do tht :D.ahahahah.gosh im lame :p.watching family guy now :).it's so funnyyy xD.gahhh I need new dresses la :(.I think i gotta shop pretty hard for the dress I'm looking for.it's either find it in shops or probably draw it out and put it on the internet asking ppl to look for it for me xD.kidding!just really looking for a really nice dress tht suits me la.some dresses tht I see are nice but the length of it is pretty much of a problem for me la.not too formal but not to casual,ya know what I mean?more to summer dresses la since Malaysia is pretty much a summer/spring country all yr long :p.like dresses like...on Glee in the walking on sunshine scene those were really really nice summer dresses.I feel like my wardrobe lacks colour.all I can see is some red,blue,black,white,a couple of greys and purples.so kesian la my wardrobe.lack of colour...not tht I need to shop but just feel so kesian la.I know I know I sound like a bitch la.it's ok I've been called a bitch by someone who I thought would never think tht of me but things are different now I guess.I really hope for a miracle to happen and happen soon!all I really want right now is for things to be the way it was between us before it's too late.jeez im really really really...frustrated-ish.things just somehow get better but only a couple are staying the way it wants to b.

guess what?!I got 35 for bm :(.sad me...

My Lil Gummy Bears ;)

2010-08-11T20:59:00.005+08:00

i miss my little cutie pies :(.they're all the way in sweden while im stuck here with this weird mind-changing weather...loveyouboys♥.

here's Little Paul♥.love him lots!!!lil cutie pie :)

i wonder what he's watching on the ipod.hmmm...

here's Baby David :D.he's as cute as a button♥

*nom nom nom* must have tasted good ;)

im hungryyy :p

awww how adorable are these two :D.isnt it amazing how their mom stuffs the both of em in one pram xD.owhhh Sal how still amaze me with your lil tricks :)

missing you guys♥.

i miss my little cutie pies

2010-08-09T00:11:00.001+08:00

For the Love of Sharpies♥ ;)

2010-08-08T23:19:00.007+08:00

step aside boys!i have a new love now :).

how i could just dream...

*gets weak in the knees*

immitation!!!

Kyle wants this i think :p.i want it too!!!looks cool innit?:D

uncap whats inside *cover mouth* xD

awe-to-the-freaking-some!!!

this made me laugh xD

ooolala ♥:)

this made me go awww ♥

Mood Swing-ish

2010-08-08T22:01:00.004+08:00

im sorry if it's a lil harsh but i need to leash it out somewhere!jeez...

i was fine with starting everything all over.you wanted us to be friends,i agreed.but lately it feels like we're not!you treat me like im some kind of stranger.you never say hi,hey or whatever proper greeting.you always ask me questions like you never wanted me there in the first place.tht just makes me wonder even more.do you even want me around you?it's kinda hard for me to deal with the fact tht you thought or still do think of me as a bitch.it's not tht i think of myself as a sweet cherry pie or something but i really thought you knew me well enough.you're being completely rude to me and I know tht it's not how you generally are.i don't understand how someone whom I thought I've known for quite sometime and be so nice to me,could suddenly turn out so rude to me and only me.to others you're the good guy tht everyone knows.the one i used to know.im sorry i made you think differently of me.im sorry i broke my promises,i would like to make it up to you if you gave me a chance.im sorry i didnt watch new moon with you like we planned to.im sorry if i've treated you badly.im sorry for everything i've done wrong.do me a favour and please please please just tell me what you think of me.if you dont like me then just tell me.dont,im begging you,DONT make me think about you constantly.please just tell me.

♥girly-girl-graphics♥

The Silent Week

2010-08-07T00:06:00.002+08:00

is what i shall name this week!:D
wanna know why?huh?huh?huh?owh i know you do :)
ahaha.its cause...

i aint telling :).i know im so scretive now.nahhh its just im trying my best not to b too obvious cause Laksh read it and she was like 'ITS SO FREAKING OBVIOUS!!!'.but in my opinion,its only obvious cause she knows whats going on with FULL details.im pretty sure it goes the same for everyone :).

tests are O-V-E-R!!!but the thing is...i think i practically screwed up all my papers D: so now im pretty much nervous for my results :/.bahhh bought a tube of Mentos like an hr ago.and guess what?i finished it already!:O bought it cause i got nervous for my results and thts what i do.eat!im such a fatty...

im gonna head to sleep now :)
goodnight hotties :]

Cuts healed by a tub of ice-cream :)

2010-08-05T21:43:00.002+08:00

got lotsa cuts this week.the other day i got one on my left knee then the next day on the right -.-
and today?i got a deep one on my left thigh -.-'
how?my bag
when?i was putting my bag on the floor -.-'
aint tht just the darnest thing?

nowadays since i've gotten a tub of ice-cream,i've been eating a bowl everyday afterr i come home frm school.it helps with things...its really soothing!i know i know.im gonna get fat...but thts what everyone wants frm me right?eversince i was young,all everyone's been saying to me 'eat more.should be fatter.you're too skinny'.ugh!cant they see im already fat enough?i like the way i am now so really there's no point in arguing with me about getting any fatter.its enough having Azu call me fat,squishing my arms and Laksh calling me succulent.dont need other ppl to call me fat -.-'

cuts and ice-cream fats ASIDE!
i heard something today.truth b told,i've actually known tht something for quite some time now...i've heard it frm *counts fingers* 5 people?yeahhh.i just really wanna ask tht person but i guess it'll b a lil awkward bring up the past.bahhh nevermind la.i'll ask tht person one dayyy :).owhhh wait you wanted to know tht something,didnt you?well sucks for you cause i aint telling!muahahaha im so mean,im a bitch.thts what some people would think.if you're one of those people then...what goes around comes around!you can think im a bitch all you want but just know tht there's someone else in this world thinking the same bout you.

so many confusions.but day by day im getting over it :)
just when i think no one reads my blog and tht i could practically write crap and no one would wanna care,somebody aka Azu comes along reading it -.-
not tht i have anything against it,its just tht.my blog isnt exactly the easiest link to remember...anywaysss my point is people read my blog when i dont expect anyone too.unbelievable -.-'

i think im gonna hit the sacks
been sleeping kinda early nowadays :O
like at 11 :O
nightey night :)

Activities

2010-08-01T00:10:00.005+08:00

i didnt talk much bout prom did i?less i than i expected in my mind.of course who in the right mind would wanna blog at midnight?!ok mayb me right now...but whatever la!anywaysss,wont name all the activities aite?i'll just shorten them up :).Jude was made to dance to Single Ladies-Beyonce cause he wasnt wearing his mask xD.when he came bck,he said 'i lost my dignity' xD.was so funny ;).then there was this banana game where couples have to peel and eat the banana without using their hands and one person would have the banana in their mouth while the other has to try to peel and eat the entire thing!it was funny to watch xD.after tht,Akmal was telling lame jokes but we laughed anyway cause it was funny xD.then Ace of Spades performed and everyone was just sitting down.then Akmal took the mic and said 'people get up!seriously stand up.come and dance la you assholes!dance la you assholes!' it was so funny and then when everyone got to the dance floor akmal told some Digimon joke?lameee.and finally they performed mkultra and everyons started headbanging and jumping :).was sooo fun!then they played Pitbull and the guys were jumping and headbanging while us girls were dancing.Wern Xin sexy danced!actually most of us did :D.then my date wanted to walk so we did :).Amanda,Dan,my date and i went for a walk :).we walked to the bowling alley at Holiday Villa Hotel and then downstairs to the Victorian place?yeahhh the scene was really...nevermind.hmmm then they announced the Prom King and Queen:Daryl and Mabel xD.they had their dance and then the DJ said everyone else could join in.then my date and i slow danced :).it was my first dance :O it ended real nice :)

i dont know why i keep saying 'my date' xD.everyone already knows its Jude xD.

gonna call it a night.
goodnight sleepy heads ;)

Slow-danced

2010-07-31T01:03:00.004+08:00

prom ended with a slow dance :)
it was so sweet :)
then my date saw Rohan looking at us.eventho he was wearing a mask,we could see the way he looked at us -.-
Laksh,if you're reading this...im pretty sure your bro already told you bout it.i wish it could last longer :).the event and mayb the dancing and jumping :).i'd upload the pictures but i look really really REALLY horrible :(.stupid fringe making everything look worse!argh!now my date is out with a Sedayan Elvis Presley and his bro.leaving me behind,not taking me :(.i wanna go with him...not tht i like hime in that way or anything but just wanna go out and have fun!
a certain someone went walking with 'a guy' and im curious to know what they were talking bout.yes im jealous that she got to talk to him for a long time but we used to do that and now...things are different :(

im dead beat!enough excitement and fun for the night :(.tho i wish it could last till...forever?its so fun!

2010-07-26T23:03:00.002+08:00

♥girly-girl-graphics♥

prom is this friday...
im excited:)
oh oh oh today i was supposed to go out to buy the masks for sarah momma but she wasnt replying me at dinner time :(.so i didnt buy any la.then my mom n i went walking around,finally we stopped ard the digital stores when she got a call.all a sudden she remembered my eaphones got busted in the washing machine.eheheh so she reminded me n we went to Machines and she bought me a NEW pair of earphones withe a remote and mic!!!ahhh completely in love with my earphones!!!!!who knew Gossip Girl would be...interesting :O

tht was random...these few weeks has been a lil awesome :)
did i forget to mention HE TALKED TO ME
ULTIMATE BLISS
loving Sparks the Rescue!!!love love love em!!!
lets see wat to say wat to sayyy

my date is so...sweet :)

2010-07-24T21:54:00.002+08:00

well,prom has been postponed to next friday.and i have a date :D teehee!im so excited!!!dont really know what to sayyy

THE END!

Yesterdayyy

2010-07-18T21:45:00.004+08:00

woke up at 8 in the freaking morn :O when i was supposed to wake up at 9.30!!!anywaysss i woke up the vibrations of my phone and Hadif's id appeared.

'prom dipostpon because not enough money to pay the hotel'

and i was like WAT THE?!!!
it was really disappointing...went out with ash,ell,kyle n gio :)
its so FLUFFYYY!!!xD

anyways...here's some pictures of my performances :X

i like this picture :)...

o.o

Prom

2010-07-17T00:34:00.002+08:00

is tomorrow night!!!starting at 7.30 in the evening till midnight :O
but before tht,gonna hang out at sunway with ash,ell,kyle and gio :)
cant wait!!!teehee.
gonna shop for masks for prom :X
eeepppp im becoming an excited monkeyyy :D
eheheh
woot woot woot woot!!!
see im so excited to the point where i doubled my woot woots xD
updating my iTunes n soon my iPod :D
LALALA
will try to remember to bring my cammie this time ;)
will take lotsa lotsa lotsa picturesss
or at least tryyy
cant believe i actually got a date...
:O

get me a time travelling machine.please

2010-07-11T23:50:00.002+08:00

i have the worst brothers in the world!they dont protect me one single bit!they dont interfere when i get hit and they certainly dont give a damn bout anything tht involves me!!!!
a few days ago,i found out i could have a better life!a life where i wouldnt get hit where i wouldnt have to put up with all of this!!!at tht time i was glad with how my life is even tho i had my issues.i knew i could work those problems out.but now im just waiting for the time when i turn 18 and soon i'll b able to get out of this place!
i cant believe im living this way
i cant believe in living in hell!
i cant even stand the freaking sight of her!
ugh!!!i wished she just wasnt in my life
i wished she would have just given me up!!
i hate the fact tht im an accident
i despise the fact tht she keeps comparing me to them!!
we're human,we're not perfect!!!
i was created to his liking
not yours!
so im not the perfect daughter but heck who is perfect?!
u told me to put my studies first and i did
now ur yelling at me for doing so?!
wat the heck is wrong with you
i wish i followed him to sabah!
at least i got to b away from you!!!
i dunno wats worst the fact that im crying ovr the fact tht i want you to accept for the perfect daughter im not or the fact tht i just wanna run away FAR AWAY FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR 10000 MILES FAR AWAY FROM YOU!!!!

i wish i was talking to him right now i really do.i wish he could hold me in his arms and just comfort me right now.i wanna turn back time.just get me a time machine

2010-07-10T14:53:00.002+08:00

things change over time i know tht.but how can the simplest friendship seem so wrong.i want everything to go bck to the way they were.the way we were.i want last yr bck.i want November 2009 bck.i want that simple talk on that shared bench again.i didnt want things to change,i liked it the way it was.something so simple changed.i want you to see my tears.the tears tht were just for you,for our friendship.

i want YOU back.

Sedayan Concert and Sedayan Night

2010-07-10T13:43:00.004+08:00

was a blast!i was really excited.everyone looks HAWT n BEAUTIFUL!!!!the boys were looking sharp and hot!they should dress like tht more often,they were really good-looking ;).ahahaha anyways ours was the last dance :/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tHtAVFaH1FY
go check it out ;)

p.s. try n figure out where im in :D

here's some pictures we took :D

nicole and me :)
(i look different :O,my head is HUGE!!!eheheh)

illy and me.weee~

momma sarah and me :D

vampire and werewolf ;)

Laksh,Fifa and mmeee :D

smexayyy xD

final pose :D

Outburst

2010-07-07T22:47:00.002+08:00

today we had rehersals for our dance.it went AWESOME!!!at the second rehersal,i had an outburst when i saw his perfomance and before tht i was talking to someone-who shall not b named- tht someone was also a best friend of his.i had to quickly calm myself cause after his was mine :/.then after my performance was ovr,i went to the outside railings and had a major MAJOR breakdown :/.Aarjun saw me then he nicely go tell Laksh and then she got all worried and kept asking me if i was crying.and of course wat would b my respond?if u guessed no then *ding ding ding* ur RIGHT!
im missing him a lot!the one tht im not talking to
i wish he -another person- would call me now to calm down my nerves.he's veryyy good at tht ;)

400 ppl is coming to our school to see us perform tomorrow
nerves are going balistic right now!!!:O

interesting convo below :D

someone says:
lol
whos that pretty girl i saw in school? o.o
hahahaha ~

Cyn says:
whoaaa
got ar?
:O

someone says:
i dont know weyhh
hahahaha.
what's her name ah?
cynthia teng? o.o

Cyn says:
ahahahaha
serious
dayummm

someone says:
hahahaha

Cyn says:
i gotta check her out!

someone says:
...
your checking yourself out
HAHAHA
failll ~

Cyn says:
-.-
wow i didnt know tht.
ahahahaha

lalalala CALL ME!!!:D

Lazyyy Bummm!!!;)

2010-07-03T21:42:00.002+08:00

lets see wat shall i blog bout...

one saturday before the last,i went to s-s-s-Sarah Ismail's house and i got to see the ever so lovely Eva n the bieberlicious Erika xD.had lots n lots of fun :D
took videos(which i would post up but i wont due the lazy bum typing this xD) and took loads of pictures!!!
too many in fact!i was too lazy to save ALL 200+ of em :x
therefore,no pictures this time
everyone seems to b loving tumblr but i dont see wat so special bout it
ok yes i do but not gonna get one anytime soon la
im lazy to type any further but i will anyways
keeping it super super short kayyy so bear with me
dancing bhangra to Aje Soniye-Mujhse Shaadi Karogi
go check it out on youtube
Sedayan night is next week
Argies fan here babyyy!!!woot woot
got tht term frm Andrew and its Argentina if u didnt know tht
hope the Argies will win FIFA!!!
brazilians are unfortunate,bad tempered,sore losers
no seriously they lost
tadahhh!!!im done :D

night loveysss ;)

Funny storyyy xD

2010-06-24T22:43:00.002+08:00

omgee!!!so many things happenin this week :O

i can still remember tuesday like it was yesterday xD
we were in mandarin class and tht chapter was on opposite words xD
so teacher was translating the words(we're in the lame class but in a way awesome compared to the everyday chinese speakers class xD)
so anyway... teacher was explaining and Jimmie started his two-sens words -.-

Ms Lee:success and loss
Jimmie:mine is always a success
Ms Lee:long and short
Jimmie:ooo mine is long
Ms Lee:like,dislike
Jimmie:of course i like!
Ms Lee:in,out
Jimmie:in and out.ahahah get it get it
Ms Lee:in front and behind
Jimmie:i do both.in front AND behind :D
Ms Lee:safe and dangerous
Jimmie:(i forgot what he said but i know it was WRONG.funny tho xD)
Ms Lee:normal and weird

im lazy to write everything tht he replied to so the other words tht she said were dry and wet,careless and careful,coward and brave + dirty and clean

after the first few attempts,we couldnt stand not laughing to ourselves anymore.teacher couldnt understand why we were laughing so badly xD
ahahah.funny Jimmie

on thurs,jude asked me if he could slap me :O.wanna know why...?cause my face was so 'smooth'(its in inverted commas cause it isnt) and he ddint know how else to touch my face o.o
weird right?right?

anyways now im watching Family Guy on Fox xD funny shizzz.i usually watch them on sites n all but now they're here in msia!!!!woot woot :D
have i failed to mention Laksh is in Melaka :(
i'll miss you ;)
Laksh,dance well brudder xD

regrets...
arent they just the darnest thing :x

gotta go!
bro needs to use the comp :/

Watched

2010-06-19T01:04:00.002+08:00

the A-TEAM on wednesdayyy and it was AWE-TO-THE-SOME!!!should really watch it ;).then watched Toy Story 3 in 3D on thurs at KLCC but it wasnt much.it really isnt worth watching in 3D.

on thursday night,i got a call.and i just really didnt wanna end the call :(.but the person knew me really well,well enough to even predict wat i was doing and wat i was feeling :).we ended the conversation in good terms but tht person didnt finish telling me something.instead tht person asked me if i was alright and then tht person didnt wanna continue anymore cause tht person didnt wanna hurt me.i know he didnt wanna hurt me but the person could at least finish wat they were about to say.honestly,after tht talk,i dont think i can look at tht person without a touch of sadness.i wanna go out with our (me and tht person) friends and watch FIFA and between games,i could pull tht person aside and it'll just b the the two of us.once tht happens,i'll ask tht person to finish watever they wanted to say...i really need it

now im just gonna try to sleep without crying as much as i did last night
believe me it was A LOT

Bye bye Gio

2010-06-09T14:37:00.006+08:00

went to lagoon on monday :) to say bye to gio
it was awe-to-the-some!
sorry just crapping ;)
after lagoon we went to makan at Zen
it's some EXPENSIVE shizzz brudder!
i spent 50 friggin bucks on my dinner!giler sial!
then we went to Tuitti Fruitti for some FROYO!
dude...i've always wanted to try it n now i regret not rying it any sooner!
they got 6 yoghurt flavours and more then 3 dozen toppings(at least)!
i put strawberry n mango yoghurt into my cup with GUMMY BEARS,and 4 different types of jelly ;)
it tasted sooooooooooooooooooooooooo GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*drools*
it costed me 28 freaking bucks!!!and 60 sens ;p
but it was WORTH IT!!!!!!
they taste so good :)
i think i might b addicted to froyos now *drools*

speaking of drooling...
i had a very 'interesting' conversation with...somebody yesterday
it made me laugh tho o.o
no idea why...
lets just call tht person...'B'
pls read this with and open mind!
and dont b judgemental!
it gets u nowhere!
its gonna get a lil awkward so just skip it

B: wat r u doing?
C(me): just ironing my clothes for tonight
B: lol good girl :)
C: wat to do.if i dont iron them then i got nothing to wear
B:lol dont wear anything la :).i bet alot of guys would wanna see

*at this point this point i was 'wat the crap?!:O'.i was kinda surprised B said tht

C: bet u wouldnt!
B: well i would ;)
C: no u wouldnt!
B: lol yea,i would!:)
C: ahahah.i'd like to see u fail
B: lol,try me then :)
C: u wouldnt la!believe me
B: lol :) i'll b staring till i drool :) lol eh,be more confident in your body :)
C: ahahah.sure...u definitely will (sarcasm)
B: lol like i said,try me :) lol have confidence in everything you have :)
C: i'd like to see u try...NOT!it'll turn into an EPIC FAIL!!!
B: lol it will not la :) it'll b a success :)

then i changed the topic :)

currently downloading stuff into my new pearl white hard disc :)
lambat sial i tell u but its ok ;)

we were under the murky water!;)

smile!underwater...(lameee me)

the water was coming down really strong!which also explains my 'interesting' face

the pink birdie and the pirates!

CAKE-SMASHED

2010-06-04T14:49:00.003+08:00

AGAIN!!!today we were clebrating Teachers' Day in school.things were kinda boring awhile...but then!

aarjun had cream in his hands...
he snuck up behind me...
and wiped cream on my face
zack did the same
so did kee yew
and gio...

well we didnt know wat else to do with the cake so...
we used it for a very very VERY good FUN reason ;)
CAKE FIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gio left some on my freaking HAIR!!!!

it was fun tho :)
should do this again ;)
but in a less uptight place
i think the SHORTY might probably announced this when we get bck to school >(

ohhh yeahhh!!!!i feel a 2-week holidayyy coming on!!!yeahhh babyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel the holiday FEVER!!!!!
woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!;)

Crap

2010-06-02T17:10:00.003+08:00

im feeling crappy all a sudden :(.if only jelly beans could cure it...but not this time.its weird how jelly beans cant help.

been thinking A LOT today.bout friendship and who i should mix with n who i shouldnt.then i started thinking bout how he stopped talking to me and said sorry n asked to b 'friends' again.apparently his idea of being friends is not speaking at all.i completely have no idea how crappy im gonna feel after today :(.CRAP!today was really really REALLY boring and sad at the same time.ugh!sad...so sad today :'(

cried in history class but luckily no one suspected a thing :).i was 'sleeping' and plus teacher was too busy handling the guys :).

i noticed tht Cikgu Nik Kamsiah,always ALWAYS brings up bout writing a report when she's in our class xD.everytime theres always something tht makes her tick.ahaha.today in class,i told Laksh,Joon Hoe and Khang Chee to quiet down while she scolds the other boys.when she finally said it,all four of us laughed so hard!

Ash completely syok-ed sendiri this morn.at first i was laughing at how she syok sendiri then...i syok-ed sendiri :x
i wonder how tht was possible :S
Laksh laughed at my gila face :).it was an awkward moment for me and she became mental a lil bit ;)

feeling like crap :(.somebody HELPPP!!!

In Pangkor Laut Resort

2010-05-27T00:15:00.002+08:00

right now,blogging frm their comp tht u could use anytime :).didnt do much today.had a heavy lunch AND dinner.jailbreaking my ipod now :).its soooooooo frigging exciting like omgee i just cant believe it!nvr knew it would b this exciting :D

was texting ppl but one of em went to sleep and the other...did i reply him?ohhh crap :P.i didnt...nvm reply him tomorrow when he's bored or something ;p

i think im falling for him :O.this is bad like BAD!!!its not tht he's a bad choice or watever its just tht...he likes somebody else dammit!he's a nice person tho :).i just cant fall for him it'll just b bad :(...NOT good.nope.not at all.nada.nopedy nope nope.shi-zzz.i wanna swear but there's something thts blocking me frm doing so and im thankful for tht :).damn...

well gotta do lotsa sea activities tomorrow so i guess i should go to bed...
nahhh i'll just stay up awhile.
nighty nights ;)

Scouts Camp

2010-05-24T23:09:00.002+08:00

was on friday and saturday.truth b told it was kinda fun and it made me closer to ppl i wasnt close to before.

we got there and split into groups then pitch up our tents.whoever pitched it up first was supposed to get a prize but the 3 other junior patrols' tents were disfunctional so he canceled it.mine was first :)(i know i know,perasan.but at least iwasnt much of a failure in this)then we seperated ourselves into our tents evenly.then cooked our own dinner and were given an egg at some point to take care of them till the end of camp.i drew mine with a smiley face :).teehee =].then we had a bonfire or spirit fire of the scouts thingi magigi.then we were ordered to take a bath and lights out by 1 am.me and ash couldnt sleep so we ask Cikgu Koghila to take us too a mamak so we can by roti bom n roti canai but they were closed :(.so we went to some colourful Malay stalls and bought 2burgers,2 packets of me goreng,2 milo ice,teh ais and some nescafe thing tcher ordered.

went bck and i COULDNT sleep at all so...i stayed up ALL night talking to joel,anson,ash,other ppl who were awake.by 5/6 we took our shower n slept at the entrance of the primary building.we were all side by side,heads on stomaches.it was nice :).joel saw my ic :O.NVR LET JOEL SEE UR IC!!!!

then i was seriously sleepy slept through most of the activities.i was sleep walking or sleep scouting?anyways...i specially like the last activity.we had to go through cones to get to our partners and i was blindfolded and guess who was my partner...?if u guessed joel then yes u got it rite!he n hoe luen made me n ash bump into each other a few times :(.but it was fun coz we got wet.

after the closing ceremony thingi,joel smashed my egg all ovr my hand :(.he was supposed to do it on ash's!anyways his egg didnt break so he samshed his into hoe luen's.i dunno how he got another egg but he did :(!and he smashed them into my clean arm again...I WIPED IT ON HIS FACE =]

during this camp,i learned a few things...
1.Joel is ticklish
2.Joel tickled me A LOT
3.Joel found my super secret tickle spot :(
4.i havent spoken so much Cantonese in 24 hrs
5.i was bloody tired at the end

pictures later

MID YRS

2010-05-19T20:07:00.003+08:00

ARE OVERRR!!!!!!!!

today was maths and sejarah.maths was aite and i didnt manage to study for sejarah.couldnt study during lunch cause i gotta handle some scouts stuff and well,it comes with some responsibilities.

yay!!!LIBERTAYYY!!!!

i think im still emo.i know deep inside behind all this happy faces,i know i m

angela bought me this 6 colour bracelet and its pretty like rainbows :).NO NOT like unicorns aarjun!!sad thing is...its only 6 colours but ITS STILL PRETTY!!!!thank u thank u!i really really like it!!!

it looks like this
l
v

cant u see the pretty colours?!sorry 4 the blurry atmosphere but thts wat u get when u have a 7 yr old cammie

Instead of studying for my mid-yrs

2010-05-15T13:52:00.002+08:00

im here blogging bout my sadness,surfing the net in a room where my brother is at.this is because i wouldnt have to cry.rite now as much as i want to cry i cant cause my brother is in the room therefore,no tears.

i honestly regret not telling him earlier.it hurt me when i found out they were together.he can keep asking me how i was doing but i'll always tell him that im fine eventho im not.i know he knows me well enough to sense tht im not alright but i'll still tell him the same.

i cant study coz i can only study alone.and when that happens,when im alone,i can kiss focusing goodbye.

UGH!!!IM REGRETTING THIS SHIZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

such a depressing post i know.too bad you gotta live with it

EXAMS :O

2010-05-12T22:12:00.002+08:00

they're next week and im sorta prepared.geo is getting easier nowadays i tht realise(sorta)it.Maths getting sucky like omgeee!!!i need HELP.after exams on friday,we got scouts camp.and i gotta go cause im like the lead or the patrol leader council and basically im incharge of all 6(including mine) patrol leaders,which are Moon,Ash,Shu Xian and Armand i think.then saturday got Uniform Body day.lotsa events next week man!

Cake-smashed!!

2010-05-09T00:34:00.003+08:00

i dunno why im blogging bout it after a month or so but...
a day after my birthday,Monday.
i got cake-smashed.
by...
*drumrolls*
ASHLEE LOUISE MERCELINA WINTER <3.

i had cake all over my face
and behind my ears too
i dunno how cake got there o.o

2010-05-08T00:41:00.002+08:00

Daniel recently saw my OLD facebook post tht i posted last week and started 'teasing' me bout it cause he had an idea as to who it was.i suppose.i told him i could probably get it frm a book or tht i could b talking bout another person BUT he kept repeating it and probably kept insisting tht it is him.tsk tsk tsk*shakes head*

p.s. the only reason why im posting this is because i got nothing else to blog bout.plus,it happened only a few hrs ago.so pls,do NOT think anything irrational

o yea...
walked frm school to ss15 today then walked ard just to do the dang geo projek.case its 50 marks!!!took lotsa pictures!but...i hope there's enough for me.i need 20 picures.

well nighty night candy lovers!

2010-05-05T22:48:00.006+08:00

i had a so called meal tht made me PUKE!!!not cool man NOT cool!!
went to buy my papers 4 my geo project today all in total of 12.60 on papers ALONE!!!!but they're PRETTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im gonna prove u wrong,Daniel!i aint gonna burn nobody's kitchen or home or ANYTHING actually.i aint gonna make the headlines of burning someone's house down.i aint gonna create infamousy for myself just to prove u rite!!;p

i wrote this the other day when i was waiting 4 my mom.she takes so long to pick me up sometimes...actually most of the time!even when she doesnt have work :O.its kinda cheesy but hey im full of crap!like seriously

Off to another planet
Where you'd be into it
When im right here
Wearing your ring(couldnt find any other rhyme-y words.brain wasnt functioning)

Do you still have love for me?
I wouldnt know
I know i do
How bout you?(so cheesy i know i know)

The way you look into my eyes
Makes me blush
Missing you too much til it makes me cry
Wondering if you're just another crush

Am i falling for the right person
Its hard to tell
Cause you're his _________(insert label)

p.s. i asked you to insert the label cause its just too much info

here's the pictures i promised

the 4 books i bought ;)

the junk my mom bought 4 me frm Singapore :)

the shirt tht lights up according to the music!i'll take a video of it one day

nice or just too floral?it was 4 me

nighty night ;)

i love being around you :).

2010-05-01T21:45:00.003+08:00

i have failed to mention tht Jon came bck on tuesday in my previous post.and tomorrow morning at 6-ish he's leaving for ns again :(.im gonna miss tht bundle of joy again.i was so glad to see him last night.the first thing i did when i saw him was give him a hug :D.its weird tht hugged him in front of...ppl.he looks weird with the shaved head but it was aite.went for supper with him,Jason,Megan and Matt.it was fun but i had no appetite.i's show u a picture of him and his shaved head but i dont got any :(.SORRY i forgot to bring my cam.mayn im gonna miss him.dont get any thoughts tht arent supposed to b there.

today,went to MV bought 4 books worth aproximately 160 bucks!!!scared the fer shiznits out of my mom.they're quite thick to :).i know i know im such a nerd.but only when it comes to romance and mystery murders ;).bought Cecelia Ahern's The book of tomorrow,The Summer That Changed Everything by Ann Brashares,Caroline Hickey:Isabelle's boyfriend and The Adoration Of Jenna Fox by Mary E.Pearson

sarah is my momma,my cousins are Moon n Amanda.Nak saya ialah Ash dan dia kan kahwin dengan Azu anak perempuan Moon(sarah dared me to say it).sarah sangat cantik,baik,comel,cantik lagi,baik sangat-sangat.dia sangat tinggi(ahem ahem)

pictures will b posted later

i wonder who took this picture?no seriously who took it?im thinking its Laksh

well im gonna go waste transparent wrapping paper on the novel i bought ;)

2010-04-29T20:01:00.002+08:00

i just found out tht i was being followed on Saturday by some freaky stalkers :O

Hola comarades!!!

2010-04-26T23:00:00.003+08:00

eventho i havent a clue on wat comarades means :/.anyways its fun saying it so u cant stop me ;p.

recent saturday was the Sedaya Carnival and i was an usher ooo...no hot guys tho :(.ahahah.please...i aint a despo 4 man!anyways,left early to go to Sunway and i watched Clash of the Titans with Sha,Kyle n Gio.the movie wasnt tht bad.gio slept duing the movie and we ate ALL of his popcorn!ahahaha.he was complaining after the movie in his everyday American accent.well coz he's american!

Gio: U guys stole my popcorn

Me: We SHARED!

Gio: Nooo.u guys ate all of it but i PAID for it.so technically,u guys stole it

Me: Nahhh.u were sleeping during the movie anyways so we put it to good use...IN OUR TUMMIES!!!

i didnt mention he already watched it and told kyle but kyle forgot did i.*shakes head* yea figures...

anyways i left my keys at home so i went to Ash's house and it was so funny when trent was trying to see Ash play Parking Mania on my iPod.and also when Ash was talking on the phone while i was tossing the tennis ball to Trent and vice versa.when we missed it,we kept saying FAIL,EPIC FAIL,U BROKE THE CYCLE and when we started tossing again, we said I STARTED THE CYCLE!i know we're lame but it was so much fun!!!

P.S. I GOT A HAIR CUT!!!!!!!ITS 2 INCHES SHORTER AND MY FRINGE IS 4 INCHES SHORTER!!!!!!!!!!!

do you think i should get a FRINGE?
i dont care who u are but pls do comment on my shoutmix on whether i should cut a fringe so if u dont want me to know who u are just put a disguised name...:)

melaka is...

2010-04-14T18:28:00.002+08:00

very very historical!went there for an edu trip yesterday and we were given little booklets with 40 questions in them.we were supposed to find the answers in the museums we went to in the given 20mins;with almost 300 students rushing and crowding ard a single information-stand thing.was really claustrophobic in there,eventho im not ;p.i partnered up with azu at the museums though i went with laksh.supposed to b the 3 of us but we got split up by the grouping with the teachers.i didnt manage to buy anything at the shopping complex tht we were eating at :(.the stuff they sold there were pretty cheap or so i heard.me and azu lost Laksh so we were mainly searching for McD cause tht was where almost everyone was heading.it took us probably 30 mins to find it after we went to Starbucks.after i got home i was pretty tired so i slept 4 an hr or so then i went out :)

o yea...monday was english day so there lotsa stuff going on.and it was mainly kinda boring ;p.we spent the entire time at the hall.the highlight of the ENTIRE day was during the 2nd round of the quiz.it was Andrew's turn to answer and it went like this

Libby(QuizMaster):Wat type of vegetable can be baked,steamed,grilled,barbequed,boiled and MASHED

Andrew:*silence*

*Laksh and i were like mouthing 'potato' a couple of dozen times

*Andrew looks at us in confusion,trying to mouth along with us,trying to figure out wat we were trying to say*

Libby:Ur time is almost up...

*Andrew still trying to figure out wat we were mouthing*

Laksh and i(mouths):POTATO!!!POE-TAY-TOE!!!!POTATO POTATO POTATO :O

Andrew:Potato?

Libby:Yes,correct.2 marks

*Andrew exhales in relief*

so u can imagine the situation we were in.we luaghed our ass off.i think he was blushing after tht but its hard to tell when ur quite a distance away and especially under his really tanned skin.

today was BM day.i completely ROCKED AT SUCKING 4 the pertandingan bercerita ;).the rest were really boring :(

the shoes we wore at my birthday party ;p

Kyle

2010-04-12T23:12:00.003+08:00

is so sweet man,not in the i have a crush on him way.but as in the generally,he's a great friend way.ok this morning i went to school and he kept saying to me 'ur so mean,meanie'.and i replied wat did i do?
anyway,this went on after break then later it was like gone?yea.during lunch i came down wth laksh and we were bout to buy lunch.BUT we couldnt go through the cashier to get to the fridge.we were gonna reach the crowd when i saw momma sarah carrying a cake box.

Sarah:this is for u
Me:me?
Sarah:yeah for u
Me:o thank u :).*gives her a hug*
Sarah:actually its kyle's idea

*i turn to kyle*

Kyle:u didnt invite to ur party yesterday.
Me:u live all the way in pj.how u gonna come so last minute?u live near amcorp rite?
Kyle:no.i live on the other side
Me:ohhh.im sorry i thoiught it was too far for u.sorry omgee
Kyle:nahhh its ok.

then we went to the table and they sang so loud!everyone was looking o.o
i think i was blushing.bad...
before tht i gave a hug to kyle for planning this
it was so sweet of him

2010-04-08T23:44:00.002+08:00

the things i'd do to get Ben & Jerry's ice cream right now ;)

Tweet tweet :]

2010-04-07T23:36:00.003+08:00

back fm tuition.actually i came home bout an hour and a half ago.watched glee then came online :).
have i mentioned i have a twitter acc?if i havent i do.wanted to check out wat so 'nice' bout it.i've have it 4 quite a while now but failed to mention.i havent updated in a while.barely got the time to blog nowadays.im just so busy with homework,homework and more homework!if only there's a world without homework,exams and tuitions.tuitions are bloody wasting my time.im still sucking at bm without fail :).even after a month of tuition my bm isnt improving.i know i know it'll take time and i've gotta b patient.i just barely have time to do my homework on wednesdays.i've only 3 hours to do my homework and i can assure u there isnt enough time to complete everything and sleep early.ugh!!!o gosh,tht reminds me.i've gotta call sathya cause i promised him ;p.

p.s. Jeffrey is soo friggin spastic

before cross country :)

well im feeling uber tired now
*yawns*
nighty night world
sweet dreams hunkey bunkey :)
i love you <3
muahh(lame...)

Dikir Barat

2010-04-03T00:41:00.003+08:00

im doing dikir barat with moon,sarah momma,fifa,abi,tasha,trish,stephie,tracy and elaine :).feels like im gonna screw it up dammit :(.just do for the fun of it la

Tuition :O

2010-03-31T18:23:00.003+08:00

did i mention im going for TUITION on wednesdays?!one little thing i forgot to add.i started going from like a month ago.its bloody boring and all we practically do id karangan,karangan and MORE karangan.most of them r chinese and frm SMKSU.so basically their primary language is chinese but they're fluent in english too.i feel ike im the dumbest in the class but whatever la.Go there,please my mother -.- and come home.do nothing more.

now i decided to leave at least one pic of whatever in a post if not then my poor blog'd b a drag :p

Dr.Shih(see how old he is?:p),my momma Siti Su Sarah Afini Binti Ismail,and the funny Jimmie.not forgeting the lame-ass fox on the far right
this was taken after the march pass during Sports day :p

Red Foxes are HAWT!!!!SMOKING.....

Neglection

2010-03-29T22:11:00.004+08:00

seems to be the only thing im doing towards u,bloggie ;).recently,we've been having cross country and sports day.made a bet with kee yew tht if he got top 2 i'd buy him a steak :(.n he got frigging 2nd place after gan.acctually hoped it was andre tht way,red would atleast score more points.i got 11th :(.was so upset with tht

on the 27th,had sports day.took part in 400m run,long jump and discus.got 4th for all of em :'(.one placing away frm getting a medal and getting points for red house.gosh,if i hadnt batal-ed the last round i could have gotten 3rd place!:O.my gosh im such a friggin failure like seriously!wat the...?!i was so upset.

p.s. we were only limited to 3 individual competitions 4 each student

on sports day,ran 4x100m and 4x400m.won 4x100m :).all of us were like so happy.tracy was right behind me and she was just a second too late.4x400m was really upsetting the most.was ahead of hazel at first then ran out of breath so she ovrtook me.kudos to her,she deserved it.i broke down after running.could barely breathe,walk or talk.then i literally broke down in tears cause i let down my beloved red hotties.i wanted to show him tht i could win something for red house this yr.i wanted him so see me succeed and give me congrtulatory hug but of course tht didnt happen,even when we won the 4x100m run he didnt talk to me.the only time he talked to me was when he was 'motivating' us b4 tarik tali.did tarik tali against the green house and we were so not ready at all!so we lost which put us in last place *sob*

this yr the red foxes didnt win marching :(.the trophy was given to the blue panthers.we tried our best and was able to pull it off but our banner was cacat-ed cause it was upside down :p.it was still readable :)

this was what the final pose was supposed to b without the banner being upside down ;p and louise cause she injured her foot.poor girl ;).arent we hot?!u wanna know why?CAUSE RED IS HOT BABY!!

p.s.s. i know my blog became cacated with the arrangements and all.as long as u can read good enough rite?rite.rite?so u guys wont get bored.

p.s.s.s. i tried updating on saturday but my comp started lagging cause i was talking to...victor(i thin)on facebook so...laggg

wanna sleep now ;)

:)

2010-03-14T01:15:00.000+08:00

somehow i cant stop replaying our conversations over and over again in my head.i cant sustain my patience as to when i'd see u again.i cant wait as to when i see ur caller id on my phone at 1 in the morn as i try to fall asleep but fail to acomplish.i await for the momment where u tell me u love me and i'd cherish it,even if u dont notice.when u question why i giggle all the time,i started to question it too.mayb its because of u mayb itss because of how happy i m just by speaking to u.when we talk bout certain things and we laugh bout it but still continue laughing,i always wonder if u were actually serious bout them.sometimes i hoped u were but then my mind processes the consequences.it kinda scares me how i go back and forth bout whether im falling for u or not.i know we say 'i love u' and all but in what way do you mean it?

a penny for your thoughts.i wonder what your doing rite now...nahh dont really care :p

It's a quarter after one,
Im all alone and i need u now,
Said i wouldnt call
But i lost all control and i need u now.

p.s. i updated :p

2010-03-13T23:06:00.002+08:00

heloooo world!how ya'll doing?!

this week's been all bout sports day
n gosh!its tiring!!!
wat i did on monday and tuesday were a blur besides cheerleading practice and talking on the phone :)

wednesday was sukantara day after sukantara had cheerleading practice again

thursday was the cross country rehersal n after break we had the 400m race and...i got 4th place :(.noooooo

yesterday was cross country n i got 11th place!!!noooooo.but ashlee got 1st :).it wasnt surprising and she completely deserves it!!!YOU GO GIRL!!!

cant believe im a one place behind frm getting a medal in both the freaking races!!!argh!!!!i know its good,at least i tried and all tht but noooooo!!!!!!!gosh...i take these things too seriously.im pathetic and mundane.

my entire body's aching bad.bahh.my toes bled,damn.now i cant wear shoes :(.have to wear open toed shoes :(.cant wear slippers to church so its either some lame gold sandals or heels so i went wth the sandals but tomorrow i dont kit'll work.so i guess tht means heels :(

im lazy now.to type.chatting now so blogging is interupting me :p

Of all times,why now?

2010-03-07T23:56:00.002+08:00

my entire left side is is aching,bloody hell!
there's a mysterious blue-black mark on my left knee,thighs hurt,getting sudden headaches.WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?!

this weekend's been fun..?yesterday i went to my aunt hse 4 a bbq n this evening went to the sime darby convention center to celebrate my bro's,kitty's and my aunt's birthday.the buffet restaurant's called Halia.the food there isnt tht bad but there's limited choices :(.i stuffed myself like there was no tomorrow.on my way home,i was bout to EXPLODE!!!!!!!but luckily i didnt.

so now i gotta do my damn geo project tht's 40 friggin marks in my test!!!!!!!!!!!my printer's busted so i gotta ask someone to help.urgh!!!all the bloddy useless bull!!

currently,blogging,doing my maths,facebook-ing n looking 4 pictures.damn lotta shizz to deal with!!!!

JUST KISS ME & LET ME LOOSE!!!

sorry,just felt so random to the point of randomness :)

urgh!

2010-02-22T23:03:00.002+08:00

too many things to deal with!!

but its a good thing me n a certain someone talked it out n we're good:)!!!!yay!!!

on the other hand...
my stupid tests started today,dammit!it was science n history
by god's grace,science was SORTA easy to me.if i hadnt cramped my brain into my success,i can officially confirm itht i flunked even b4 the results come out!!!!
history can KISS MY ASS GOODBYE to passing!!!!after the test,i laid my head on the table n teacher took my paper to check n she said there was a lot of mistakes so...IM DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today while study 4 history,me n trisha had some 'komik sambil belajar' thingi n Moon,Natash,Trish n me were like reading it with different accents.gosh it was SO bloody funny!!!!!we had all sorts of accents man!!!daymn we laughed so loud!!!!!ahhahaahahah

gosh i have so many pics to upload on facebook n so many friggin posts to edit.dammit!!!cause so much trouble!shit u laa!!!!

just a small little shoutout to mr someone(dont know if ur reading this):-

grr.i miss u!!why did u have to go so far?!!now i cant see you anymore!!!!:(
bila kau balik,datang jumpaku tau?dah janji tau?jangan mungkir janji ni

p.s. i know my bm sucks.forgiv me if u get confused

gotta go study no :O
such a friggin shocker to me
im STUDYING!!:/
See ya.

Holidays are FUN!!!!!

2010-02-19T01:34:00.002+08:00

omgee!!my holidays were so frigging fun!!!monday i went out n played Left4Dead til 3 in the morn!!!omgee i was getting adrenaline rush after the game.i was under impression of being drunk?awkward...
then tuesday i didnt do much.tho,it was pretty fun at night.cant state wat i did coz it made me too happy.
yesterday,i went out wth Sathya n Laksh 4 a study group at Pyramid.i know i know its really shocking 4 me to study but its true.we went to starbucks n we were the loudest ppl there!we laughed our ass off n daymmmnnn we were loud!we actually managed to study,surprisingly!wow i feel so...studied!awkward innit?

slept frm 7-ish to 12 just now
n now its 2 in the morn!
bet u im gonna b tired when i get bck to school..

i wanna continue my crap now
so see ya.

Happy Valanese Day or watever?

2010-02-14T22:44:00.002+08:00

thts wat i keep hearing dammit.yes im dateless n valentine-less on Valentines but dayymmnnn ppl are so lovy dovy bout this chizz.its kinda...icky!honestly i gave up on Valentines a looong time ago n believe me thinking bck bout guys pouring their hearts out for their so called 'girl of their dreams' or 'soul mate' or 'The One'.and when they turn him down,he'd probably b upset or something.its just plain ridiculous!not trying to ruin ur romance mood or watever its just not really tht worth it.why show tht person how much u love them on one 'SPECIAL' day when u can actually do tht any other day.its kinda bogus,even if i have or dont have a valentine/boyfiend/watever.its just bogus

on the other hand i spent my weekend at my aunts' house.yesterday went to pj n this afternoon went to ss2.its friggin boring ovr there n when i wanna play wth my ipod,the little ppl comes all ovr me,wanting to play wth it.i'd like to share really i do but them playing wth my ipod,fighting for it,complaining n whining tht its their turn,really really irritates me.today was kinda interesting coz my aunt's new home was kinda awesome,sorta.their playground was kinda awesome but there wasnt any swings :(.the landscaping ard the pool was (i have to admit) beyond awesome!the view is a little too construction like...awkward!!!n the other interesting thing was,i received a text frm a number tht i cant remember saying 'i am sorry.' n i do not know who sent me tht coz my damn phone completely erased EVERYTHING n i didnt do ANYTHING AT ALL!!!sad,innit?anyways i replied tht dude,asking who it was but no reply which just makes me a little dissapointed.

all the fights i've been into are all solved n finished n now we're fine but i honestly do not know who's the one apologising.its driving me insane!i just wanna know really bad so tht i can forgive the dude n just live our normal lives wth no insanity.no hurt.no sadness.no dissapointment.there's only one person crossing my mind now n i really really hope its him.if it is him then my life would b absolutely AWESOME!

anyways my plans 4 the hols are sleeping,eating,the normal stuff n visiting my cousin's cousin's granmomma's bungalow in Mont Kiara,i think.going there 4 dinner.other than tht probably some hanging out,group studying(i hope) n more studying!i cant believe i just said tht.studying n me do NOT go together but its form 2 n i gotta give it a shot.if i flunk,daymn life's gonna get ruined!seriously.ugh!!!!!too many exams!wish i could put a stop to all exams,tests,pop quizes n all of tht!stupid grades.stupid studying pressure!

im too lazy to type d
i'd put pictures but not really tht semangat now
See ya.

p.s. i heart Glee!!!

i love Candy Canes!

i <3>

i give free hugs =]

i need one now :(

i forgive you,guy who's number i dont know

i love everybody!!literally!

Owl City sings wat i wanna say

i need to study more :(

i NEED mr.*censored*

2010-02-10T23:17:00.002+08:00

Yoyoyo!!!!

im officially the retarded one in class coz i always ask irrelevant questions in Science n well,yea.ahahahhah.ooo ooo there was once when i started speaking to my milo box and...
everyone heard me...=/

i kinda like school now...its feel a little awkward.but besides the school work,it feels kinda nice,learning stuff.omgee!who m i turning into?!tho,things between me n a certain someone arent getting better,i feel really really happy.and i kinda swear less,which is a good thing!i notice i dont get angry tht often anymore...wow is it just me or have i changed?

i know i still say 'wat?!' when i throw things on to the ground.i was speaking to Laksh on the phone the other day n then i was halfway changing.all a sudden i said 'wat?!' n she was like wat??ahahahha.n then i told her i was saying tht to my shirt.we started laughing.ahahahhahaha.soooooooooo funny!

o yea to the ppl stalking my blog,i updated d,as u can see.so chill.i will TRY to update next week

im soooo lazy!!
blog later!or not
nope i wont
See ya.

Happy Happy Birthday

2010-02-05T15:55:00.001+08:00

firstly to the funniest Jon i've ever met who's borned on the 5th of Jan!!!

omgee!this pic is hlarious!!thts so Jon.ahaha

Secondly,to Siti Sue Sarah!!!!
u were born on the 2nd n i love u so so very much!!!
keep on loving Taylor Lautner,girl!
oh oh n keep on rocking!

so adorable!

Thirdly to the one n only Afifa!!!!!

love u Fifa!!ooo n i love hugging u too.ahahahaha

Lastly to Ashley babay!!

i love u!!!hope u like ur present :P

wow i realised there's a lot of ppl's birthday in February.Kee Yew's is also on the 2nd n our dear Alpha Secretary,Stephie's is on the 8.todya is Tania's n tomorrow's is Jamany's.damn...lot of ppl!Jamany's hilarious man n ash says he's horny...awkward!ahahahaha

Injuries

2010-01-30T00:54:00.002+08:00

2 weeks since Jan 1st,i've hurt myself bout 10 times.sad innit?

oh oh oh!
there was once when Bao Hong was so friggin rude to Cik Kamsiah n he was completely irritating every1 especially me.he cari-ed pasal wth me n i got sooo pissed till i threw my correction tape at him :).ever since then,he bcame such a whimp to me.when i wanted to go to the toilet,cher gave me the pass b4 him n after i used it he wouldnt even touch it.LOL.so he let Kar Yan use it 1st.lame...

today was such a roller coaster.i was all happy the entire morning then i wasnt too happy anymore coz of somebody.
here's a 'story'

guy pushes the girl.girl shouts at him.guy shouts bck.girl holds her anger.she goes bck to her seat.about to cry.the girls ard her says 'dont cry'.then she starts to cry.bell rings.she leaves in tears.walks through a large crowd in the hallway.everyone she knows in tht crowd sees her in tears.she's taken advantage of the fact the she's actually a softie.

dont ya just hate the part where they say 'dont cry' then she juz cries?
sad innit?

now i juz have the urge to say innit
innit?

its not even february n i've already gotten into 2 fights,sad innit?
luckily things are better now :)
sadly the certain someone i mention bout in my earlier post is still not talking to me
still have no idea y
i miss talking to him
it feels so comfortable talking to him

lazy to type more...
now i've update
dont haress me bout updating again till february starts,k?

See ya.

Dear bloggie of ye old bloggie of mine ,

2010-01-28T23:11:00.003+08:00

sorry i havent been updating i know u feel dead but no worries im finally here to feed u n revive u :).u could put the blame on me but i put the blame on my damn teachers who gives me damn lot of homework.i know u feel so poor wth all the old posts but once again,im here to give u new ones to make u feel...less poor.more to average?anyways... im here to fill u in on wats been going on the inside as well as the out,bloggie.so please bare wth me.but i know how abandoned u feel so so be abondoned no more!!!for i Cyn m here to...UPDATE!:p XD

first day of school

my happiness level was at 100%!!:) ok fine..98% the 2% was coz of *ahem ahem* n yes i know it happened a 'long' time ago(*cough last cough yr*).we had 2 new kids not including Xiao Tong(she's been here since primary.left last yr.came bck this yr)the 1st new kid,Stephenie!!!!Natash asked me to call her Fury.ahahah.funny betul.not really.the second newbie is Bao Hong -.-
p.s. i detests this guy!

in the first week,he's all quiet.at tht point i wished he was more sociable but not interrupting the class n being all rude to the teachers like how he's been since the second week.he's made the worst of Khang Chee n the boys.they had better behaviours last yr!n he also insulted Manda n Ash!bloody bastard!as if he's tht hot!yes mayb amanda can b rude but only to u,u ass!u wanna know y?!its bloody coz of how bloddy rude u r to practically every1!U BLOODY A-HOLE!!!

lets change the topic now :).n not talk bout tht bloody bitch.yeah i said it!a bitch,u r a bitch n i know the term bitch is for females.n guess wat :)?!im calling u a female!!!!!just in case ur teeny weeny brain cant interpret my english!or ur limited use of english cant understand wat im saying!!!there i said it!!u read me.

after the second week,my happiness level went down by 5 at first coz mr someone told me he's going far away.after tht,my happiness level went down by another 10% coz of a certain someone.now every day till the day he talks to me or until i find out why,my happiness level will decrease by 1%.sad innit,bloggie?

Fortunately,ppl arent suspicious bout it :).as usual i wear a mask to hide the truth of all this sadness inside of me.only Moon knows what im going through.appreciate it man!<3 u Moonie!!!!!
Random.

o guess wat!damn principal is making our jackets standardized!!!like WTF?!!!!!!!
i like to see ppl wearing their colourful jackets!!!it brightens up my day somehow :).
luckily they're letting US design it but if its collared then i AINT buying it!
yeah we gotta pay!i like the colourful ppl in their pretty jackets!sometimes they express....their pretty colours!n it certainly brightens up the school!unfair betul!

pictures will all b uploaded in the next post for shizzle!*awkward...*

well its kinda late now :(
currently chatting wth mr someone :)
he totally brightens up my night
makes me wanna stay up all nght but i cant
anyways
keep fershizzling bloggie ol' bloggie

See ya.

Things of 2009

2010-01-02T21:53:00.003+08:00

thought i'd write something bout what i went through on the yr 2009.it may b kinda lame,may b kinda interesting.wat u think of this post does not interest me,or mayb it will.wouldnt really matter.so enjoy it or not :/

1.the WORST feeling on Earth,sadness

2.the MOST romantic poem i've ever read.read it for yourself,it might make u go 'awwww'

I see you at school

And you glance my way,

Passing through the halls

In your odinary day.

But anytime

Your eyes meet mine

Is a day so rare,

A day so fine,

Just another face,

I'm nothing to you;

You look but dont see;

You haven't a clue...

That my heart is racing;

I'm trembling inside;

So much love for you

I'm trying to hide

I love you.

3.My trip to Australia :).was superb!especially the Joker i bought frm MovieWorld.but now it belongs to Daniel :(.as much as i want him to have it,i dont.i really love tht Joker.unfortunately,i dont get to see him(Joker) anymore

4.Failure is wat i mostly felt throughout the yr

5.Drawing wth Trisha :).sorry no pictures,dont wanna give her talent away.haha.juz kidding,cant really upload anything right now.thanks to my card reader

6.Having FUN

7.Betrayal!How could they!they will nvr b forgiven!!!!!NEVER!!!!

8.Silly times :P

9.Parties!!

10.Heartache,throughout the yr :(

11.Trying to keep a positive attitude.it works wonders :).tho,im still rough but i

prefer tht than being a softie(not sure how to spell it)

i guess thts bout it.im pretty tired now after today,went out but Sherrinder was a no show.how sad...was sorta searching for a present 4 Daniel.i tried looking for a present 4 him b4 christmas but couldnt find anything.still couldnt find anything :(.oh and guess wat?!MY MOM & *ahem ahem* didnt want me to buy Daniel a present juz bcoz he didnt get me one.it doesnt really matter if he didnt get one.its called sincerity!u shouldnt b getting ppl presents juz to get them in return!leaving tht alone now.anyways,i LOVE jellybeans btw :)

See ya.

2010-01-02T21:41:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year Everybody!!!!!

Hope this new yr brings new beginnings,especially for those in need of them.

Let's hope tht we'll make the best of this yr.

And not forgetting to rock it out!!

Make the best of it!

thts all i can say

Happy 2010!!!!

Christmas stuff.LAME!!!

2009-12-29T00:09:00.006+08:00

Hi ho people reading this!!!=]

Chirstmas celebration(on Christmas eve) wth the family was more fun compared to the previous yrs :).we had to play some Superman,Batman,Wonderwoman game thing.was really funny especially when the men did wonderwoman hahaha!i was excluded :).playing games on my iPod wth Eve,Adam n Thomas.cute little ppl!the other game was Charades :).n the thme fore the day was movies :).its damn easy if u watch a lot of movies,it has an advantage to it.u could always use it for an excuse.the food was AMAZING!!!!!!so damn GOOD!!!

Church Christmas party(on Christmas) was pretty cool.the games were aite,nothing much to say bout tht.didnt really eat tht day,i know sad.Sherrinder kept asking 'Why u not eating?Why u not eating?!'.i told her tht i had a huge breakfast(which i didnt).its obvious tht i was lying
Miriam pushed her jelly to me -.-
Wasting la these ppl.well no actually
i realise tht i practically spent the entire makan time talking to Daniel.odd.but we were talking bout practical stuff like Converse :) n Jacob (even bigger =]).basically we just talk crap n we laugh bout....well,crap :).but it was a nice crap conversation.i guess its coz we dont really talk much nowdays or thts wat i feel.i dunno.
Phoebe kept calling him 'Yohobo' hahaha.daniel asked wat she meant n she said it meant hobo,ya know ppl on the street,living on the street.something like tht i guess.i dont understand why its yohobo and not hobo alone.confusing but funny!i know...SO LAME!we girls got body shop stuff.the soap smells AWESOME seriously!

After the party,followed Phoebe to OU.she wanted to lepak there or shop?but we barely bought anything.all we bought was food :).ate lunch at Pasta Zanmai,spent like an hour or two there.then we didnt know where else to go so...went to the arcade.was kinda fun but we were seriously exhausted.then we snacked at Auntie Annie's(or however u spell it).went bck to Phoebe's place n opened presents there :).here's the list of what ppl gave me.

Sherrinder-2 Keychain bun wth the smile face on it.MAN!she knows me so well!i could really use it,especially when im angry :)
Phoebe-really pretty necklace :).love u Phoebe :)
Nat-Candy cane!!!n a black Elianto nail polish.to b honest i dont really use nail polish but its the thought tht counts right?

ok.i think i'll stop here coz if i go on and on and on,ur brains might explode from all this crap.if ur brains do happen to explode due to my crap,im really really sorry.i'll make it up to u,i promise :)
btw,THANK YOU to everyone who's gotten me a present!i really appreciate it :).it was really cool of you to get me a present.eventho,i may have not gotten u anything :( sorry.

i felt like crap on Christmas.it feels so different compared to last yr.REALLY DIFFERENT.
well dont want ur brains to explode so..

See ya.